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[pompeyman]

i need advice

ta all been to my 2 fav pubs for a few beers today .... irrationally saying goodbye .... finished my book .... reading not writing!!! having last drink tonight ..... got bottle of wine not wise but heh ..... sure im going to have a few wds but have been worse than this when ive stopped before ..... just wondering ...... cant stop cleaning ..... done bathroom, fridge sorted my cupboards out !!!! didint plan it just started cleaning ..... has anyone else experienced this on the day they decided it was their last????? :anyone:

[Mish]

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:l Yep, PM, it's the last day of the first month of Spring here in Oz, and I've been busy vacuuming all my curtains and blinds, my pantry is immaculate (spice bottles in alphabetical order and every label facing the front), all my cups' handles are at exactly the same angle, sheets and towels lined up like soldiers, i need sunnies to go to the bathroom and not a spot to be seen on the mirrors, light switches and doors etc. OCD has it's good side. :H
While engaged in these satisfying activities I have been busy preparing mentally for my thread in which I propose to journal and sort through my past as a part of my plan.
You're starting to sound really excited about your progress. This is really beautiful to see. :goodjob: and have a great day.
:h Mish :h

[pompeyman]

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thankyou mishmash i needed that ..... stopped cleaning.......about half a bottle of wine left ... going to watch batman begins on telly will post when have last drink then it will really help if people dont mind for me to post if/when wds start ... will be about 11 - 12 tom morn going to spend day in house not going to try to go out just accept im in bed/chair sweet tea for day ...... bought milk tea and sugar , know ive stepped up intake today fucking stupid i was reducing so well ..... heh nature of drug ...... last day syndrome ...... but this is it i know its an aa phrase (loads of good stuff about aa apart from step 3 which is not for me) "im sick of being sick" plus got CPN, daily rehab and DSS (social) interview to sort for next week ...... sorry i am rambling but it really helps ....... tpical pattern plan to give up which i am going to so last hurrah ...... if wds are too bad will call 999 tom (911) but i am sure i will be ok i am coherant when ive stopped before i would have been unable to post this ...... sorry for language ...... cant be too pissed (that means drunk in england not fed up!!) still worried about spelling !!!! will post when i take last drink so i have a record of the exact time xxxx

[pompeyman]

i need advice

had last wine when i next post will be AF plus tho may be in wds ..... given myself 3 days to overcome ..... dont know why keep thinking of london .... soho ....... leicster square ....... had some good days there stag nights and stuff just heard weather on telly going to piss down tom will take it easier to stay in bed/home will post tom but may well be i wds sorry to be me x

[Bella]

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do what your gut instinct says....X

[pompeyman]

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thanks bella .......... 12 hours without AL now and no wds yet so fingers crossed ....... but early days ..... had a few cravings already with those irrational thoughts ....... like "well i did say 1st oct" and things like that ...... still lets go for it AL will be out of system in a few hours if wds are going to happen they will kick in then ....... or maybe i have tapered off enough ....... will keep posting PM x

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

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Good luck Pompy, keep strong.

[Mish]

i need advice

PM, just breathe and relax as the withdrawals hit...
headaches ,
anxiety like you've never known, shakes,
whatever it takes, the spirit that quakes.
Resolve that breaks
Your heart just aches...
THEN ...your hope awakes...

Withdrawal over...
:h Mish :h

[pompeyman]

i need advice

ta ...... they have started, sweats, shakes, runny nose no nausea yet so fingers crossed x scarey eh tried this so many times ccould more of less get the exact hour right wwhen they would start!!!! finding it hard to type but ok at mom ...... take care everyone x

[Spinning J]

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Thinking of you. Stick with it. It will be so worth it. x

[Panno]

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With you all the way Pompey, be strong, take care xxxxx

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

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Pompy it will be so worth it to get to the other side. You can do this I know you can. Keep close to the boards today.

[pompeyman]

i need advice

hi wwds so far nowheree asa bad as previous attempts maybee the tapering has worked .... waa hoo !! x

[JackieClaire]

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How's it going PM? We'll keep checking on you.
Wishing you strength.

[pompeyman]

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thanks jc wds not too bad at all at mom slight shakes slight sweating no nausea at all i think the tapering has worked ...... prob wont be able to sleep tonight but prepared for that got a good book ....... before ive had a sudden bout of wds on day 3 so am ready for that just in case ........ but surprisingly ok ..... able to drink tea and eat toast ..... last time i tried to stop couldnt even keep water down for a day ....... so things are looking up !!!! :thumbs: