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[pompeyman]

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:thanks: really early in morning here 4.48 am cant sleep ........ one of the few friends i still meet up with has finally got back to me ....... paranoia is one of the more destructive emotions resulting from the lifting of the fog ....... he is just really busy at work ..... here in the UK we have a radio channel called radio 5 goes on thro the night ....... been listening to that ....... anxiety sets in when they talk about lack of jobs and stuff ...... anyone stopping or thinking about stopping ....... i focused on preparing myself for the physical wds ....... the psychological ones are as dangerous and i didnt really consider how i would deal with them ..... so anyone about to stop do some research and try to get some strategies in place for the overwhelming feelings of guilt, anxiousness, paranoia and general lines of negative thoughts that are released when they are no longer knocked out by AL .......... still dark, windy and raining here in "good olde england!!!" hopefully get some more sleep soon ....... have a good friday where ever you are ..... its 10/10/10 soon!!!!! just another day tho take care PM x eace:

[pompeyman]

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:thanks: still cant sleep so just re-read the whole thread .......... i am so grateful for all the positive advice and support everyone has offered ....... PM x :thanks:

[mollyka]

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Morning PM, I haven't posted here before, didn't feel 'qualified' to contribute - I'm only muddling along myself! Have followed the thread from the beginning. Have been awake since 4.30 as well tho - if I'd logged on we could have kept company. I agree with you about the pyschological affects, I don't think any of us are prepared for the intensity of them - the physical - yes. I'm going to doc today, so am feeling a bit anxious.
I think you are inspiring, you sound like a different person within a thread, keep it going PM, grab every bit of aid and support you can get - it's a hard job to do on your own I reckon.
Molly

[pompeyman]

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:welcome: molly good morning ......... im sure your doc is supportive ....... and i am sure you are an assertive person ...... make sure you get want you want from your appointment ....... i bet you know what you need so just be up front about it ....... all the best ..... if you want id love to know how you get on with doc ....... im seeing mine again on tues with news about rehab + counselling + old job getting back in touch with me about unfinished stuff about students which i am keen to rectify ...... would be glad to learn from your experience today .......... sun out now wind and rain during night gone ......... cant believe its a friday ........ funny when you lose your job concept of days seem to go ........ this is our time ......... we can do this x PM enguin: put a penguin in coz i like them ..... a psychiatrist (seen a few) once asked me what my fav animal was!!! ........ i said an octopus ...... actually true ...... love them ...... no octopus smiley tho !!!!! did nt stop me drinking tho xxxxxxx hi to big sis and auntie j and everyone else xxxx

[mollyka]

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Course I'll get back and let you know bout doc. Wonder what the psych took out of the Octopus:H
Molly

[pompeyman]

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apparently he thought it meant i liked getting into tight corners then escaping ......... squashing myself out of sight and then re emerging in my full glory!!!! actually .......... just like them ........ most "intelligent" invertebrates ...... used to take my kids to aquarium in plymouth and we would watch the octopus for ages ..... we were really upset when it died PM x remember ASSERTIVENESS x

[mama bear]

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Morning PM......mama is checking on you.....

[pompeyman]

i need advice

ta mama been in more positive places but ok ........ at least it is psychology now physical stuff seems to have gone ....... long way to go ....... thanks for concern ..... love PM x

[mama bear]

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the head is hard to fix...trust me...I know!!
I have given up on Topa and Bac and am using Antabuse...it's amazing...my brain knows i can't drink so it's becoming less of an issue...
but I am here for you all the way across the pond!!
by the way...i COMPLETELY relate to the octopus analogy.....that is me to a T....interesting....I've always called it Living Dangerously...

[pompeyman]

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ta mama ...... i really do relate to octopuses ...... (octopusi???) stupid i know but they are beautiful creatures ....... once followed one snorkling in greece before the AL took complete hold ..... off santorini had a mate working in the brit embasey in athens went to a party there with all the spooks ....... obviously ended up off my head ...... trying to read map to get away from forum when i woke up ......... stilll got to know athens x have a great day xxxx and thanks for support xxx

[JackieClaire]

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Evening PM,
Don't know what happened there but managed to log meself out again.
Only ever seen an octopuss when it was behind glass and I think I 'll keep it that way, thank you very much. I can remember having nightmares when I was a wee one after watching 20 Thousand Leagues under the Sea. Haven't been able to look one in the eye since.

No then have you formulated a plan to get through the weekend.

Auntie J x
:l

[mollyka]

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Have to say you have much more interesting drunken stories than I have PM:H. Got on grand at Docs - he has been so kind and supportive from the beginning. Know what you mean about getting to the psychological part - in ways the physical part is so much easier. Told the doc I was still getting anxious bout lots of things and he reckons I'm just getting to know myself - how scary is that - I'm 54! Hope you're doing ok this evening - I'm off to watch Ireland get thumped by Russia:upset:
Molly

[mama bear]

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when I first read your message Molls I thought you were going to watch Ireland get Humped by Russia!!:shocked:

[Mish]

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pompeyman;975005 wrote: mish and jc even tho ive still taken AL will you continue to be my sis and aunt x

Of course...once a sister, always a sister.
:b&d: I've had a slip, too, last Monday/Tuesday after not being able to get onto MWO site. I was frustrated at not being able to see how everyone (and you in particular), was doing.
:goodjob: on climbing back onto the horse so quickly. The emotional stuff is the worst pain in getting to a good place. However, it has to be faced, acknowledged, grieved over, put right (where possible) and finally accepted. If you don't...well,
IF YOU BURY YOUR FEELINGS, YOU BURY THEM ALIVE, AND THEY WILL RESURFACE AGAIN AND AGAIN UNTIL THEY ARE DEALT WITH.
I've missed you heaps.
:h Mish :h

[pompeyman]

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hi all ...... good morning ..... ta for all your support ......... no real plans for the weekend auntie ...... woken up by wind and rain ........ might go for a walk in it ........ spent nearly all my money stocking up on food ........ next money on wed ............ tom i start thinking about the future .... job, house, relationships etc ..... hence got rid of money ........ less risk ........ 10/10/10 tom as ive said before ...... silly but it seems significant .... we AL addicts grasp on to irrelevant time points ....... but sometimes they work ........ first "daily rehab" session on monday so feeling a bit anxious about that still i am determined to go i need all the support i can get at the moment ........ there is something nice about a windy wet day ....... wash all those cobwebs away ........ have a great day everyone xxxxx PM ....... no Pompey game today ...... something to do with England playing later in week ........ x :groupluv: