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Chillgirl;931167 wrote: Blank page after blank page :upset:

Join the not so exclusive club:upset:

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Actually Tut mine is blank through choice, I'm becoming very reclusive but I'm happy that way. I was the ultimate party girl for years so maybe it's time for quiet reflection?

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Hey Tut sorry about earlier, it must have felt a bit like you were being mugged. Not our intention I can assure you.

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Chillgirl;931179 wrote: Actually Tut mine is blank through choice, I'm becoming very reclusive but I'm happy that way. I was the ultimate party girl for years so maybe it's time for quiet reflection?

I agree. Join a not so exclusive club. At the moment I feel like I have to be mostly on my own to sort myself out. I need company, like any human being does. But at the moment, I'm mostly OK with me.

You should taste this sweet spicy Yorkshire Pudding. I haven't put ice cream on. Just the merest splash of double cream. A thimble full. The jam takes 5 minutes to make and it's ace. Mega hot chilli strawberries.

I hate being alone, but sometimes it helps.

Tut

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Sounds yummy Tut!

I felt that way at the beginning, I was grateful I was alone as I wanted to do this so much and just totally concentrate on me. Getting sober was my 1st priority and I didn't want any distractions. Now I like being alone and turn down most invites.

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That's fantastic.
How I hope to find myself in that place sometime soon.
I can't quite get my head around needing to be alone but wanting people around me.
I need to be left alone but somehow protected.
Selfish, I guess.
Tut xx

[Chillgirl]

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I think we have to take all the help we can get for this Tut, I used to come on here and go into the chat room if I was struggling, I got so much support from everyone, I also did AA at the beginning which also was a huge help

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hi tut, just been reading through this thread. good to see youre getting your head around this drinking nonsense..... even if the army does hijack and confuse the hell out o ya with shaved puddy cats... tee hee i wouldnt expect any less.

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Thank you Chillgirl
To my family and friends I probably look a bit unwell.
Inside I'm breaking up.
And, I know that most of it is insecurity. I hate myself. No I don't. I worry about myself. I don't recognise much about myself anymore.
I've lost my direction.
But I can still cook.
For one.
Tut xx

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spuddleduck;931220 wrote: hi tut, just been reading through this thread. good to see youre getting your head around this drinking nonsense..... even if the army does hijack and confuse the hell out o ya with shaved puddy cats... tee hee i wouldnt expect any less.

I didn't realise you shaved your pussies in Cumbria. Don't they get cold? It's damned windy up there!!!!

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aye, flippin brass monkeys... oh no just had a thought... tigger last seen wandering the cumbrian hills shaved of all his fine fur

[Chillgirl]

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Tut I know it's just the beginning for you but believe me when I tell you that so much of these negative thoughts we have about ourselves are because of the AL, my journey through this year has been amazing and I wouldn't have missed it for the world!

At times it's scary, like someone ripped away my security blanket but you get to know yourself all over again. The self loathing goes and without the shame of the booze and all the depressing hangovers life emerges pretty damn good

I've smashed up cars and broken bones, suffered anxiety and frequent suicidal thought, I have more blackouts than in the war and done things I'd rather forget. All that is behind me now and I like me, I've learned more in the last 8 months than in the previous 8 years! It's been a roller coaster but you get to feel the thrills as well as the bumps and I feel more alive than in my whole adult life.

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spuddleduck;931244 wrote: aye, flippin brass monkeys... oh no just had a thought... tigger last seen wandering the cumbrian hills shaved of all his fine fur

I have absolutely no idea what you're on about.
Never mind, I'm always up for a laugh.
Does tigger have a gun? In Cumbria it might not be a good idea right now to point it at old people, even if tigger is shaved. Just a thought.
Was that funny enough for you?
One of my friends died in that massacre.

[Chillgirl]

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Hey Tut, I'm signing off for tonight.... Nice chatting, you are doing just great, speak soon

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Tut just popped in to see how your doing and whilst I know it's a struggle you seem to be getting through ok - just one thing though I'm now bloody starving and raiding my boring cupboard - have you e er thought of Master Chef your recipes sound divine - yours truly a very hungry friend