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    #76
    Help guys - I'm losing the battle

    CONGRATULATIONS JOHNNYH!

    You had alot thrown at you today and you passed with flying colors!

    Sweet dreams to you.
    AF Since April 20, 2008
    4 Years!!!     :lilheart:

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      #77
      Help guys - I'm losing the battle

      http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d4Cr7kxjSBs[/video]]YouTube - Marty McFly with the Starlighters "Johnny B. Goode"

      Johnny be good
      "In the depths of winter I finally learned there was in me an invincible summer ."
      AF - JAN 1st 2010
      NF - May 1996

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        #78
        Help guys - I'm losing the battle

        Haha. thanks Chill.

        Thank you everyone today!!!
        AF since 15th March 2010

        The journey is the goal. As long as you're fighting the good fight and you're not giving up on giving up, you're winning. It's not about how often you get knocked down, it's about how often you get up again. Sobriety the goal for sure. But striving to get to that goal is what it's about. Not getting there. Because the journey never ends. The journey is the goal.

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          #79
          Help guys - I'm losing the battle

          johnnyh;885178 wrote: The meeting was were it was supposed to be and I 've got an updated list of all the meetings in and around Cape Town.

          It was really great. The people were super friendly and super welcoming. People from all walks of life.

          I could relate to the story the speaker was sharing and it was just great to be in company of people that share the same road.

          Thanks all for helping me through today. It's 7pm nearly here now and thanks to you I've made it through most of the day allready. Today is what counts tomorrow is to worry about itself

          Other guys gave me his number and said we should have a cup of coffee during the week so looking forward to that.

          True thing he said to: It's not the 20th drink that's the problem. It's the first.

          Love that
          Hi Johnny. Just wanted to say I was really sorry to read about your struggles in pot #1. I immediately thought of the recent Stanley Cup playoffs and I'm in Chicago - Blackhawks country!! This town has been insane throughout, and culminated with the Hawks win earlier this week. I thought about some of my AA friends who are MAJOR sports fans and who had been talking about enjoying the experience sober.

          Then I read you were planning to go to an AA meeting! That made me smile. I'm so happy to read you ultimately had a good experience even after the rough start with the first (non)meeting. There is something really cool about face to face support.

          I completely understand the combination of some fear and denial keeping you away from AA. I felt that exact same way for YEARS. The program and it's people have helped me a lot and I hope it helps you too. Between My Way Out and all the fabulous folks here, and AA - WE CAN DO THIS!!!

          No drink is so good that it would make the consequences worthwhile. At least not for me.

          Have a good night sleep.

          DG
          Sobriety Date = 5/22/08
          Nicotine Free Date = 2/27/07

          One day at a time.

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            #80
            Help guys - I'm losing the battle

            Hey DG.

            I really, really loved it. The people were so welcoming. I don't know what I was so scared of first.

            I've just while watching the footie read through the starter pack of pamphlets and really enjoyed it. There is some great advice and great things there. One pamphlet in particular, 15 points For an Alcoholic to consider when confronted with the urge to take a Drink! Very, very usefull stuff in there. I might just post a couple of things here on the forum. I know there's a lot here that don't go to AA and would have not read any of the litereature.
            AF since 15th March 2010

            The journey is the goal. As long as you're fighting the good fight and you're not giving up on giving up, you're winning. It's not about how often you get knocked down, it's about how often you get up again. Sobriety the goal for sure. But striving to get to that goal is what it's about. Not getting there. Because the journey never ends. The journey is the goal.

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              #81
              Help guys - I'm losing the battle

              Jonmmy, thats a great idea. a lot of us would not have read it....
              "It's not your job to like me, it's mine!"

              AF 10th May 2010
              NF 12th May 2010

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                #82
                Help guys - I'm losing the battle

                johnny, I don't believe I've seen that "15 points to consider..." pamphlet. I'd LOVE if you post some of it here. I bet several AAers and non-AAers will find something good. I too look back and wonder what I was so scared of. I find great comfort in having face to face friends who share my most difficult challenge in common. And it is nice to build my non-drinking life along side like minded people who share the same goal. Figuring out how to "socialize without AL" is really a non-issue for me now.

                Anyway...just like here at My Way Out, all the same things don't "hit home" for all the same people. But everybody finds something to hang their hat on. Hope it works that way for you too.

                DG
                Sobriety Date = 5/22/08
                Nicotine Free Date = 2/27/07

                One day at a time.

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                  #83
                  Help guys - I'm losing the battle

                  That's great. I will post it in a seperate thread.

                  AA is great. It works for me. I'm a spiritual person very much believer so the whole foundation the AA builds on suite me greatly.

                  Very touching story by the guy. Once I get into it a bit I'll start reading up on your weekly AA thread as well. I see you're a regular poster there DG.
                  AF since 15th March 2010

                  The journey is the goal. As long as you're fighting the good fight and you're not giving up on giving up, you're winning. It's not about how often you get knocked down, it's about how often you get up again. Sobriety the goal for sure. But striving to get to that goal is what it's about. Not getting there. Because the journey never ends. The journey is the goal.

