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Uk blonde
Could you smS me, we are in uk. Can.share all the things.
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UK I just read this post. How the hell did you get back on your feet so quickly? To be honest I would love to be able to have the odd drink one weekend, abstain for a few months, drink again one weekend, abstain for more months and basically carry on this pattern. But I have such an addictive nature that I worry once I drink I will carry on drinking for months and months.

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Ukblonde;966842 wrote: . To be honest I was dreading my 6 month mark, had been advised milestones can be bad and was feeling very wary of arranging any sort of celebration.

Why were you told that milestones can be bad? I am intrigued. And why was your drinking yucky? Did you just over do it? Sorry to ask so many questions. Wont be offended if you wont answer them either. :l

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Why was it yucky?You'd like to just have a couple once a month or so. Right better clarify some things.

Firstly I spent most of Friday recovering physically, couldn't eat anything til 7pm in the evening because it would have come straight back up again. There were also moments when I felt like passing out, and on one occasion I threw back the water I was trying to get into my dehydrated body. The drinking itself?Well it was yucky because I got NOTHING from it. From start to finish, no buzz just me forcing it down and feeling more and more woozy. The drunk feeling was horrid too - my body wasn't mine any more and I was just in a haze. I had around 15 units(about 8 bottles of Crabbies/St Heliers) so I'd not call that a couple of drinks.

I just felt horrid throughout the drinking and the next day. I'd rather have my day back thank you very muchly.

Why did I not continue?I don't know and I still don't know if this one incident has opened the doors for further slips. Luck and a very strong head have saved me, however I'm not willing to repeat the experiment as it's too risky and I enjoyed NONE of it. Just feeling sick like that does not attract me in the slightest. I've been so very lucky so far.

[Doggygirl]

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Does it sound horrid of me to say that I'm glad this experience was not a pleasant one for you???? :l (I hope you know I mean that in a good way!)

DG

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I'm blooming glad anyway!!!!!I am getting the impression some people think because I survived and didn't continue, that it can't be that bad for me. That one drink isn't actually that bad for me.....that it's not that serious.

Ahem been here before and it aint over yet............

[mollyka]

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Yes Uk, you are so wise. You know that that booze could open the door - the fact that you are so aware of that you will hopefully be fine. I drank (more than you had unfortunately) in May, felt ill for 2 full days and was not confident in my sobriety for nearly 2 months after that, so yes, I know what you mean - oh and like DG says, I'm glad it was horrible, meant in the nicest possible way!
Molly

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Just wanted to say sorry if I was a little ascerbic in my last post on this thread. Sometimes I get quite angry when people say certain things, or make certain assumptions. I've got a million chips on my shoulder, and one is my seriousness being doubted. I remember(because of my flipping chips I never forget) someone doubting the seriousnesses of my illness/addiction to alcohol because I wasn't a 24/7 drinker historically. I took that quite deeply because if you knew me, had seen me drinking you would realise how serious my 'mere' binges were - and in latter years the 'binges' became 4, 5 days at a time and sometimes I'd only have say 1,2, or 3 days a week without AL. Considering the quantities I drank(about 30 units a day when 'on'), and the time it takes to come out of the body I was still getting a similar effect to a top up drinker. Just in a different way.

Just because I went to bed after 3-4 hours and didn't touch another drop doesn't mean I'm able to control it. I could so easily have slipped back into the old way of thinking, and it took a lot for me not to. My 'drink' wasn't 'normal' or even 'controlled'. I doubt sitting there forcing bottles of alcoholic ginger ale down my neck, ten units(5 bottles) in just over 1 hour hardly stopping to think is quite social drinking. Next 5 I did slow down for but by that time I was already suffering. Can't see any point in having a session like that every so often. Didn't give me confidence or make me feel relaxed, and would not have been socially acceptable.

Lecturey rant over.

Oh thanks for your continued support!!!!

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

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UK I think there is only one person who knows how serious our problem relationship with AL is and that is us ourselves. It is impossible to assume one person is 'worse/better' than another based on a brief written history here and really it doesnt matter. Obviously there is a broad spectrum of members here from all socio economic backgrounds, ethnicity and creeds and acceptance of levels of drinking varies enormously in different societies. I should know I live in Ireland and drink is a part of everything from christenings to funerals and everything in between.
Bottom line is, nobody arrives at this site for a bit of social interaction or to make friends, we come here because we cannot control our drinking. A debilitating and potentially life threatening situation if left unchecked.

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uk thanks for your insightful post because it has confirmed that I cannot have that odd drink. I tried moderating for about a year before completely giving up. My drink routine was similar to yours..didnt touch a drop for three days but on weekends all hell broke loose. Infact I made up for the missing units I didnt consume and was generally in a terrible drunken state.
I totally accept now that I cannot moderate. Its all or nothing for me.

I am glad you are back on here anyway. I have always got alot from your posts.

[Doggygirl]

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UK, KTAB is right that the most important person to *know* is us ouselves.

I was a daily drinker rather than a binge drinker. But the bottom line is still the same - I couldn't control it either. Once I got started, I lost my choice about how much I would drink.

Even now I sometimes have to fight the fantasy that something will change and maybe I could "get away with it." (even though I know that is not true) If I ever post anything that makes you feel that I have an opinion that maybe YOU could drink safely, I assure you that is not the case. If a post of mine seemed a bit that way, it would be a reflection of my own fantasy that maybe *I* could somehow drink safely. And we both know THAT is BS!!

DG

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It can be fun to think we can have our cake and eat it too, until the cake is spattered all over the toilet.

I had my "fun" in canada fishing, and it was completly empty, even when laughing and joking with my buddies. On day two I noticed I was avoiding mirrors again.

F booze!

[Pride before Fall]

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F booze! >>

I actually say a silent "F you" to bottles, Sym. Seems to help!

[hazeleyes]

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Mother Teresa said "If they have a rally against war she wasn't going to attend, however if they have a rally promoting peace she would glady turn up with enthusiasm...".

So I'm not going to say Fxxx to AL, I'm going to say I love being AF. It makes me feel great and happy.

H

[pompeyman]

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uk you remind me of my middle sister who now lives in NZ with her partner ..... and daughter .... my neice who ive never met due to my sis cutting me out of her life due to my AL addiction ....... keep strong and thanks for your support on the other thread ...... your down to earth realistic advice is helpful ...... ta x PM