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    #1

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    Day 97 and not that excited over it anymore. Is it normal to hit some sort of "plateau"? I haven't taken my Antabuse since last Thursday...I hope I'm not subconsciously heading towards the drink.

    I'm just not feeling as gung-ho as I was. I'm sure it will pass, but I was wondering if others have felt this way too? I have no plans to drink, but I don't feel like I'm as against it as I used to be, if that makes any sense.

    :heart:I love my daughter more than alcohol:heart:

    Believe in yourself. You are stronger than you think.
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    Blah

    It sounds like you are experiencing the end of the "pink cloud" of new sobriety. I've heard this described by many a sober person - that time when the "newness" and fresh excitement wear off. You are right to be cautious now - it's a time when many people relapse. (maybe not the ideal time to stop the antabuse? Only you can know that...)

    I liken this time to a new dating relationship. The time when the fresh excitement wears off, and either is replaced by something deeper, or fizzles out.

    I hope you search for something deeper in your sober self - don't let your sobriety fizzle out.

    DG
    Sobriety Date = 5/22/08
    Nicotine Free Date = 2/27/07

    One day at a time.

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      #3
      Blah

      Oh, K, it's VERY common. We start to romanticize the feelings we CAN drink, or that we were smarter, more attractive, more fun when we drank. Plateaus hit in any struggle about anything we overindulge with and struggle against, like dieting. Hang on, girl. Don't start the stinking thinking, or it will come to pass. You have a great track record so far, and this kind of thing can be expected, but THINK about what you're thinking. Great that you came here for help.
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        #4
        Blah

        I think what you're going through is very normal...
        like the saying goes: "The novelty of the quit is gone, yet the quiet battle rages on".

        I felt very "blah" in my 3rd to 4th month. I knew it was only a phase (had experienced the same thing when I had quit smoking), so I did only what I felt I could do: "keep on for keepin' on". I was in this slump for about 3 weeks... then suddenly, it was like I walked out of a dark tunnel into the sunlight.... life seemed great.... life seemed greater than I had ever known!

        Hang in there... this is just a stage of your addiction trying to get its hold on you again.
        STAY STRONG!
        AF 6 years
        NF 7 years

        A journey of a thousand miles begins with one single step

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          #5
          Blah

          Thanks guys, one of the great things about this place is that no matter WHAT you're feeling, someone else here can relate!!!

          I plan on taking my Antabuse this afternoon. I was out of my normal routine the last 4 days (Holiday, time off, etc.) so I kinda just skipped it without even realizing it. But I know that right now is the time I probably need it most.

          Last night I was watching a movie with my daughter and the people were drinking beer and I made the comment "That beer looks good", and my daughter (12 y/o) said "NO! Mom you're doing sooo good".... It just kinda scared me for a minute that I was drawn to it instead of seeing it for what it really is, poison.

          Anyway I'm rambling, but I feel confident this will pass. Thanks to all who replied, it really helped
          :heart:I love my daughter more than alcohol:heart:

          Believe in yourself. You are stronger than you think.

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            #6
            Blah

            Hey there niner. Not so exciting anymore. I can relate. I had that feeling before. You do need to be careful though. My last stint of sobriety lasted over 6 months. I began feeling flat and not as opposed to thought of drinking as I had been. I relasped. This time, I had the feeling you're describing about two weeks ago. I knew I may be setting myself up for a relaspe, so I upped my topa to 75mg. I'm back in a good space. You may want to take doggy's advice and take the AB till you get out of this mindset. You have so much invested in your sobriety and health. I know you'll be ok, but please take precautions.
            I'll be thinking of you nine!
            Outside of a dog a book is mans best friend. Inside of a dog its too dark to read

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              #7
              Blah

              The wisdom of a child, K. See yourself as your loved ones see you, and your daughter has definitely seen the difference.
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              Never look down on a person unless you are offering them a hand up.
              awprint: RUBY Imagine yourself doing What you love and loving What you do, Being happy From the inside Out, experiencing your Dreams wide awake, Being creative, being Unique, being you - changing things to the way YOU know they can BE - Living the Life you Always imagined.awprint:

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                #8
                Blah

                OK saw your last post...techie happy :h
                Outside of a dog a book is mans best friend. Inside of a dog its too dark to read

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                  #9
                  Blah

                  Hey K9, please go and take that Antabuse?!!!

