Tutankhamun has left his pyramid

[Tutankhamun]

Hi everyone
I've been visiting MWO for ages.
I'm a mad failed archeologist. Failed because of booze.
I've decided to give baclofen a go. I've nothing else left to do, to be honest.
As part of my own catharsis, I'm going to post a daily diary here.
If nobody reads it, then that's fine. Just making myself do it honestly will be enough.
If I'm not in the right place, I'm sure that one of you will tell me!
Just be patient and tolerant.
Tut

[Cinders]

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King Tut,

I will read it.

I am patient.

I hope you get well. We all do, actually.

Cindi

[one2many]

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WELCOME Tuts,

So glad you have left yer pyramid lol!

I think a daily diary is a great idea, I look forward to reading it.

In the meantime, have a look at the toolbox thread, lots of good info in there, it is located in the Monthly abstinance section!

Again a big welcome to you, great to have you here.

Oney

[Tutankhamun]

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Thanks already. This is going to be great. I'm totally up for a laugh, and have a mad sense of fun. I really hope that this works for me (finally) and for all of us.
I'm serious enough to understand what it has cost me already. I will tell this honestly as we go along.
I also know what I have to gain. Hopefully lots and lots of that as we go along.
But it will be honest, and I guarantee that it wil be funny.
It's the only way I know.
Please forgive me if it ever seems flippant. Humour is my comfort blanket and my shield.
So, let's go!!!
Tut

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

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Welcome Tut, you have made an amazing discovery here
Loads of support and advice from people who understand only too well what it is like. Your writing a daily diary is a good idea, it will help with accountability and you will be able to look back at it on your journey to sobriety. Just a suggestion but maybe start today with how your drinking is making you feel physically and mentally. Dont worry what section you are in, you will be made welcome.
Keep safe
KTAB

[one2many]

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I like funny...cheers everyone up, we cannot always be serious about our addiction, it is good to laugh..feeds the soul! Bring it on!

[Tutankhamun]

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Thank you KTAB
I appreciate your help so much.
If I told you everything that has happened, it would take year, but I will give you all a very good idea as we go on. It’s almost like I need to do it to help me. Desperately selfish, but nobody needs to read it, do they? As I see it, it’s the writing it down, not the reading of it.
So, my friend, to today.
I got up at 5am. Because I don’t sleep well. Alone and lonely and missing my woman. She left 6 months ago. I will talk about that later. I get up and go for a walk. If I don’t I start drinking at five minutes past five.
The walk puts the drinking off for an hour or so.
When I get in I make myself eat a breakfast. I don’t want to eat, but it puts off drinking for another hour or so. I love cooking, so I take my time and cook mad stuff. Today, it’s poached eggs wrapped in turkey ham and filo pastry. It’s magnificent. But, more importantly, it takes time and stops me thinking about my Helen.
I don’t have the shakes. I don’t get lots of ‘physiological’ problems. I’m not that kind of alcoholic.
I’m an anxiety / psychological alcoholic. I don’t need it because I am shaking and incapable. I need it to numb who and what I have always been and still am.
Self doubt. Worse than anything.
So, this morning, I feel low and lonely. And hungry. So I am going to make that fantastic breakfast!
Tut

[Miss Behaving]

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Welcome Tut,

I also think a daily diary is a good idea. And there is lots of patience and tolerance here.

You made me laugh already and I have found humor to be a great tool in my recovery .... and an antidote for when I feel crap.

But it can also be a shield, so don't feel afraid to express other thoughts and feelings as well!

I cant make comment about Baclofen having not used it myself, but I presume that if you have been visiting for a while you will have found those threads?

[one2many]

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That breakfast sounds fantastic..get it into ya!

[Tutankhamun]

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My beautiful little parcels of loveliness are frying as I type this.
And I'm looking at a bottle of whisky and wondering whether I should.
I hope baclofen will stop that thought.
Tut

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

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Try and put that thought aside till you have eaten your breakfast, thats the way it works sometimes, a minute at a time, but it is do-able.

[Tutankhamun]

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I'm sure that you're right.
I've tried before. I fact, I try every day.
Helen going has made it so much harder.
I truly hope that baclofen will make the difference.
Helen has just given me the Oliver Amesen book again. I'm going to re-read it, and I know I'm going to do baclofen.

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

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Good for you, never ever give up trying.
Ask yourself, what will the booze do for me today? More regrets, more despair and feelings of hopelessness is all I ended up with. A never ending circle of repetitive self destruction ad nauseum.
Today could be the day that changes your life, but you have got to want it with every ounce of your being.

[Miss Behaving]

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Tutankhamun;926063 wrote: My beautiful little parcels of loveliness are frying as I type this.
And I'm looking at a bottle of whisky and wondering whether I should.
I hope baclofen will stop that thought.
Tut

Tut,

I had a packet a day cigarette habit until 5 years ago. I tried everything to stop before then. One of those attempts (about 10 years ago probably) was acupuncture from a Chinese acupuncturist. I felt like it wasn't making a difference and I got very grumpy with the woman who was doing it. She looked me straight in the eye when I complained and said (something along the lines of) "This doesn't do the work for you. It just makes it easier. You have to try hard too."

I didn't succeed on that attempt. But her words have stayed with me forever and have also been a bit of a mantra for me in giving up the grog. There are no magic bullets.

Hang in there you mad archeologist!!!

[tiptronic_ct]

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Hey Tut and welcome!

Pop over to the meds threads as well, where can help with any bac-related questions you may have