I drank on Saturday. Well I don't think I've slipped as I prepared myself for drinking.
Did not do anything stupid except I wanted to buy a ticket to Melbourne 4am in the morning. Thank God my bank was going through the maintenance at that time and my card was declined! They probably wouldn't allow me on the plane.
Anyway even after 3 months sober I still woke up very very panicky/anxious on Sunday morning. No signs of physical withdrawals though.
I really thought I was going insane and my brain will fry any second. Terrible, terrible feeling.I really don't understand why my body reacts like that. Normally when I withdrawal I go through panic attacks and other fun stuff, but on sat I only drank 1 night after 3 months sober.
So I tapered as I was really worried I will lose it completely this time. I drank about 10 beers during the day(14 hours). It did not stop withdrawals completely, but it made it manageable.
Today I woke up nice and fresh. I even when for a run in the morning. Well my point here is that if you can tapper do it. No point suffering so much. Now knowing myself I will stay 3 months AF and then 1 day of insanity again.
I don't know I kind of need this reset switch somehow. I think I have to remind myself how much I hate hangovers. This is just plain stupid.
All the best,
Netty
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