                  You are exposing yourself to uneccessary risk. especially when you're not feeling that ' excited' about your sobriety right now.

                  That's exactly what happened to me last year and nearly this time around again as well. same time frame, around the 100 days, nearly twice.

                  So it seems to be a very challenging time.

                  Won't you go take that Antabuse please?!
                  AF since 15th March 2010

                  The journey is the goal. As long as you're fighting the good fight and you're not giving up on giving up, you're winning. It's not about how often you get knocked down, it's about how often you get up again. Sobriety the goal for sure. But striving to get to that goal is what it's about. Not getting there. Because the journey never ends. The journey is the goal.

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                    #10
                    Blah

                    oh, just saw your post now too. Great. Please get back on the Antabuse. It's not worth the risk
                    AF since 15th March 2010

                    The journey is the goal. As long as you're fighting the good fight and you're not giving up on giving up, you're winning. It's not about how often you get knocked down, it's about how often you get up again. Sobriety the goal for sure. But striving to get to that goal is what it's about. Not getting there. Because the journey never ends. The journey is the goal.

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                      #11
                      Blah

                      Hi All
                      K9 I can give you some info in regards to what happened to me about 4 years ago during one of my fights to get sober.
                      I used antabuse and was on it for 6 months without having a drink. At that time I didn't have all the info I now have in regards to alcoholism Yes I had stopped drinking but I hadn't a plan for remaining sober. Didn't even think any further than I had stopped drinking. Well stopped taking the antabuse thinking I now had control of my drinking. within a month was right back to my old ways. What I did learn from here is that antabuse can help you stop drinking but you have to make a lifestyle change for the long term. Maybe you have and know this I didn't.
                      Yes the honeymoon is over and now comes living a sober life. This comes about by changing our lifestyle and thinking. It is as hard as stopping drinking. Many have found AA to be helpful at this stage.
                      I will also recommend looking up PAWS we have had lots of treads on this. I think from what I remember you are at one of the time periods that gives people trouble.
                      Just remember antabuse is an aid a lot more goes into living a happy and sober life.
                      Do also want to congratulate you on using the drug the way it was meant to be used. Many experiment drinking while on it which can be fatal.

                      Stay Healthy and Keep Fighting
                      AF 5-16-08
                      Stay Healthy and Keep Fighting
                      AF 5-16-08

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                        #12
                        Blah

                        Hey, Cay! Great post.
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                        Never look down on a person unless you are offering them a hand up.
                        awprint: RUBY Imagine yourself doing What you love and loving What you do, Being happy From the inside Out, experiencing your Dreams wide awake, Being creative, being Unique, being you - changing things to the way YOU know they can BE - Living the Life you Always imagined.awprint:

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                          #13
                          Blah

                          Hi k9
                          The immediate object of our goal is sobriety, free from alcohol and all its terrible consequences
                          without this freedom we have nothing at all,

                          But at the same time we can achieve no liberation from alcohol obsession until we become willing
                          to deal with those character flaws which landed us into that condition in the first place,

                          In this freedom quest we have a few choices,

                          A rebellious refusal to work upon our glaring defects can be an almost certain ticket to destruction
                          or perhaps we can,for a time stay sober with a minimum of self improvement and settle ourselfs into
                          a comfortable but often dangerous mediocrity, Or we can like a lot of long term abstainers here
                          continuously try hard for those sterling qualities that can add up to a much more fulfilling & happy life,
                          Time to move on forward k9 and well done. :-)


                          :congratulatory: Clean & Sober since 13/01/2009 :congratulatory:

                          Until one is committed there is always hesitant thoughts.
                          I know enough to know that I don't know enough.

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                            #14
                            Blah

                            Antabuse down the hatch early today. I'm off schedule with everything these days, gym, Antabuse, diet...etc. Time to get back ON schedule So here I go....

                            Thanks again for the support :h
                            :heart:I love my daughter more than alcohol:heart:

                            Believe in yourself. You are stronger than you think.

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                              #15
                              Blah

                              Good for you K9....xxx
                              "It's not your job to like me, it's mine!"

                              AF 10th May 2010
                              NF 12th May 2010

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