Underoos and Friends - August
Thanks for your faith in me Tip!!
And I wasn't going to post, but the reason why I'm lurking is that I have two things on my mind and I'm pondering them and just trying to work them through.
One is that I'm going through the process of cutting myself loose from my contractual obligations around a big commitment which I have decided not to complete. It has had all sorts of emotional implications - some good, some not so good. Just working through them. But part of it is that its like I've flipped a switch .... I've been only just holding things together for a while and now my brain has gone "oh good, I can freak out and go crazy". The better half of me is trying to stay sane and prioritising my health, which is the main reason why I wanted to drop that commitment anyway because I was so highly stressed! I've had lots of "bath and early to bed" nights this week and sticking to my exercise regime. But I felt concerned enough about my mental state to visit my GP - who has been terrific (I have the best GP in the country!!) and I am back on anti-d's. But it will take a week or two for them to kick in and I'm still feeling like the black dog is a constant companion.
Two is that Mr B has a Family Court case coming up this month. Which I dont want to talk about here because I am not a direct party. But it has an impact, and makes me both incredibly angry and incredibly sad. This is not the place to discuss the substantive issues, but it is really hard to have it going on and affecting one's life but not have any direct input into how it can be sorted. It is what is called in family law jargon here as an "intractable dispute" - not an issue where a child is in need of immediate care and protection but where there are other guardianship issues (based on differences in belief systems) that cannot be resolved.
Phil's post today on the A-Z of attachment (dont think I got the thread title right) was very timely for me and I printed it off and read it on the bus home. I will post and tell him so.
Anyway, that's why I'm lurking. Just trying to find some wisdom wherever I can and not trusting myself to make any sensible comments myself!
Thanks for your faith in me Tip!!
And I wasn't going to post, but the reason why I'm lurking is that I have two things on my mind and I'm pondering them and just trying to work them through.
One is that I'm going through the process of cutting myself loose from my contractual obligations around a big commitment which I have decided not to complete. It has had all sorts of emotional implications - some good, some not so good. Just working through them. But part of it is that its like I've flipped a switch .... I've been only just holding things together for a while and now my brain has gone "oh good, I can freak out and go crazy". The better half of me is trying to stay sane and prioritising my health, which is the main reason why I wanted to drop that commitment anyway because I was so highly stressed! I've had lots of "bath and early to bed" nights this week and sticking to my exercise regime. But I felt concerned enough about my mental state to visit my GP - who has been terrific (I have the best GP in the country!!) and I am back on anti-d's. But it will take a week or two for them to kick in and I'm still feeling like the black dog is a constant companion.
Two is that Mr B has a Family Court case coming up this month. Which I dont want to talk about here because I am not a direct party. But it has an impact, and makes me both incredibly angry and incredibly sad. This is not the place to discuss the substantive issues, but it is really hard to have it going on and affecting one's life but not have any direct input into how it can be sorted. It is what is called in family law jargon here as an "intractable dispute" - not an issue where a child is in need of immediate care and protection but where there are other guardianship issues (based on differences in belief systems) that cannot be resolved.
Phil's post today on the A-Z of attachment (dont think I got the thread title right) was very timely for me and I printed it off and read it on the bus home. I will post and tell him so.
Anyway, that's why I'm lurking. Just trying to find some wisdom wherever I can and not trusting myself to make any sensible comments myself!
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