Morning all,
:l:l for Beagle and Fickle.
I get so cross at lack of services too. Has anyone heard of "The Nutters Show"? is a radio programme here on Sunday nights - talkback from people with mental health, drug and alcohol issues. Some of the stories make you want to weep.
I've been fighting falling into the black hole over the last couple of weeks and Sunday night I fell into it well and truly. Have also picked up some sort of flu bug that has me going in between hot sweats and cold shivers. Not leaving my bed today.
I've been really focussed on trying to improve my fitness and not drinking, but I think I have do do something more fundamental to change my life. I've got a big project that was supposed to be completed last year, but with my brother and mother being sick the time that I had to do it in was eaten up and I didn't make much progress. Now I'm trying to get it done while still working full-time but the reality is that I dont have the energy for it at the end of the day and on weekends and I feel really trapped and stressed out by it. I'm getting sick at the drop of a hat, and its because I've had about 2 years of prolonged stress and my body telling me that it has had enough.
If I was brave I would just ring the people involved and tell them that I cant complete it. But I feel like I would be letting some people down - not to mention that I have a contractual obligation to complete it!
On the other hand, I sort of feel like if I dont do something really major than I am going to get really sick or have a mini-breakdown or something.
Dont know quite where I am going with this, but any thoughts welcome
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