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[Grateful]

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Savon-Congrats to you too! 5 months is GREAT!! You go ahead and boast away!!

[one2many]

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Gratefl, I hear ya...I have smoked butts from an ashtray....walked to the shops in a storm for smokes..hidden it from everyone in the family and used up BOTTLES of perfume trying to disguise the smell.

Such a waste of effort and time....

[savon19]

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one2many;867333 wrote: Awwhh Savon!! 5 months! Thats AMAZING!!

Please drop in again to see us....It is so inspirational when the "oldies" drop by and you see they are still quit and happy!

"OLDIES" -- well, I guess this is ONE good time to be an oldie! ha.

Oh, and I didn't drink for the first two months... couldn't Imagine a drink w/out my ciggie!

Guess the bad news is that Eventually... you can.

[Brigitte Bardot]

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Personally, I think your ass is lovely.
And you're not a problem to me...

[FallenAngel]

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Grateful & Oney....
you're not the only ones that hid their smoking. I too hid my smoking after relapsing from a 2-3 year quit. I was so embarrassed to admit that I had started again, and couldn't bear to see the disappointment in my husband's eyes, that I hid my smoking... for 8 long years. I finally came to realize that not only was my smoking slowly killing me physically, but spiritually as well. It wasn't until I went online, did I find out that there were other closet smokers... up to that point, I thought I was the only one that was so frickin stupid as to hide their smoking. A huge burden was lifted from me when I discovered others that were/had done the same thing as myself.... I no longer felt alone, trapped in my secret addiction.
Besides discovering that closet smokers aren't that uncommon, I also came to realize something else:
Although us closet smokers suffer more (emotionally) while active in our addiction than other smokers, we have the advantage of reaping instantaneous rewards from quitting. The very moment we quit, we are given back our life... a life free of the guilt, the shame, and all of the lies. We regain our self-respect, our integrity.
I have met many ex-closet smokers over the past several years.... and I can truly say that these people seem to embrace & cherish their quits like no one else. :h .... I know I do

[one2many]

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Thanks Bardotwoman xxxxxYours aint too bad either x God Am I a problem to some people???

Fallen, I think that is it, why I feel so happy and free and simply over the moon...no more shame and self hate because I always slunk back to smoking behind everyones back...

You hit the nail on the head..I have my self respect back and it feels darn good xxxx


2 weeks, 8 hours, 9 minutes, 10 seconds

Cigarettes not smoked 286

Money saved ?118.40 (Which has been spend on a brand new Computer desk and chair!!)

[Grateful]

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Wow, Fallen. Thank you so much for sharing that. You are so right....I feel so "dirty", I guess is the word. I would love to be emotionally free in all areas of my life-I was able to become AF 8 1/2 months ago and now if/when I become NF, I believe I will be totally free. I am going to do the online course you posted - but I must get through this weekend 1st as I am having a big family picnic which I am stressing about. (I know, I know - another excuse). Thank you for your wise posts and your willingness to help. You too, Oney!!:l

[FallenAngel]

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Grateful;867965 wrote: - but I must get through this weekend 1st as I am having a big family picnic which I am stressing about. (I know, I know - another excuse).

This is a perfect example of when to use some of our traits that can work against us at so many times, to work FOR us. For me, those traits are stubbornness, defiance & being obstinate (to name a few :H).
There's nothing more that our "junkie thinking" loves than to see us stressed out about something... it sees it as an opportunity to exploit any self-doubt that may creep into our head & use it to its advantage.... and that is like the enemy finding the weak link in our armor.
For me, I always seemed to find my strength in situations where temptation was the greatest... my defiant nature loved a good fight! :H :H :H
It is the "long dark tea-time of the soul" (to quote Douglas Adams) that I find the most difficult. The important thing is, I know this now, and can keep vigilant for any signs of my junkie thinking trying to find a way in through the back door.

Good luck to you this weekend... I hope that you use it as an opportunity to show how you can shine in a difficult situation! :l

[Grateful]

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Thank you.

[one2many]

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Just an update from me...LOVING the Smoke Free life...no REALLY BAD cravings to speak of....I don't know if it is that I am just not getting any strong ones or that i am so bloody determined this time that I will never smoke again that I just dismiss them as soon as they come..

Eitherway, I am doing very well and could not be happier!!

Anybody want to take the plunge with me...if I can do it...ANYONE can...seriously!

2 weeks, 3 days, 10 hours, 30 minutes, 59 seconds

Cigarettes not smoked 348

Money saved €144.07

[one2many]

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Hey There guys,

Had a HUGE craving on Sat night due to an upset I had..it was very intense and powerful but I got thru it.On Fallens advice, I sat down and let the feeling wash over me....I understood it for what it was and let it pass, it did take a while tho but it passed and then I stuck my finger up at Nick 0' Teen and told him to F*** Off.
We were broken up and no matter how he tried to woo me back, I was with another lover now....One who enhances my life instead of destroying it.
It felt good.

2 weeks, 5 days, 8 hours, 17 minutes, 32 seconds

Cigarettes not smoked 386

Money saved €160.22



Anyone else gonna join me??

KatieB??

[startingover]

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You are amazing woman!
I am so proud of you x

[spuddleduck]

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oney you are fandabadostasic. ive cut down, still on lozenges but still smoking... not as much though so im happy with that at the moment

[DeeBee]

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You do make me laugh Oney

stuck my finger up at Nick 0' Teen and told him to F*** Off

:H:H

I'm super proud of you!!

[one2many]

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Hi Guys,

Feeling a bit lonely on this thread on my own....but it is good for me to chronicle my journey so I can look back on it at a later date.

Anyone feel like kicking the fags and joining me??

Anywhoo.......Still waking up with a tightness in my chest and it kinda hurts when I breathe in. I am fine when I get up and get moving but that initial feeling on waking feels like I have been smoking loads.
I hope it is the healing process and not that I have lung disease from 20 years of tobacco abuse.
I have no cough as such and have not been coughing up crap.

I am finding that the habit aspect of it is diminishing quite well...I no longer think of a smoke after a meal or first thing in the morning, I have replaced these trigger times with other activities and it is working well.

My skin has improved greatly, I can notice such a difference..people have comented that I am fresher and more radient....feckin fantastic!

3 weeks, 8 hours, 20 minutes, 10 seconds

Cigarettes not smoked 426

Money saved €176.36