Feeling Blah

[Dewdrop]

This is Day 12 AF for me but I'm feeling a bit blah, very demotivated and no energy. I have a list of things to do in the house, in the garden, for work (I?ve been firefighting and need to get caught up asap) and I just can?t be bothered with any of them.

I feel a bit disconnected and restless and not sure why. I am pleased with my achievement so far in getting to 12 days but at the same time it?s such a small drop in the ocean of forever. I guess I am being a bit too self-centred, and maybe thinking too much but its more to do with my mood I think. I just can?t seem to snap out of it. It's the kind of feeling that previously would make me go and open a bottle of wine. I've posted on the Sober September Challenge but thought I'd try here as it's a bit busy over there!

Anyone else have days like this?? What do you do to get past it??

Dewdrop :h

[Chillgirl]

Feeling Blah

Dewdrop - I just posted this on the Sept challenge......

We all have blah days, whether we are AF or not. Difference is that when we are drinking we block out that blah feeling for a while but then we only suffer twice as much the next day.

Its just life... dont try to fight it, let it be but dont give it all your attention and energy. Accept that today you arent in your best mental form but thats ok. Today you wont dwell on it or make any big deal of it. Be good to yourself, if one of your friends were down you'd cheer them up wouldnt you?! So cheer yourself up and make a list of all the things your grateful for today. You are doing so fantastically! We are human and cant be superheros all the time :l

[Dewdrop]

Feeling Blah

Thanks Chill,

Just read it and replied, you are so thoughtful and insightful and I appreciate your kindness.

Dewdrop

[mama bear]

Feeling Blah

I like that chill!!!

[JackieClaire]

Feeling Blah

Yoo hoo Dewdrop,
Exactly what Chill said, we all have blah days, can you imagine how blahhed (is that a word) if you'd feel if you'd been drinking.
J x
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[mollyka]

Feeling Blah

Blahhed's a great word JC! How are you?
Dewdrop, just to repeat what the others have said - we all have rubbish days and it all seems sort of pointless. A little trick I used in the first few weeks were I imagined my poor old frazzled liver (which it was) and on the days when I couldn't motivate myself I thought of all the 'frazzlement' I'd be putting on it if I drank and the healing that was going on 'behind closed doors' so to speak. The feeling passes - trust me!!
Molly

[JackieClaire]

Feeling Blah

Dewdrop,
I've got another idea, full of bright one's this morning.
There's a thread that's called Shout Out Sunday, go and have a post on there. Shout out your 12 days AF and be proud. Honestly it really kept me going in the early days watching those days rack up.
J x
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[Kimberley]

Feeling Blah

Heya Dewdrop,

I agree - Chill made a very good comment. I can sympathise as I have had this feeling also a few times - especially in the couple of weeks after going AF. It is a very difficult thinjg when you know al would most likely fix it. But of course that would be temporary - and also would just compound the problem later on. Nothing so bad as spending the next 3 days in bed after a binge in withdrawal, unable to do anything at all.

If you can, try to get caught up in something, whether it's sorting out some chores or reading or watching back-to-back episodes of your favourite TV. Hard to start doing it I absolutely know - and sometimes I don't follow my own advice here - but whatever you do, know that you will get through it and hopefully tomorrow will be better.
K x

[Dewdrop]

Feeling Blah

Thanks everyone,

Fixed myself a healthy lunch and went for a long walk - 2 1/2 hours which has exhausted me but was great, the sun was shining and I popped into an old wine stop and bought myself a bottle of water a banana and a thornton's toffee ice cream! Molly I told myself it was much better for my liver and tried imagining it all pink and healthy (my liver that is!).

I went to a local forrest that has walks and cycling routes and smiled and said hello to everyone who passed me and nearly everyone responded with a smile and a hello, it was good to feel connected and lifted my mood and my spirits.

I'm going off to sort out my monthly budget, reply to some emails to friends, have a soak in the bath with some lovely lavender and teatree bathoils, and then it's off for an early night with a book. Maybe tonight will be the night when I sleep all way through - fingers crossed.

Thank you all, feel a bit silly now.

Dewdrop :h

[Chillgirl]

Feeling Blah

Dewdrop - So wonderful to hear how you turned your day around! I hope you get that good sleep tonight :l

[sunshinedaisies]

Feeling Blah

I want a Thornton's toffee ice cream.......now I'm blah.......haven't had one in yonks!!!! they don't have them over here.

[Kimberley]

Feeling Blah

Hey Dewdrop - sounds like you had a great day after all. Yeah long walks usually make me feel a whole lot better. Guess the ice cream can't have hurt either!!

Glad you managed to create a nice day for yourself. Sleep well,
K x