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[mollyka]

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Hey Girlie, so glad I didn't offend you! Mind yourself and keep posting!!
Molly

[Blues Dancer]

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I'm a compulsive cabinet cleaner after I drink too. I relate to your drinking before rehab. I've done that too. In fact, I'm pretty sure I've done that everytime I've made a "new plan". You have to really want to give it up for good or rehab, AA, supplements...none of it will work. I stayed sober four years off 90 days of AA and a great sponsor/friend. The last ten months has been a roller coaster of starting and stopping. You can do this, you can stop, we all can. You're definately taking the right steps. I wish you all the luck in the world and I'll definately be following your progress to see how your doing.

Blues

[girly wirly]

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thanks blues, same thing this morning, 4am i cleaned out the spice cupboard and stacked the dishwasher.

counsellor cancelled this week so i won't have any therapy until the 4th august. off to see the doc today as had a particularly bad day yesterday.

[girly wirly]

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ok, todays appointment day and i'm terrified!!!!!!

head is full of what if's, asking myself is it really a place i belong?? (which i know the answer is yes of course it is!)

what if they think i'm a danger to the kids? will they inform social services that i went there? will they tell my G.P? will they be able to help me or am i just beyond help? can they give me any meds to help? lots of questions and lots of fear!

[KatieB]

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girly,
How did you go? Please let us know how you got on.. as for social services; i am not sure as it varies so much from place to place.. but the fact you are getting help is a great sign.. the social services where i live have been incredibly supportive of me.. they do everything they can to keep children with you - as in my case, thats why they want me to go to rehab (and are going to pay for it for me) - they WANT me to get better so i can be the best mum for my son.. it always looks good when you are seeking help rather than being in denial and stuffing up all the time.. i hope it all goes well, thinking of you! this is a very positive step,
xxxx

[girly wirly]

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wow, that was one of the hardest things i have ever done! like a huge interview, establishing how much i drink, why, when, my home situation, backround of health etc... i cried for half an hour before i even set foot in the place. what happens now is they send me a letter to decide which course of treatment to go down. asked me to cut down in the meantime. i will probably be allocated a key worker who will help me gradually cut down to a safe level, then work alongside the gp and anti craving meds to work toward abstinence, but i wont know exactly what they have planned for me until i get a letter. that truly petrified the life out of me and i felt so ashamed. i feel utterly drained, like i can't sink any lower than what i had to do today. the only way left has to be up.

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

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Good on you Girly for going. I would say what they have planned for you is lots of help and support. Add in MWO and you can do this. This could be the first step today to changing your life for the better. Well done.

[Pride before Fall]

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Hi Girly,

I took Trazodone to help me sleep when Lexapro (a drug I was taking for panic attacks--one that worked, BTW--a strong SSRI) kept me awake at night. Since it made me sleepy, I'm not sure I could've done it during the day.

Even the medically conservative WedMD recommends therapeutic hypnosis to help with anxiety, and for me personally, it's been very effective; I have A LOT of trouble relaxing. Hypnotherapy is also supposed to be really good for pain (I saw you had been taking morphine).
Hypnotherapy - Hypnosis - WebMD

Panic attacks are the worst thing I've ever experienced (from a list of pretty awful things), but I haven't had a full-blown one in 18 years with medication and therapy support. Of course, I was self-medicating....

Hope this is helpful!

Pride

[Pride before Fall]

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Girly, you took the hardest step! Congratulations. You're already going up!:l

[techie]

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Proud of you Girly. You took a huge step in the right direction. Much love and happiness to you and look forward to hearing more on your progress...John xx

[girly wirly]

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thanks guys. pride i am really into my hypnosis and meditations at the moment. its really helping me relax and get to sleep, and calm down during anxiety attacks x

[mollyka]

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Girly, well done, you have taken such a big step. Bet it feels lovely to have someone looking out for you?!
Mind yourself, are you off on hols tomorrow?
Molly

[Johnny]

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Well Done Girly,

It sounds like you have definitely made a really positive move. I am rooting for you all the way hon.

Johnny x

[KatieB]

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That's great girly - so pleased to hear you getting the help and support you need.. you are a very brave and strong woman..
It sounds like they have a great plan for you, and you are doing all the right things, which is fantastic.. we have every faith in you that you can do this!
xxx

[girly wirly]

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thanks for all the words of encouragement gang. today i feel great that i went there yesterday. it was a real smack in the face, such a difficult thing to do. to finally admit i am beaten. but now i see i've done something really good for myself and my loved ones. ok, a long slow process ahead but i finally did what i've wanted to do for years but have been too afraid.

we are off on our holidays today. my hubby is going to help me keep any alcohol amounts in check. i'll try and check in on my phone but if i can't get service, i'll chat to you all in ten days xx

gw x