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[techie]

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Hey X you OK???

[aspman]

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hey, hows it going X?
still with us?

[XWino]

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I made it by the skin of my teeth. I actually downed some benadryl and fell asleep. Almost like I passed out without the normal stress and worry that I usually have before sleep (unless I drink). Scared though this might be the begining of another addiction I liked the escape from my worries.

[Hippy Chick]

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Glad you are getting there Xwino. Just take each day as it comes, each minute if necessary. Be gentle with yourself and dont beat yourself up.
Stick around as these lovely people will pull you thru.
Hip

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

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Hey XWino, good for you, well done. Now next time the wave starts to wash over you think back to this time and how you feel this morning knowing you fought and won. Its a great feeling isnt it. Just because you took a pill doesnt mean you have to do that again, it took more than that to have you waking up sober this morning.

[Panno]

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Xwino I am so pleased for you, well done and I think anything that gets you past those strong urges to begin with is a must, something I must take on board myself

[Cinders]

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XWino,

Glad you made it. Each day sober is a day that helps our brains learn we can live sober.

Lack of sleep in the beginning is a huge cause for early relapse.

In rehab, they gave me a medicine called Trazodone. It is an anti-depressant that actually causes sleepiness.

It is non-addictive and works very well.

They told me to stay away from Benadryl if at all possible because it has the possibility of abuse, also no Ambien, Lunesta, others like that.

Just a thought. A doctor will typically not even bat an eye prescribing Trazodone because it has a very low probability of abuse.

I don't usually push meds like this but I know that manic period in the evenings when you are desperately searching for that drug that will relax: alcohol. Sleep can be very elusive for the first couple of weeks.

I found that after the first week, Melatonin was more than enough to get me to sleep.

Hang in there, after about 10 days, you will be absolutely amazed at how much better you feel physically and it is a good spur to moving ahead and suddenly you are sleeping the best sleep you have ever had in your entire life without anything at all.

Cindi

[XWino]

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Thanks everyone for the support! :thanks: If I had really slept, I would have woken up with a sense of pride. As it is, I am happy I resisted, but still having the sleep problems.

As to the trazadone, I remembered my dr had prescribed it for sleep a while back. I found the old prescription, but no refills. I have another antidepressant sleep med that I am going to try. I called that prescription in today.

Please feel free not to read anymore. The following is long. I think after a while I was more talking to myself. I liked doing it and I think I will start a blog.
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I spent most of my life sober. I didnt start drinking until I was 35. I am one of those weight loss surgery patients, so I guess my overeating was my crutch. I am wondering why life sober is not appealing to me. I wake up not with the shakes, not hungover either. I wake up and just want the day to be over. Waking up to the glare of the day and my thoughts and my anxiety is just not appealing. Before weight loss surgery, I would sit and think what I would have for dinner. After I started drinking, I would think of ending the day with wine. Both were enough to get up and get me moving. Now, I wake up and its like I have nothing to look forward too. I can plan dinner, but I am no longer a big eater. Food has lost that loving feeling. And now I cannot, do not need to drink wine. So, its work all day, get the kids, cook dinner, watch tv, try to sleep. Maybe I should be content with that. At least I have a job, food to cook a tv to watch. Am I unappreciative? I think the thing I hunger for is love. Yes, I love my kids, but I want love in a male/female type relationship. I totally don't have that with DH. Other than the kids, I recognize it was a mistake to marry him. There is absolutely no love there. No one to look forward to them getting home. Taking me in their arms. Instead I have someone that sits around and ignores me while mindlessly watching tv. Is it lack of love and hunger for love that kept me eating and drinking? I always thought it was anxiety. Maybe its both.

[Cinders]

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XWino,

I, too, am a GB patient and it was a year after the surgery that my daily 2-4 glasses of red wine a day became bottles. (Of course, I didn't drink for a few months.)

It got much, much worse.

There is a lot of addictions that pop up after GB surgery. Some speculate as high as 40% go on to deal with other addictions.

Much speculation as to why. Perhaps we addressed one addiction without addressing the root cause. Changes in chemistry, etc.

In my case, I would much rather be obese than a drunk. Both kill but alcohol destroys.

Cindi

[herosa]

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