I think its time i put on paper a bit about me.(might release it from my mind)
I never aspired to be an alcoholic God knows i detested my father for his drinking.I am 46 years with 2 girls and 1 boy, a wonderful grandson and an ex husband.
I was successful in my work progressing from general op to supervisor,line manager and then production manager.re thinking my life i KNOW my husband detested my abilities.
This man beat and raped me on a regular basis thinking it was his "right" as i was his wife.I have more scars on the inside than the outside, but i have outside scars too. During this time i found if i had a couple of drinks i got "brave" and would stand up to him,so this is where my drinking really started.
No need for the gorey details of the physical abuse,but it started my journey into alcoholism.
I cant believe that i ran a company,spoke in board rooms in Ireland,Switzerland,France,New York and Canada and held my own in a board room full of men.
I have allowed alcohol to rob me of my confidence when i thought i needed it for confidence.
I am only into my second month AF so still learning.
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