Hello all...some of you may remember me, I was a bit of a fixture here two years ago. Today is a very special day for me and I wanted to share my story, hope and gratitude with you all.
Two years ago today I came to these boards, filled with despair. I was so low and found the encouragement and hope that I so desperately needed. And even though I drifted away, I never forgot that this site and the people here are the reason I am sober today. I am so grateful for stumbling upon this site and for finding freedom from my 20 + year drinking problem. I used the CD's and supplements and cannot believe that I actually succeeded! So considering this personal milestone, I thought I would share a few things that I?ve held onto in the last two years, things I learned here.
1. The quote ?It is easier to stay out than get out? (moderating was too much hard work for me).
2. Think of others ? I would carry a token around in my pocket that said this phrase - to remind myself of how my drinking was hurting those I loved.
3. My hand is a quadriplegic ? it can do nothing without my will. I am in control of it and I will not lift a drink to my lips!
4. You have to want sobriety so bad you are willing to do anything for it - willing to feel uncomfortable at a party, willing to feel shy and awkward (at least that was me). Those feelings pass as you become stronger and one day you suddenly realize that there is so much strength inside of you that you didn't know you had!
Sobriety is a gift you give yourself. Every morning I wake up with a clear head and never have to worry about ?oh my God, what did I do last night ? who did I call??. I?m able to pick my kids up and take them places after 5pm and if there is an emergency overnight I am able to respond. It is FREEDOM. Five p.m. is no longer the witching hour for me, it now passes without a second thought. I have no desire at all to drink because I know in the morning I?m going to feel fantastic! So to all of you who are as desperate as I once was, please hang on and continue trying. It took me a while to make it stick, but so far so good! There is always hope, just never, ever give up!
Eternally grateful to you all,
Cindy
Two years ago today I came to these boards, filled with despair. I was so low and found the encouragement and hope that I so desperately needed. And even though I drifted away, I never forgot that this site and the people here are the reason I am sober today. I am so grateful for stumbling upon this site and for finding freedom from my 20 + year drinking problem. I used the CD's and supplements and cannot believe that I actually succeeded! So considering this personal milestone, I thought I would share a few things that I?ve held onto in the last two years, things I learned here.
1. The quote ?It is easier to stay out than get out? (moderating was too much hard work for me).
2. Think of others ? I would carry a token around in my pocket that said this phrase - to remind myself of how my drinking was hurting those I loved.
3. My hand is a quadriplegic ? it can do nothing without my will. I am in control of it and I will not lift a drink to my lips!
4. You have to want sobriety so bad you are willing to do anything for it - willing to feel uncomfortable at a party, willing to feel shy and awkward (at least that was me). Those feelings pass as you become stronger and one day you suddenly realize that there is so much strength inside of you that you didn't know you had!
Sobriety is a gift you give yourself. Every morning I wake up with a clear head and never have to worry about ?oh my God, what did I do last night ? who did I call??. I?m able to pick my kids up and take them places after 5pm and if there is an emergency overnight I am able to respond. It is FREEDOM. Five p.m. is no longer the witching hour for me, it now passes without a second thought. I have no desire at all to drink because I know in the morning I?m going to feel fantastic! So to all of you who are as desperate as I once was, please hang on and continue trying. It took me a while to make it stick, but so far so good! There is always hope, just never, ever give up!
Eternally grateful to you all,
Cindy
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