Help guys - I'm losing the battle
Like sobriety is just not good enough for me tonight....
Like sobriety is just not good enough for me tonight....
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AF since 15th March 2010
The journey is the goal. As long as you're fighting the good fight and you're not giving up on giving up, you're winning. It's not about how often you get knocked down, it's about how often you get up again. Sobriety the goal for sure. But striving to get to that goal is what it's about. Not getting there. Because the journey never ends. The journey is the goal. -
Help guys - I'm losing the battle
Johnnyh take your pill,you have done so well, dont throw it away now. come on johnnyh you can do itjohnnyh;900661 wrote: It's so tough. I just can't walk out on my family like that. My wife will be sooo dissappointed. I know in my heart I CAN't give in. But it's so difficult just to say right now, that's it. No drinking.
:congratulatory: Clean & Sober since 13/01/2009 :congratulatory:
Until one is committed there is always hesitant thoughts.
I know enough to know that I don't know enough.
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Help guys - I'm losing the battle
Oh dear Johnny,
What set you off? Do you know WHY you want that drink? Is it a feeling of not being able to control something (work) or someone (a coworker)?
I agree with Jackie. Pop that Antabuse NOW so you won't be in turmoil anymore. You sound like you're suffering terribly.Comment
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Help guys - I'm losing the battle
I know I can't throw away all this AF time. But what am I going to do tonight after taking that pill?!!! Just vegetate on the couch?!!!AF since 15th March 2010
The journey is the goal. As long as you're fighting the good fight and you're not giving up on giving up, you're winning. It's not about how often you get knocked down, it's about how often you get up again. Sobriety the goal for sure. But striving to get to that goal is what it's about. Not getting there. Because the journey never ends. The journey is the goal.Comment
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Help guys - I'm losing the battle
Johnny and Mario,
Sorry...cross post.Comment
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Help guys - I'm losing the battle
You're not defenseless Johnny you've got the power of MWO behind you.
And for God's sake don't drink tonight then start over tomorrow. Think it out a few drinks tonight and you're going to blow over 3 months of hard work.It could be worse, I could be filing.
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Help guys - I'm losing the battle
I was just driving home... and for some STUPIDDD reason I just started thinking about having a beer. I don't know why... it hit me out of the blue. And I didn't stop the thought there. Like I know I should have. I started obsesssing for a short while about that drink but then gave up the thought knowing that friend was coming over.AF since 15th March 2010
The journey is the goal. As long as you're fighting the good fight and you're not giving up on giving up, you're winning. It's not about how often you get knocked down, it's about how often you get up again. Sobriety the goal for sure. But striving to get to that goal is what it's about. Not getting there. Because the journey never ends. The journey is the goal.Comment
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Help guys - I'm losing the battle
Shame. I got my whole family (wife and kids) sitting in teh room now with me. GUess they're worrying too.AF since 15th March 2010
The journey is the goal. As long as you're fighting the good fight and you're not giving up on giving up, you're winning. It's not about how often you get knocked down, it's about how often you get up again. Sobriety the goal for sure. But striving to get to that goal is what it's about. Not getting there. Because the journey never ends. The journey is the goal.Comment
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Help guys - I'm losing the battle
Do what you have done since march, come on johnnyh,watch ghana beat uraguay, go for a walk there are lots of things you can dojohnnyh;900670 wrote: I know I can't throw away all this AF time. But what am I going to do tonight after taking that pill?!!! Just vegetate on the couch?!!!
:congratulatory: Clean & Sober since 13/01/2009 :congratulatory:
Until one is committed there is always hesitant thoughts.
I know enough to know that I don't know enough.
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Help guys - I'm losing the battle
Where are your littlies now, go pick them up, see them smile. They don't need any outside stimulus except a full tummy and a clean nappy to make them smile.It could be worse, I could be filing.
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Help guys - I'm losing the battle
I was going to cook. But that's out of the window. and just nothing seems to be making up for the evening we were supposed to have.AF since 15th March 2010
The journey is the goal. As long as you're fighting the good fight and you're not giving up on giving up, you're winning. It's not about how often you get knocked down, it's about how often you get up again. Sobriety the goal for sure. But striving to get to that goal is what it's about. Not getting there. Because the journey never ends. The journey is the goal.Comment
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Help guys - I'm losing the battle
yeah guys. I don't know what to say... I just hate it when this happens...AF since 15th March 2010
The journey is the goal. As long as you're fighting the good fight and you're not giving up on giving up, you're winning. It's not about how often you get knocked down, it's about how often you get up again. Sobriety the goal for sure. But striving to get to that goal is what it's about. Not getting there. Because the journey never ends. The journey is the goal.Comment
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Help guys - I'm losing the battle
Johnny,
I re-read your post and here's the thing....that instant gratification of having that drink will not be worth it because your wife will be SOOOO upset with you? Is AL more important than your wife's love and respect? NO!!!! She's been so proud of you because you've been sober and now you feel like your defense mechanism bailed out on you so what's there to lose? Everything. You'll have that drink and then you'll be trying to repair your relationship with your wife....begging for forgiveness....feeling shame. I speak from experience. I've been there....the shame I felt was NOT worth that drink. We're all here for you.
xoxox
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Help guys - I'm losing the battle
First time in over two weeks. But bad enough now that it's happening.AF since 15th March 2010
The journey is the goal. As long as you're fighting the good fight and you're not giving up on giving up, you're winning. It's not about how often you get knocked down, it's about how often you get up again. Sobriety the goal for sure. But striving to get to that goal is what it's about. Not getting there. Because the journey never ends. The journey is the goal.Comment
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Help guys - I'm losing the battle
johnnyh dont be giving yourself excuses.johnnyh;900678 wrote: I was going to cook. But that's out of the window. and just nothing seems to be making up for the evening we were supposed to have.
This craving will pass, let it pass
:congratulatory: Clean & Sober since 13/01/2009 :congratulatory:
Until one is committed there is always hesitant thoughts.
I know enough to know that I don't know enough.
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