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[pompeyman]

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:thanks: take care ...... forty nine tomorrow .......... scarey ......... plus wont have any cards or presents ...... havent done for years .......... First day eh??? x PM

[pompeyman]

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hi there am fourty nine ........ no cards but my aunty called .... shes about eighty and my dads sister .... thats nice ...... missed the call but will return it .... where does life go ....... born at 1 pm sixty 1 when epstein first heard about the beatles x PM

[Mish]

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:reminder: PM we're all here for you. Where are you?

[pompeyman]

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hi eveyone had a major binge ........ back on track now ....... had awful withdrawrals ...... hope you are all doing well PM x

[mama bear]

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Pompey...I have been thinking about you. Happy belated birthday.
What brought on the binge? A lonely birthday?
Talk to us. What;s going on with the rehab plan?? What can I do to help??
I really DO care....

[JackieClaire]

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Well PM,
It's good to see you posting again but not under the circumstances.

So I'm not going to namby pamper you and sorry if I come over holier than thou, but believe me when I say that I have been in your situation more times than I care to mention.

Read back over your thread. Look at how good you felt AF. Use the re-hab, use you CPN and get yourself to some meetings. Some people here do not get this chance so grab it with both hands and use it.

I wish you well and I try not to worry about you but I do.

[cymru]

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Have been hoping your ok mate.
Sorry to hear about your binge. Does your liver hurt. I know that when I came to the end of my drinking my lower back would really hurt when I stopped for a bit, especially at night.
Lets hope you can stay back on track this time mate. Theres no point feeling sorry for yourself. Yesterday is gone. Today is a fresh start and tmr the beginning of the sober yrs. But only if you really do truely want it. Getting rid of the mental obsession is a major stat. Was for me.
Look at your 49th and make a plan, a goal. Your 50th. Make it that you can look back on a yr and be proud of the changes you have made and yourself.

[Gaia]

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PM,

Have you watched the Rain in my Heart documentary? You might see a few things you could relate to.

https://www.mywayout.org/community/f9...ary-37717.html

Many of us would cherish the opportunity to go to rehab, but many of us cannot afford it or just can't get in. You are wasting an opportunity for yourself, and taking opportunity away from others who may have wanted your slot but did not get it. That is sad for everyone.

I recommend you look into a 30 day inpatient program because you do not seem to have the discipline to fulfill your commitments on your own.

Best to you.

With love,
T.

[pompeyman]

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:thanks:ta everyone ........ i am still seeing the CPN ....... and ......... God !!!!!! (as we choose to know him!!!) I have been going to AA meetings again and have got back my very first sponsor ...... will not be able to post for a bit will do so as soon as I can ..... have a good weekend everyone PM x :thanks:

[Mish]

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PM I was really worried about you. Please don't just disappear without letting us know what's going on again or I will have to seriously kick your butt, little bro.
I am glad you're back on track. Make it work this time, eh? :h

[mama bear]

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where are you friend??? Dont make me and Mishy come looking for you

[techie]

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*** bump ***

[Mish]

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mama bear;1004267 wrote: where are you friend??? Dont make me and Mishy come looking for you

Because we will hunt you down...be afraid, be very afraid. :H

(I think he's not able to post at the moment).

[pompeyman]

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hi all thanks for all the support ....... not been able to get the internet at home ...... wont go into it ... got to the library today ....... Panno I will get the internet somehow ...... I havent forgotten your kindness ...... really lonely xmas ......... did drink but not as much as usual ... having little money has its benefits!!!! strangely didnt think about my kids hardly at all this year .... time eh??? ..... got some feedback from a friend who still sees them and my "little" 12 year old girl has started smoking ...... even that didnt make me drink more as it would have done before ..... really got the "i am powerless" thing now .... finished my set of counselling sessions at the local drug/Al support centre and i really found it useful!! he was brill and in the final session (you only get 6!) he brought it all together for me in a really meaningful way .... as a result prob going to move away from plymouth to a more "stimulating" city ..... thinking of Brighton .... more jobs ..... closer to london ..... uni friends there ...... sister there ..... only stayed in this cultural desert (plymouth) to be close to my kids and i dont see them any way!!! ....... had a couple of awful withdrawrals so we sat down together and planned a gradual tapering over the 2 weeks of xmas which i stuck to ...... last drink new years eve ..... only symptom as a a result insomnia so i just sit up watching telly ...... this will pass soon i hope ...... any how i hope everyone is keeping well and i will start reading all the back posts each time i come to the library ..... going to search for jobs now ...... only get a fixed amount of time on computers ...... have a good rest of day X pompey X ..... ironically weve got brighton in the FA cup on Sat ...... !!!!! will cut and paste this message and start a new thread as well