Why I don't have 2 years today

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Why I don't have 2 years today

Greenie
Did I write that post or you???
Well could be either but i still have that dream and am not sure when i will finally get it. It is too easy to blame the EX.
But the big girl pants do help.
XOXO
Time

[ladyjan]

Why I don't have 2 years today

Greeniebum..:h
I reckon a whole lot of us needed to read that..:goodjob:

coz for sure it has gone thru a lot of our minds..
I know it has mine...and the answer is NO I can't.....I mustn't..never...
it's right as you say, you think you've got the hang of it and in control of the AL....
and the situation which caused it has now passed...
but NO.....it truly is a demon that would just suck me back in bit by bit....
and leave me drowning in the mud..!!
no matter how I might kid myself I would never get "that bad" again...
and just a nice glass of wine with a nice meal....hmmm??
NO I must stop and say NO to myself..
thanks for this thread..
it has answered the demon whispering on my shoulder..
he can F right off......:l:l:l:l

[brittzak]

Why I don't have 2 years today

Greenie,
Remember someone once said if me and you could get sober ANYONE could. Well, I will be AF for 1 full year the first week of August. I think we all have to test it. I have went 4-5 months, 8 months once...I am 10 months now. But, the one thing I learned was....it never truly goes away. I don't think about it daily, I don't even come to the site much anymore, but every now and then it does creep in to my mind and I think..man a lemon drop martini would be great right now. OH and no doubt, it would be great at that moment, but I already know where that leads. When I think back now on the things I did and ways my friends, family, and mainly my children saw me in...GROSS! They will NEVER see that again. I am way proud of you!!!!!!!

[momof3]

Why I don't have 2 years today

Greenie,

I just saw this post. Thank you for sharing this. I too had to test the waters a little over two years ago after being AF for almost 2 months. My fall was fast and hard. One night of binge drinking combined with serious guilt and a hangover (and a dear friendship almost lost) convinced me that I cannot and will not drink any longer. There is just too much at stake. I don't regret it though. It was a hard lesson that I had to learn.

M3

[Guitarista]

Why I don't have 2 years today

Thought this great thread would be of interest, so bump!

Thanks Greenie.

[Nelz]

Why I don't have 2 years today

I gotta be honest, this thread REALLY hit home. I keep flip/flopping if Im gonna quit or mod.

Im like a Jekyll and Hyde quit/mod quit/mod. Its still getting away from the triggers I guess, but that is virtually impossible. My hardest urges are when I watch movies, and someone pours a shot of whiskey. I dont know why, but at that moment I go into white knuckle mode.....dreaming in my mind just how nice it would be to have just ONE shot.....just ONE.

Ive sort of committed to making it a year before doing anything rash. I think I shall use your post and its info, to surf the urge. Such a great post with such insight....thank you, and props to Gman for bumping it.........I needed a wake up call like that :goodjob:

[Supercrew]

Why I don't have 2 years today

Nelz;1211042 wrote: I gotta be honest, this thread REALLY hit home. I keep flip/flopping if Im gonna quit or mod.

Im like a Jekyll and Hyde quit/mod quit/mod. Its still getting away from the triggers I guess, but that is virtually impossible. My hardest urges are when I watch movies, and someone pours a shot of whiskey. I dont know why, but at that moment I go into white knuckle mode.....dreaming in my mind just how nice it would be to have just ONE shot.....just ONE.

Ive sort of committed to making it a year before doing anything rash. I think I shall use your post and its info, to surf the urge. Such a great post with such insight....thank you, and props to Gman for bumping it.........I needed a wake up call like that :goodjob:

No offense Nelz, but I don't think GE's post was about triggers and urges. GE quit for a year, and after losing the mental obsession with alcohol decided under her own free will that she would like to test to see if drinking was an option. She found out that it wasn't.

I did a similar thing after about 3 months of sobriety, I had no real urge to drink, I was not physically dependent anymore, I just wanted to test myself to see if I could handle it. I too found out that in a very short time I was back to being a problem drinker.

The message is once you find comfortable sobriety don't second guess your resolve and test yourself to see if you are cured and can drink in moderation, because you can't, and you will learn the hard way.

[Chillgirl]

Why I don't have 2 years today

When Greenie 1st posted this I was nearly 6 months sober and it really hit home to me. I pulled it back out my mind on several occasions when these crazy modding thoughts crept in.

In 6 weeks I will celebrate 2 years AF.

Thanks for bumping Mr G

[mollyka]

Why I don't have 2 years today

Great thread, admired it first time round, and very timely --- thank you:thanks::h

[Nelz]

Why I don't have 2 years today

Supercrew;1211118 wrote: No offense Nelz, but I don't think GE's post was about triggers and urges. GE quit for a year, and after losing the mental obsession with alcohol decided under her own free will that she would like to test to see if drinking was an option. She found out that it wasn't.

I did a similar thing after about 3 months of sobriety, I had no real urge to drink, I was not physically dependent anymore, I just wanted to test myself to see if I could handle it. I too found out that in a very short time I was back to being a problem drinker.

The message is once you find comfortable sobriety don't second guess your resolve and test yourself to see if you are cured and can drink in moderation, because you can't, and you will learn the hard way.

Thats the beauty of the written word, it can be interpreted many different ways....You go with your version that works for you, and I'll go with the version that benefits me..MMMMkay :thanks:

[MrsB]

Why I don't have 2 years today

Brilliant Timing!

I am so glad I logged on today and read your post Greeneyes. I will be one year AF next week and was just thinking should I just try to have one?

I know in my heart I would end up the same way I was, but I was just ignoring the answer to the questions in my mind because they weren't what I wanted to hear.

Now I have read your post there is no way I am going to have one next week. I am happy just the way I am.

Thank you

[lolab]

Why I don't have 2 years today

beautiful....thanks for the bump G - and for bringing it to our attention in the other thread Chill. And Greenie, for the original post. :-)

[Chillgirl]

Why I don't have 2 years today

MrsB;1211324 wrote: I am so glad I logged on today and read your post Greeneyes. I will be one year AF next week and was just thinking should I just try to have one?

I know in my heart I would end up the same way I was, but I was just ignoring the answer to the questions in my mind because they weren't what I wanted to hear.

Now I have read your post there is no way I am going to have one next week. I am happy just the way I am.

Thank you

This is so great to read! Together we CAN make a difference...... :yay:

[Supercrew]

Why I don't have 2 years today

Nelz;1211309 wrote: Thats the beauty of the written word, it can be interpreted many different ways....You go with your version that works for you, and I'll go with the version that benefits me..MMMMkay :thanks:

Whatever works for you.:goodjob:

[Saoirse & the wild horse]

Why I don't have 2 years today

Having a shitty day!! This helped thanks!