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[Panno]

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HI P not been on for a few days but I'm so pleased to read your posts you are really sounding so positive :l

Oh an by the way my curtains could do with a clean

Have a great day

P xx

[pompeyman]

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hi went to session with CPN and things came up about the future ....... when i left just walked and all those negative emotions flooded back lasted longer this time but back home now and safe .......for the first time since i stopped i wanted a drink ...... didnt drink but guess in the past it has stopped the thoughts ........ still going to have to think about the future/past at some point ...... just been isolating my mind from it ........ didnt i read on a thread here somewhere that someone said when this happens just surf it till it goes ...... thats what ive done ....... take care everyone have a good evening PM

[techie]

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pompeyman;974230 wrote: hi went to session with CPN and things came up about the future ....... when i left just walked and all those negative emotions flooded back lasted longer this time but back home now and safe .......for the first time since i stopped i wanted a drink ...... didnt drink but guess in the past it has stopped the thoughts ........ still going to have to think about the future/past at some point ...... just been isolating my mind from it ........ didnt i read on a thread here somewhere that someone said when this happens just surf it till it goes ...... thats what ive done ....... take care everyone have a good evening PM

you too Pompy it's all part of the process. you're doing great...John

[JackieClaire]

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Hey PM,
Thank goodness you didn't stop for that drink. I know the feeling well about blotting the past out, trouble is, it's still blooming there in the morning.
So just for today..........you know the routine
Might have a look at the chaneel 5 prog about the people who keep a hippo in their house as a pet, unless Mr JC can find some footie on.
Take care and have a good evening, too PM

[hazeleyes]

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Hi Pompeyman
Thanks for the welcome and encouragement. Great thought, I'm just picking up where I left off but this time much wiser (I hope). I am truly inspired by you, so proud of you, it cannot have been easy.

I was actually posting on another thread about how you started helping the pensioner...sorry to steal your story but I just had to share it.

Great job on overcoming the urge yesterday. Every day a little stronger. Please keep sharing your story as we all want you to succeed. I'm cheering you on from the background.

Kind regards
H

[pompeyman]

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thanks H and JC and everyone .......... off to daily rehab centre now for initial assessment ..... bit nervous .... the unknown ........... dont really want to go .......... its mainly a non alc drug facility .......... but heh AL is as a destructive drug (if not more so) than all the others ........ will post about experience .....and what happpens ..... have a good day everyone x PM :fingers:

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

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Good luck with today Pompy, its lovely to hear you sounding so much more human these days. Its natural to be a bit nervous about anything new but it could turn out to be a great help to you.

[hazeleyes]

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Thanks PM, don't forget your not alone. We are all here to support you.

[JackieClaire]

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Best of luck today, PM,
Remember report to my virtual desk as soon as you get back. You'll be fine just think of the lovely winter wollie I'm knitting you, they'll wonder why you're grinning

[Pride before Fall]

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Fill us in on how it goes, PM. I'd be afraid too! I'm really impressed with your guts. Take in all the help they have to offer. xoxox Pride

[pompeyman]

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it was not what i was expecting ........ i had to go thro an assessment which i didnt realise at the time they were sussing me out ..... i was sat in a room with a woman (lovely and caring) asking me about my past and future plans ...... as i have been just trying to live for today at the moment found the experience incredibly stressfull .... she had a file in front of her with stuff that i had told people years ago about myself .... couldnt stop crying ..... end result is ive been accepted onto rehab prog ... committed myself to 2 full days a week for a month at moment ..... the woman assessing me was lovely made it clear that if i need to i can attend the programme 6 days a week full time if i feel i need to .... the questions she had to ask me tho have unleashed all those emotions ..... anxiety, guilt, paranoia that i have been bottling up to keep sober ...... there is a file on me goig back 20 years and i had to resond to it ..... have been out for a drink ........ not too bad ...... 4 english pints and a bottle of wine for tonight ....... tomorrow got a medical interview at 11.30 british time to see if im unwell interms of benefits ...... but i know they dont see addiction as an illness ...... oh well ...... feel so shit ..... but i know this is all part of getting better .... 30 years of abuse is not going away in a week ........ long and winding road on radio at mom ...... says it all really ........ take care all of you ..... saw people at the rehab centre a lot worse off than me ..... x PM

[pompeyman]

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mish and jc even tho ive still taken AL will you continue to be my sis and aunt x

[moofarmer]

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good luck

you have more guts than I. Admire your courage to crawl out of the hole
and ask for human help. We all drink/drank alone.

[pompeyman]

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moo i do not have more guts than you ..... have bumped into an ex student at the daily rehab place she was great ...... " if it wasnt for you mr hinton" ..... etc ... i used to worry so much about being recognised as an addict ......... but fuck it any one who is important knows anyway ...... its just about stopping ...... ive kicked off again today but im not going to beat myself up about it ....... i had to relive my past and think about the future to get onto a rehab prog ...... all part of the process ...... 30 years of al abuse is not going to just stop ....... "tomorrow never knows" xxxx PM ta for everyones support xxxx

[pompeyman]

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lGoing to sleep now ... been a really hard day .... had to go thro past recorded behaviours and want i want for future stuff ive been isolating my head from so i dont drink but result is i get rehab suppport but have lapsed ...... as i posted to h earlier part of journey .... dss interview tom at 11.30 they dont see al recovery as an ilness the woman who assessed me today for the daily rehab said i should go regardless so i will ...... just feel i am loading you all with my problems dont want to make tnings worse for any one out there .......... seen lots of people are reading this thread ......... this is all part of the process ..... get on board........ try not to feel guilty ...... the fact you are reading this means you are are on the way xxxxxx i have a few hard days ahead as i know you do do too ....COME ON WE CAN DO THIS XXXX