I did it

[Guest]

Yes I decided to drink yesterday. I didn't 'cave', I wasn't 'pushed' I just decided I was going to drink, and that was it. Only lasted a few hours late last night but I've been sick today, only just managed to fulfill some work commitments, crashed in bed this afternoon and now feeling ok again - well nearly.

To sum up the drinking last night?It was a completely pointless exercise, it felt sh!t from start to finish and I got zero from it. I've not woken feeling bad about it, the only thing troubling me is a personal situation which is nowt to do with drinking. I merely need to face it and decide what to do.

I've decided I'm not counting days anymore, all that matters is me being sober ODAT. To be honest I was dreading my 6 month mark, had been advised milestones can be bad and was feeling very wary of arranging any sort of celebration.


I'm not feeling cr@p about it as it was obviously something I was meant to do, and I've accepted the fact.

Do you know something I don't know why anyone drinks full stop. Was pretty yacky.

[spuddleduck]

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uk..you know love youx

[ronaldolover]

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Hey blonde....it's okay if you had a drink yesterday. I almost did the same....and for the same reason....just because....because I can. I decided not to, but that's not to say I won't feel that way in the future. I think sometimes we are so hell bent on being AF that we feel we don't have a choice....so maybe it is just a relief for us to pick up a drink and say we are going to drink it because we can. Who knows....just an idea! But taking it ODAT is all you can do....don't beat yourself up over one day....you have many more to go!

[pompeyman]

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whats done is done ..... x my CPN says this is like turning around an oil tanker ......

[mollyka]

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Hey Uk, I'm glad you don't feel bad - maybe you 'needed' to know that the drinking was actually shit? Whatever - it obviously didn't do a lot for you! I know HippyC had a drink after about 5 months and like you could not for the life of her see why - she said it didn't feel good at all. Good you're here and as you say ODAT from now on
Molly

[Guest]

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That's right PM, however my tanker was quite turned around already. Never mind.

[JackieClaire]

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Oh Uk,
I've done it myself in my time, got a long stretch AF under my belt and then done the what the heck thing. When I did it in the past I knew from the moment I opened my eyes that I would be round at the shop within the hour filling me little bag with bottles of booze.
It's over, it's done with. ODAT all the way.
J x
:l

[K9Lover]

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:l UK :l
Just sending you my love :h
K9

[Guest]

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Thanks everyone. What I did last night was so very dangerous. And Spuds you get yourself sorted out because I'm sober and that means I can drive, come find you and kick your feathery arse.

Blooming heck, I disappear for an evening comeback and the place is mayhem. Another reason not to drink.

[Mrs Donovan]

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UK! I really like your attitude. You seem so cool about it all. You think logically rather than emotionally which is good, because if it was me, I'd be gutted and worried that it was all over.....although maybe after such a long time sober it's different than caving early on.

Here's to ODAT!

[Doggygirl]

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UK, good for you getting right back on the wagon when you realized it was shit anyway. Stay strapped on, OK? We need you to keep the wagon in good balance. It's a team effort. :l

DG

[greeneyes]

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Wow, I missed that. Bummer of a decision and experience, UK. However those do serve as reminders in the future as I, for one, know for a fact. Glad you're turned around ~ keep moving.

[momof3]

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Hey UK,

Good for you for getting back on the wagon. This may be a good time to ask yourself what is and is not working with your current sobriety plan and make any changes needed.

M3

[neart]

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Hiya, been away for a few days so I only saw your post now. As you say, it was a learning experience, it may well give you a new perspective now ie that you will not feel like you are depriving yourself at all. It's kind of like when I gave up smoking for a good while, then smoked a cigarette and thought it was absolutely disgusting. Now, I even hate someone smoking near me on the street. I think as long as you are learning from the experience (as you are), then you stand to gain something that will help you out in the long term.

Onwards and upwards!!

[techie]

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I'm so happy you are back fighting this and didn't let a stupid slip derail you completely. :l:h:l