Hello Everyone.....
My boyfriend (who's also alcoholic but denys it) and I of five years are breaking up and I will be moving to San Francisco. I am very excited but nervous because this is a big move for me and there is no room for falling back, it's time for me to get it through my head that I am alcoholic and will do whatever I can to save myself. I don't want to die from this, unfortunately my boyfriend continues to drink and last night he came home with a six pack and drank it in front of me. It was so sad to see him drunk because I don't think he will ever stop, in fact I know he won't that can't be my problem anymore. I was not at all tempted because since last Tuesday I was on a two week drinking BAD binge and on had such bad pains in my stomach, the shakes, throwing, couldn't sleep and was in bed for two days. This happens WAY too many times (24 years) for me and I can't do this anymore. I am on Day 3 (longest I gone AF is close to 90 days) and I am so determine to beat this.....I am tired of having two weeks AF and then decide to drink and well guys you know the story. I have lost NUMEROUS jobs, friends and a chance to have a child (that really hurts) because of this. Sadly to say I only have one real good friend and he really doesn't know the truth, he knows I have issue with drinking but the real truth and when I would lose a job, I would LIE and tell him that I was laid off.
It's been my dream to live in San Francisco and I will lose everything if I drink. I am 40 years old and don't want to fail at this. So, I will be moving to San Francisco hopefully by the end of summer and would like to meet other MWO members because I am really going to need ALOT of support, so if you live in the San Francisco please PM if you are interested to meet for coffee.
Sorry for long post and I can't wait to share this journey with you guys. Thanks for reading.
Lots of hugs,
Janet:upset:
My boyfriend (who's also alcoholic but denys it) and I of five years are breaking up and I will be moving to San Francisco. I am very excited but nervous because this is a big move for me and there is no room for falling back, it's time for me to get it through my head that I am alcoholic and will do whatever I can to save myself. I don't want to die from this, unfortunately my boyfriend continues to drink and last night he came home with a six pack and drank it in front of me. It was so sad to see him drunk because I don't think he will ever stop, in fact I know he won't that can't be my problem anymore. I was not at all tempted because since last Tuesday I was on a two week drinking BAD binge and on had such bad pains in my stomach, the shakes, throwing, couldn't sleep and was in bed for two days. This happens WAY too many times (24 years) for me and I can't do this anymore. I am on Day 3 (longest I gone AF is close to 90 days) and I am so determine to beat this.....I am tired of having two weeks AF and then decide to drink and well guys you know the story. I have lost NUMEROUS jobs, friends and a chance to have a child (that really hurts) because of this. Sadly to say I only have one real good friend and he really doesn't know the truth, he knows I have issue with drinking but the real truth and when I would lose a job, I would LIE and tell him that I was laid off.
It's been my dream to live in San Francisco and I will lose everything if I drink. I am 40 years old and don't want to fail at this. So, I will be moving to San Francisco hopefully by the end of summer and would like to meet other MWO members because I am really going to need ALOT of support, so if you live in the San Francisco please PM if you are interested to meet for coffee.
Sorry for long post and I can't wait to share this journey with you guys. Thanks for reading.
Lots of hugs,
Janet:upset:
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