going under the knife on friday

[girly wirly]

i'm drunk, the op wont get get me back to work, i hate my life so much

[techie]

going under the knife on friday

Girly what the hell are you talking about. I thought this was the surgery you were waiting for? What's going on honey???

[girly wirly]

going under the knife on friday

gutted techie, the fact is if my back works or not im afraid to go back. i cant socialise like normal people, i'm incompetent and gonna get found out. everyone except my family think i'm weird.

[rebirth]

going under the knife on friday

hey girly why do you say you are incompetent? x

[K9Lover]

going under the knife on friday

Hi Girly,
I'm worried about you! :h:h

:l

[Chillgirl]

going under the knife on friday

Girly - this is the kind of paranoid thoughts we get from AL, you need to sober up and get your head straight. You are certainly not incompetent when you are sober! As for socializing, it's very different without AL but you usually find you don't want to be around a bunch of boring drunks anyway and life is so much better AF.

Please keep posting so we can understand what you are going through and help you :l

[Panno]

going under the knife on friday

Girly please come back and post today we certainly don't think your incompetant as chill said that's the AL talking - let us all help you get through this - sending you hugs take care and hope the op goes well tomorrow :l

[Guest]

going under the knife on friday

Girly

For so long you said it was your back, the operation you needed that was causing you to drink. Now you say nothing will change, life will still be bad after the op.

Well the thing is we can concentrate on the material and physical things so much, forgetting we are the same people underneath whether we have two legs, a back injury or not. Yet we think "If only I could have that in my life, if only I could have a nice car, top job, perfect partner I wouldn't have these issues with alcohol". Lots of alcoholics say "I'll stop drinking when x happens" or even "when x happens I won't have to drink any more".

This is all part of denial and forms an excuse for us to drink, because there will always be something not quite right.

It took me a long while to realise I was truly an alcoholic(well I wasn't a 24 hour top up drinker was I?), and when I did do it was liberating. I knew what I had and so I could treat it.

I don't know you personally but I would say almost certainly a lot of your problems, and the way you are feeling is almost definitely down to your drinking.

[girly wirly]

going under the knife on friday

hi everyone.
apologies for my drunken ramblings, first and foremost. my depression and anxiety has been fine lately, but now i know i have to return to work after my surgery and it's imminent all the old fears and panics are returning. the negative thoughts "everyone hates me" "i can't do my job competently" "everyone thinks im not really ill, just fat and lazy" which in turn bring with them the avoidance of going to school yard panoc attack etc

i've been so well too. my counselling and cbt has helped enormously. i have a lovely keyworker who is helping with the al. i need to stop thinking negatively and look at what i have achieved.

[Guest]

going under the knife on friday

You say you are doing well, a personal question what's your drinking like these days?I went through ok periods where I thought my mindset was improving, but because AL was still lurking it would all come back periodically and eventually even worse.

BIG CON AL and I don't want it to sneak up and get you!!!!

[Guest]

going under the knife on friday

How long will you be in hospital?

[girly wirly]

going under the knife on friday

just a few days, but bonus it gets me some al free time with very little choice!

my drinking is cut by around half and is work in progress!