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[KatieB]

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girly,
Enjoy your holiday! sounds like you have a lovely supportive hubbie.. take care, and its great (as i said before) that you are getting help.. I started seeing my D+A counsellor 18 months ago and I have improved and changed so much.. our sessions have helped me gain so much insight into my issues.. let us know how you get on..
xxx

[girly wirly]

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had a nice break, a boozy one, probably consumed about half what i usually would. not good though, i know. tired and anxious again now that im home, going to catch up on the soaps tonight, take my mind off the old demon.

[mollyka]

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Hi girly, glad you had a good hol, albeit a 'boozy' one - you're back and all in one piece, that's what's important. Of course you are tired and anxious - expect to be and then it won't overwhelm you. You're dead right, a few episodes of corrie and eastenders will cheer you up!!
Have a nice early night and check back in with us tomorrow, it's great to have you back
Molly

[girly wirly]

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well the early night went up the spout. two cans and a bottle of wine later. why do i lose my resolve at teatime?

i need and i really want to get through this day al free. i was dreaming lastnight that someone was tickling me where my liver is and i vomited and collapsed in the dream. i'm guessing it was probably really aching during the night or it's my conscience!

i went out and bought loads of healthy food yesterday and vowed to be good to my bypassed stomach, my liver and my bowels because im sick of feeling like shit. then seven o clock came and i went back to the shop for wine. i'm anxious, depressed, still hazy/ hungover during the day, short tempered, got a very delicate stomach, a headache, severe diarrhea, self loathing, an aching liver, i'm guilty and very skint.

i wouldnt mind, but i had a face like an arse whilst drinking lastnight anyway because my autistic daughter had played up sooo much yesterday. i was exhausted and at the end of my tether. i was feeling guilty about getting wound up over her condition, telling her off for something she can't really help, but i have to because her behaviour can be downright dangerous. it didn't relax me in any way, so i just finished the bottle and went to bed. why when 7 o clock comes, does all my adult, logical reasoning just disappear?

i need to protect myself today. how?

[JackieClaire]

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Girly,
Not to put to finer point on it but your resolve went up the spout because you are an alcoholic.

You say you need to protect yourself today. You have an AL team to turn to. Ring them to say you're back from holidays, you are really struggling and need help. It's now beyond having the support of your husband and unfortunately in my opinion you need to professional help.

My resolve flew out of the window many times and until I got real with myself and my AL team I was no use to man nor beast.

Ring them now, they really want to help.

J x
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[Guest]

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Girly

A few things come to mind when thinking about you. Definition of will power(resolve) certainly does. Alcoholism is the result of too much will power or resolve - in that we continue to drink despite all the negative consequences, and all of our 'non-drinking' promises to ourselves.

You need to get help with this and believe me it is doable, it is also a massive relief when you realise you don't have to drink any more. Ok I struggle at times but compared to how I felt drinking I'd say lifes better without it.

So get in touch with the team and dig deep inside yourself - what do you really want?

[girly wirly]

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girls, i haven't been allocated a key worker yet. they take the information i gave them at the interview (i was brutally honest) then they decide if i need a keyworker or to be referred to another service such as streetwise or neca (local al and drug places that offer emotional support and advice but are unable to assist medically, i.e tests and medications.) it shouldnt be too long before i hear now.

i'm feeling quite strong about getting through today. i've prepared a nice healthy meal and i don't need to go out anymore. i want to wake up with a clear head tomorrow, if i can do that and feel well, remind myself how good it feels to wake up fresh, i might just get through some more days. horrible morning this morning. felt detatched from myself still do really.

[techie]

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Always thinking of you Girly. Best of luck tomorrow. Utilize every resource you can to beat back this monster. Keep us posted on how you're doing because we care. John xx

[JackieClaire]

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Girly,
There's absolutely no harm in giving them another ring tomorrow and telling them that you're back from holiday and keen to get started as soon as possible.
J x
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[girly wirly]

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ok i'll do that x

[JackieClaire]

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Just I know from experience how files can suddenly,how shall I say get mislaid or messages not passed on.
Also I'm giving yer a bit of a Geordie nagging, hinny.
J x
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[girly wirly]

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JackieClaire;925574 wrote:
Also I'm giving yer a bit of a Geordie nagging, hinny.
J x
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[JackieClaire]

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Well, it's either that or a wet tea towel on the back of yer legs.

[girly wirly]

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ok i'm doing this. iced lemonade, watching madonna 80's videos on youtube then bed.

my counsellor is contacting the al team tomorrow to tell them the service they have offered is not enough, that i need a keyworker who can work me through with meds. lets see what tomorrow brings. but hey.... i'm doing it....

[techie]

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girly wirly;926571 wrote: ok i'm doing this. iced lemonade, watching madonna 80's videos on youtube then bed.

my counsellor is contacting the al team tomorrow to tell them the service they have offered is not enough, that i need a keyworker who can work me through with meds. lets see what tomorrow brings. but hey.... i'm doing it....

That's the attitude Girly. You/we all need to be proactive in our treatment. :h