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[JackieClaire]

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PM, me darling never ever think you are loading us with your problems, get it down in black and white. It will really help you and others to come.
I can do this, you can do this.
Sleep well.
Auntie J x

[cymru]

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Have been offline for a couple of days, but just read through your thread. Its tough mate, and a long hard road to recovery. I hope there can be someone around you for support. Being alone cert doesnt help. Take care PM.

[SassyLassy]

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You're inspiring to many, many more people than you realize. I think LOTS of people are checking this board several times daily, myself included, from all over the world. Take care of yourself. I will try to do the same. Let's all feel a big group hug.

[pompeyman]

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:ranger: thanks for all the support ....... bit fed up with myself for drinking ...... but heh .......... at least the experience will help me prepare for when i start addressing the future (and past) when i start the group work on the support programme next week ...... i'm more aware of the strength of the emotions that can/will arise and i need to think of alternative ways of dealing with them. The group work is in the morning and in the afternoon there is a gym, sports and other stuff ....... so maybe that will help ...... got another bloody assessment now for the benefits i'm on at moment ........ oh well after this one thats it for a while ........ hangover not too bad .... obviously still got quite a bit of tolerance to the AL ....... nice and sunny here again .......... have a good day everyone PM x :sigh:

[mama bear]

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Pompey, my heart is breaking for your pain. Alot of people here care about you. Have you posted your story??? I would like to know you better and it may be theraputic for you to write it down.
much love
Cousin Mama

[Guest]

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Keep on going PM. I'm going to say a few things though.

The rehab is 2 days a week?I presume you have to be sober for it?that you might be breathalysed when you attend?

Secondly yes emotions do come out during treatment, they are part of getting sober. Getting AF on it's own can be an emotional time as we remove the nice sedative which has been covering over everything. They are difficult to deal with but has to be gone through in order to progress, recover and heal.

Just sort yourself out!!!!!

Before anyone takes offence this is not meant to offend, and comes from reading as well as following PMs journey on here. Meant with a lot of love, care and concern.

[pompeyman]

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hi uk no offence taken any advice welcome ....... went for another assessment today ...... the nurse seemed ok but will just have to wait for her assessment in terms of benefits ........ now got a few days with no targets to meet or places to be going to just chill tom no AL wont have any WDs know my body well enough ........ going to curl up and sleep or watch telly ...... here in england they are replaying ironside !!!!! each morning ........ forgot how good they are even to was only a kid when first shown ..... head still all over the place .... any new people reading this it is possible to escape this hell ....... come on lets do it ........ as i posted to H a while back recovery is a cyclical thing ..... not an excuse to abuse AL but just how things are ........ i am going to bed down tom and slip my feet back into those stirrups ...... each day a bit of pro active stuff and a bit of going with the flow ........ thanks for all support everyone PM x

[JackieClaire]

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PM,
You're so right, it is a personal hell. Hell on earth and I'm so glad to be away from it.

On a lighter note, had to smile at the Ironside re-runs, I've just found Jeeves and Wooster, think it's ITV3. Hard to believe that Wooster is the same bloke as the doctor in House. It's still very funny though.

A.J. x
:l

[pompeyman]

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hi auntie ..... apparently house is the most pop prog in the world at the mom ........ ta for all support now these 2 days of analysis are over tom i am going to get back on track .......... funny used to be engaged to a woman from NY city .... visited her parents in florida ........ pllace called holiday ..... obviously drinking at time b4 met mum of my kids ....... went out for a walk in a town called tarpon springs ........ bought bottle of beer ....... they told me had to drink it hidden in a brown paper bag so i did ....... but the town was split by the railroad ......... it really was "the other side of the tracks" ..... rich one side ...... poor the other ...... PM x

[JackieClaire]

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I know I used to come home from my AL key worker appointments and either burst into tears or fall down exhausted.

I once watched 4 episodes of House back to back and noticed a theme. Doctor with gammy leg and bad temper gets case no one else can solve has an AHA moment and Bob's yer uncle.

So now I only watch one or two a week. Wish I could have controlled my drinking like that.

[Seethepony]

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Hey Pompey, imagine my shock when I went from UK to USA for university. Bought some beers, and got busted "for underage drinking" even though I was perfectly legal by UK standards... (had they told me drinking age was 21 I'd have stayed at home!)

Oh well, a fine start to my higher education...

Glad to hear you're taking things in your stride - even if it's an occasionally wobbly stride!

[BradyKelly]

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JackieClaire;975963 wrote: I once watched 4 episodes of House back to back and noticed a theme. Doctor with gammy leg and bad temper gets case no one else can solve has an AHA moment and Bob's yer uncle.

So now I only watch one or two a week. Wish I could have controlled my drinking like that.

I did control my drinking like that. In August I was AF, stayed at home and watched House S5 and S6, and got hooked. When I stopped again mind-Semptember, I whiled away a long weekend and a weekday or 3 by watching S1 to S4 nearly all back to back.

Yes, there is a theme, but the theme is basically just the shape of the container of each episode's story. Admitedly sometimes even the stories are the same, but much less. You cease to notice the theme as it because more 'part of the furniture'.

[pompeyman]

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ta for support all of you ....... amazed how many people are monitoring the thread ..... to those of you who are just reading ...... i hope it helps you come to terms with your dificulties ....... this is not an easy journey for any of us ....... being selfish for a bit ..... had 2 days of being made to think about my past addictive behaviours to get thro assessments not good but maybe part of recovery ..... anyone reading this thread do not beat your self up about perceived failure just learn and get back on board ......... AA step 3 not poss for me but they help loads of peers ........ and loads of people just stop sorry to go on but you can always just delete xxxxxx i love all of you who knows what this destructive condition brings ....... i also feel stronger knowing people all over the world are monitoring my progress ...... thankyou x PM

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

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pompeyman;976036 wrote: AA step 3 not poss for me but they help loads of peers

Hi Pompy, forgive me if I am speaking out of turn here but my only agenda is to try and help. I know the whole religious aspect of AA and the steps does turn many people off. I read a great book a short while ago which looks at this from a different perspective, a buddhist one and it has opened my eyes to the fact that AA is all about spirituality not religion. I started a thread about the book but I didnt want to post about this again because I didnt want to seem as if I was ramming it down peoples throats hence the PM. I found it a great help to over coming my own doubts about AA and am now reading the big book. I did go to AA a good few years ago and got turned off big time by the whole God thing but very soon I may give it another try because when all is said and done I am far from having this beast under control. Here is the link if you are at all interested.

https://www.mywayout.org/community/f4...ity-44698.html

Look after yourself,
Johnny

[Dewdrop]

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I?m so glad you are back on track PM my heart missed a beat when you posted that you had struggled, it?s not an easy path but so worthwhile continuing the long haul. You do have loads of people rooting for you so hang in there and get a few more days under your belt. This is one of the first threads I check whenever I log on.

Much love and kindness :l

Dewdrop :h