And have no regrets.
This comes with a “do not try this at home” disclaimer. This is just me and piece of my puzzle.
Last year, some time after an AF year, I had many discussions with friends and family about drinking. Most said my drinking was a product of my situation, pointing fingers at FH (former husband) and that I was not an alcoholic, that excess drinking under the circumstances was understandable if not “normal”, etc. I agonized over that. Could I really drink like normies now that the marital l mess was behind me and I had an AF year under my belt? How would I ever know if I didn’t try it? Could I set rules and stick to them? Would I even NEED rules? I HAD to know. I was probably one of those children who touched the stove burner to see if it really was as hot as they said. You know how they say “the truth shall set you free”... It did.
So… I made a conscious decision to drink again. I didn’t fall off the wagon, I stepped down voluntarily. At first I easily stayed close to the wagon but soon I saw that I was running along behind it. I realized if I didn’t jump back on I would be dragged in the mud behind it. I’ve wallowed in the mud before. Doing it again isn’t on my bucket list.
So, I don’t have two AF years. But I did have an invaluable experience. One that I will never, ever repeat. If you find yourself wondering like I did, I can spare you the trouble of satisfying your curiosity. Stay the course. It is truly dangerous off-road, even in big girl pants.
But you already know that don't you.......just be careful to not kid yourself. 
Onward and upward!!
BTW, I have been AF around 8 months now, but counting isn't important any more.
This comes with a “do not try this at home” disclaimer. This is just me and piece of my puzzle.
Last year, some time after an AF year, I had many discussions with friends and family about drinking. Most said my drinking was a product of my situation, pointing fingers at FH (former husband) and that I was not an alcoholic, that excess drinking under the circumstances was understandable if not “normal”, etc. I agonized over that. Could I really drink like normies now that the marital l mess was behind me and I had an AF year under my belt? How would I ever know if I didn’t try it? Could I set rules and stick to them? Would I even NEED rules? I HAD to know. I was probably one of those children who touched the stove burner to see if it really was as hot as they said. You know how they say “the truth shall set you free”... It did.
So… I made a conscious decision to drink again. I didn’t fall off the wagon, I stepped down voluntarily. At first I easily stayed close to the wagon but soon I saw that I was running along behind it. I realized if I didn’t jump back on I would be dragged in the mud behind it. I’ve wallowed in the mud before. Doing it again isn’t on my bucket list.
So, I don’t have two AF years. But I did have an invaluable experience. One that I will never, ever repeat. If you find yourself wondering like I did, I can spare you the trouble of satisfying your curiosity. Stay the course. It is truly dangerous off-road, even in big girl pants.
But you already know that don't you.......just be careful to not kid yourself. Onward and upward!!
BTW, I have been AF around 8 months now, but counting isn't important any more.
awprint: RUBY Imagine yourself doing What you love and loving What you do, Being happy From the inside Out, experiencing your Dreams wide awake, 
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