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                    #84
                    Help guys - I'm losing the battle

                    Hi Johnny,

                    Oh Gosh, I always stay in "just starting out" so I am so sorry I missed your post. I hope things are better for you today? I know, even at my job everyone is going crazy over the games, I can imagine how hard this would be for you!

                    The truth really is... your not missing anything really, dont be fooled by thinking that you are! All the people that are getting drunk at the games, sure they are having fun. Some of them are social drinkers and definately some of them are alcoholics. Perhaps the alcoholics just dont give a crap, and want to party too. I suppose that is what you have to ask yourself.. Is it really going to be worth it? I know you have already asked yourself that, but what is your answer?

                    Im praying for your strength to see the truth, even in a time where truth might be distorted. Be strong brother. Perhaps say a couple of extra prayer to the ultimate Healer to help you as well. You know he will!!

                    Hugs to you across the miles,

                    Overit
                    I LOVE MY SEROTONIN AND BOOZE SCREWS IT UP!!!!!

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                      #85
                      Help guys - I'm losing the battle

                      Hey thanks Overit!! I know you hang out in the starting out section mostly so I know you weren't just bluntly ignoring me

                      It's amazing how my mindset changed throughout the day yesterday from going into town and actually thinkin wow I'm so glad i'm sober and can enjoy this fully as opposed to some ppl being half past out before the games even begin - to much later thinking that I should be drinking and couldn't possibly be having fun without. Deception my friend. Deception, that's what it was. That little devil on my right shoulder.

                      I shouldn't allow myself to dwell on these things, but easier said then done right? ONce the thought was rambling on inside me, there was just no stopping.

                      However feeling much better tonight. And another lesson learned. This too shall pass
                      AF since 15th March 2010

                      The journey is the goal. As long as you're fighting the good fight and you're not giving up on giving up, you're winning. It's not about how often you get knocked down, it's about how often you get up again. Sobriety the goal for sure. But striving to get to that goal is what it's about. Not getting there. Because the journey never ends. The journey is the goal.

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                        #86
                        Help guys - I'm losing the battle

                        Johnny,

                        I get those strong urges too! All the time! The only difference between me and you is that I am not at a place where I say NO! You are much farther along than I am, and to be honest, much stronger than I am. The beast still has a hold on me. Be thankful you are blessed with the strength to say No!

                        Would I trade places with you if I could? Absolutly. For those of us who are still fighting this battle it seems to be a losing battle at times. In my eyes, you are winning the battle while I am still floundering around with my weapons. Dont worry, I have no intention of giving up the fight

                        Just remember, your sobriety IS worth it. Im really proud of you and all the progress you are making. Think of all the others you are inspiring as well. You certainly inspire me!
                        I LOVE MY SEROTONIN AND BOOZE SCREWS IT UP!!!!!

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                          #87
                          Help guys - I'm losing the battle

                          Hi Johnny,
                          I have not been on for the past couple of days, which I why I am late. I think you've done a remarkable job staying sober so far. I can imagine how the atmosphere in SA could be a ferocious trigger. I know for me celebratory events present a much stronger temptation to drink than any other. But whenever we do not give in to the urges, the more ammunition we have against them the next time they roar in our ears. This will make you stronger. Hang in there! Will be thinking about you.
                          While we may not be able to control all that happens to us, we can control what happens inside us.
                          Benjamin Franklin

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                            #88
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                            John, I was reading a comment that mentioned everyone drinking, the people like us with problems and the people for whom this is a special and rare occasion. The thought crossed my mind that those of us with AL problems look as these occasions as vindication; a chance to look normal even in our excesses. Everyone's doing it, we don't look like the only fools (like we do on any regular day of the week!). Just my thoughts. And why sometimes we can't be like everyone else when it comes to AL.
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                            Never look down on a person unless you are offering them a hand up.
                            awprint: RUBY Imagine yourself doing What you love and loving What you do, Being happy From the inside Out, experiencing your Dreams wide awake, Being creative, being Unique, being you - changing things to the way YOU know they can BE - Living the Life you Always imagined.awprint:

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                              #89
                              Help guys - I'm losing the battle

                              Johnny,

                              I wasn't online yesterday so I am just catching up with you today. I think you showed great resolve in the past few days, and especially in reaching out to get the support you need to stay sober. Encouraging for us all. And good for you.

                              Best to you,
                              T.
                              AF since May 6, 2010

                              Forget the past, plan for tomorrow, and live for today.

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                                #90
                                Help guys - I'm losing the battle

                                Ruby - Your mention of "everybody's doing it" made me think of a quote I've heard "If the majority were insane, we would lock up the sane people" perhaps all us reformed drinkers are actually now the sane ones, not throwing huge quantities of AL down our throats and using a football tournament as an excuse to get completely leggless?

                                Johnny I just want to say how much your whole journey yesterday is a sucess story which we can all celebrate and a good example of the great support this site provides. You did the absolute best thing and came on here posting about how you were feeling, you got the 1st response in 4 minutes followed by many more. You also took the initiative to find out where the AA meetings were in your area and despite a false start you persevered till you found one. When temptation strikes us we need to use the tools we have and hopefully avoid as many relapses as we can.
                                :goodjob: EVERYONE!
                                "In the depths of winter I finally learned there was in me an invincible summer ."
                                AF - JAN 1st 2010
                                NF - May 1996

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