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[Johnny]

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Hey Girly Wirly,

Glad your session with the counsellor went well. I've got mine tomorrow, can't wait. I've been going a while now and I genuinely hate to miss it. I hope it works out for you honey. Keep posting.

Johnny x

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

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Its great to hear you sounding so positive Girly Wirly, I am delighted it was a such good experience and you are looking forward.

[girly wirly]

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hi everyone,

just want to say i'm very busy this weekend preparing for our holiday, so if i don't post much don't worry. gotta get holiday clothes for the girls, get packing ready for next fri. xx

[betty boop]

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Have a great weekend girly ............. thanks for letting us know .......... xxx

[Johnny]

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Have a good weekend GW. Be good to yourself, you are in my thoughts

[techie]

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Have a GREAT weekend Girly. I will keep you in my thoughts too!

[Meech]

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Girly,

So glad you went to counselling and are feeling better. You sound so positive in your last post. Keep going and have a good weekend.

[girly wirly]

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i plan not to drink today. these last two weeks have been full of al, every night. at LEAST two cans of beer and a bottle of wine every night. sat night i went out with the hubs and his sister. had at least 6 pints of beer, three or four glasses of wine (large ones) and a few brandies. then came home and poured a glass of wine! that didnt get drank as i passed out and woke up on the sofa 7 am sunday. then still had more sun evening. my tummy is delicate and my liver aches. because my appointment is thursday for the al programme, i'm stupidly giving myself permission to drink until then. like, its fine to drink now cos its getting sorted on thursday. ridiculous. i'm going on holiday friday too. i told the counsellor i felt fraudulent going to the al appointment as i KNOW ill drink on holiday. i'm just setting myself up for another fail. he explained that the team will be able to deal with it all and take everything into consideration and work a programme out that is suitable for me. i'm putting too much emphasis on the appointment, but i need to get it into my head that the hard work truly needs to come from me. some willpower, some effort. nobody but me can GET me sober, but i'll take all that is thrown at me! if i can abstain from now untilthursday i'll have a clearer mind and a stronger desire to get well. come on girly, you can do it.

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

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Yes you can GW. The story of your night out resonated with me, right down to the poured out drink still there half undrunk in the morning. I have drank it on waking at 5 or 6 am, warm and flat. How crazy is that? No way to live my life. I hope you finally see that.
I think you are drinking like this because you think it is a last horah before you get into the program even though you say you are going to drink straight after. You know deep down that this has to stop, please dont keep putting off that day, the day that will change your life in ways you can only imagine. You 'plan' not to drink today? How about you WILL NOT drink today? I know it scares you but it can be done, just look around you here.

[mollyka]

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Girly, you don't seem to have your head in the right place, hope I'm not speaking out of turn but I would say it is essential that you go into Thursday with a few days sober so you can absorb all that is going on and you are confident to deal with a new programme. Holiday Friday, you say you know you are going to drink? Really Girly - like Ktab says, just planning not to isn't enough you have to just not drink.
I don't want to upset you truly - but the only way to stop drinking is to STOP, NOW. There will always be a holiday or a birthday or christmas or in my case it could be somebody lost a cat up the road, anything.
The sober life isn't an affliction, it is a wonderful releasing freedom - go for it Girly - I'm sorry if this seems a bit harsh - I really wish someone had been straight with me a long time ago, I've wasted so much time!
Molly:l:l:l

[mollyka]

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Girly, just wanted to say, I hope I haven't upset you - whatever you decide is right you will get full support here, I hope you know that. You have been thro a lot and you have come here with honest heartfelt posts. Am really thinking of you
Molly

[spuddleduck]

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girly, it would be great if you can not drink till thursday. if your anything like me you will be nervous about the appointment so that wont help, but as you say your head will be clearer to take things on board. i know it will also be difficult being on holiday. that would be a huge trigger for me and its early early days. dont get me wrong im certainly not making excuses for you to drink. just do your very very best and get your head into a way of thinking to deal with this

[girly wirly]

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hi guys. no molly, you don't offend me at all! i couldnt agree with you more. honestly, i love to see your replies. your posts are always say what the sensible half of my brain is thinking.:l

i know i am in the wrong frame of mind, thats why i posted, so i could get a little stern talking to from you lot. you're right planning not to drink is not enough. let me rephrase. i am NOT going to drink today. no excuses. i'm hoping they'll give me some anti craving meds to start to help me on holiday. can i do an alcohol free holiday? the truth is i don't think i can. do i want to have an al free holiday? i don't know. some soul searching to do today. im tired as i've been up since 3am and i'm hungover. my anxiety had me cleaning out kitchen cupboards at 5 am. so i need sleep, water and some food.

[Marshy]

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girly wirly;915082 wrote: do i want to have an al free holiday? i don't know.

That's the key thing, isn't it? Until you (or any of us) actually want to give up it's not going to happen. It took me years of knowing I was drinking in a very damaging way to get to the point where I wanted to stop.

Addiction is a complicated business.

[Guest]

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Girly

We give ourselves so many reasons to drink and they are all non-reasons. Going into a programme sober puts you one step ahead, drunk and you are behind already. The other important thing is to take responsibility - putting so much importance on the appointment is not going to help you as it may then(as it is already) give you more reasons to drink. ODAT means today, this very minute. I don't know if you can spot this but cleaning the kitchen in the night has set you up for feeling tired, fed up, short of sleep. I used to do stuff like that to make us of the time, keep busy etc and all it does is drive you back.

Remember HALT - Hungry, Angry, Lonely, Tired. It's really easy to avoid all these triggers as it's all about pampering.