it is not because I want to be for me or my daughter.... I am terrified of turning into the people I met at the rehab most were great people but there life scared the shit out of me. Most of them looked so old and tired in the eyes.
I feel bad like I'm judging them or something.
Plus I am scared as hell to go through withdrawl again and I'm scared of that next day feeling you get after a night of over drinking.
Also pure anger is helping me stay sober without Bac because I know my Husband thinks I'm going to mess up. I want to prove him wrong.
I will be glad when the day comes and I can say "I am sober because "I" want to be"
that is all I just needed to vent.
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