me,alcohol and my mood daily report

[kota]

me,alcohol and my mood daily report

Three day AF, one day drank thinking only one but got drunk at last and cancel the job as well. I understand we think one sip alcohol thinl 10....? Yea not to take one is far better!!!!
Kota

[kota]

me,alcohol and my mood daily report

My mood and AL
2nd October mood up to 8/10 .-----AF
3RD 8/10 AF
4TH 4/10 DRUNK
5TH 6/10 AF
6TH 8/10 HOPING AF
One day drink twoday hamper. ..
Kota

[kota]

me,alcohol and my mood daily report

My mood and AL
2nd October mood up to 8/10 .-----AF
3RD 8/10 AF
4TH 4/10 DRUNK
5TH 6/10 AF
6TH 8/10 HOPING AF
One day drink twoday hamper. ..
Kota

[kota]

me,alcohol and my mood daily report

7th drunk again !
8th still hoping AF .
Why we could not think of life without drink ?.It seems my mind never believe my life longer without it !
Kota

[kota]

me,alcohol and my mood daily report

My mood and AL
2nd October mood up to 8/10 .-----AF
3RD 8/10 AF
4TH 4/10 DRUNK
5TH 6/10 AF
6TH 8/10 AF
7th 6/10 Drunk
8th 7/10 Hoping not to drink ..

One day drink at least two days disturbance in mood and work ..
Kota

[kota]

me,alcohol and my mood daily report

Moderate today...
Pardon!
Kota

[kota]

me,alcohol and my mood daily report

9th 7/10 drunk moderately

I really somtime make conviction not to drink again, when I made it I relapse very soon.
Very very sad..
Kota

[kota]

me,alcohol and my mood daily report

10th oct. Mood 7/10 remained AF
Hoping more..
Kota

[pompeyman]

me,alcohol and my mood daily report

good stuff kota ........ autumn seems to be a time when we can change or slip into another winter of AL hell ........ im going out for a walk ....... watching the squirrels, conkers ........ all gone now ALREADY!!! trees changing colour .......... its up or down come on let's make it UP x PM :thumbs:

[kota]

me,alcohol and my mood daily report

PM,
Thank you for your encouragement!
Do you or anyone have experienced frequent urine discharge problem whilst being AF.I have to go toilet in every half an hour daytime and one or two hour in night.My sugar was 6.7 near to boarder line a couple of months ago.
I feel a bit burning or pain which make me go toilet frequently.

Thank you for sharing your experience.
Kota

[Doggygirl]

me,alcohol and my mood daily report

kota, you should probably see your doctor about the urination issues. One thing is for sure - whatever it going on there is NOT going to be helped by drinking. Whatever it is, I'm sure it's NOT being caused by being AF.

Good for you on your AF days.

DG

[Gaia]

me,alcohol and my mood daily report

Kota,

Your thread is very interesting, and I completely support your efforts to learn how to be AF. I have the feeling you are alone in your struggle where you are, so I am glad that you can come here and gain strength from our community.

AL makes our bodies retain water. So, on days when you don't drink, your body won't need the extra water so you need to void frequently. I don't know if you are heavy in weight - that can increase with water weight and discharge as well. Also if you have been drinking heavily and for a long time your kidneys could be a little challenged and that can cause some issues also.

Remember I am not a doctor so yes please listen to DG and see a doctor if it continues.

Otherwise, if you stay AF for a week your body, physically, should re-adjust itself and the urinating issues should subside.

Best to you.

[Theme2be]

me,alcohol and my mood daily report

Kota,

I battle as well and wish to convey that I understand.

You are so brave to post and I encourage you to keep in contact with the billiance offered here.

There are so many important factors about who you are besides alcohols prison.

What do you like to do?
Who are you outside of the distortion?

You seem wonderful and I extend my hand in friendship and support.

[kota]

me,alcohol and my mood daily report

Doggy,Gaia,Theme2be,
I checked up me with doctor regarding the urinating problem. He saw sugar,kidney, liver and infection all are ok. We made it twice to be more confident.
Are you agree with Gaia that AL reserves the water and when we are AF,body does not preserves it and discharges as quickly as possible? If so it makes a sense! !!!!
Thanks Gaia for your innovative information.
To be honest, I am 10 kg overweight.

For your kind sharing,
I am very friendly, social person when am AF and very creative as well.My three innovation in a factory, which is just one time change no need to follow up increased the sales by tenfold. I used to cashed my income by reducing the direct waste of the factory and some % of total reduction would be my income.Doing that job I I was earning at least 10 times of a average employee.
Now I lost all of them cause I did not punctual at work,now working to buy alcohol only and not a challanging job.
I never harm the people when I am AF, and always expend my 10% of total income to the society especially in education for deprived children. I am still carrying out this programme but very low in volume compared to my previous.

In the past I ruled over AL, now it is ruling me up.consequently,
I lost many things.
Loosing prestige and faith in the society.
Lost old pattern of earning.
Lost faith from relatives and friends.
Separated from joint family.
Time to time becoming ineffectiveness in jobs.
Gaining weight.
Growing depression.
Deteriorating health.
75% lost in memory power.
Sometime becoming street drunkard.
Wasting money in gambling.
When I get AL my ego goes up and turned into violence.

Finally,
I abused my kids yesterday and had a deadly clash with my wife!
I became nothings for all and turned to burden for my family. Kids who are in school at tender age I am ruining their future.
I feel myself lower than animal because they at least don't harm others.

I am healthy and young too just past my 37.I donot want to be exposed to the society.
I am not very familiar with Christianity but want to be in touch with a enlightened Guru.I really want to wash my brain up to the sprituality.An enlightened Guru could be of any religion or non of any religion but must be really talented and inspirable,knowledge in depth in the life cycle of humanity.We can say art of living and some enlightened say art of dying...
I need a master, godfather or mother who can transfer me into the simple living and more natural living.
That could be a free of cost or a small charge.
Thank you for your time. Could anyone guide me on this regard.
Tired of modern life....
If possible, Master could be OSHO lover.
Many thanks,
Kota posted by mobile

[kota]

me,alcohol and my mood daily report

Doggy,Gaia,Theme2be,
I checked up me with doctor regarding the urinating problem. He saw sugar,kidney, liver and infection all are ok. We made it twice to be more confident.
Are you agree with Gaia that AL reserves the water and when we are AF,body does not preserves it and discharges as quickly as possible? If so it makes a sense! !!!!
Thanks Gaia for your innovative information.
To be honest, I am 10 kg overweight.

For your kind sharing,
I am very friendly, social person when am AF and very creative as well.My three innovation in a factory, which is just one time change no need to follow up increased the sales by tenfold. I used to cashed my income by reducing the direct waste of the factory and some % of total reduction would be my income.Doing that job I I was earning at least 10 times of a average employee.
Now I lost all of them cause I did not punctual at work,now working to buy alcohol only and not a challanging job.
I never harm the people when I am AF, and always expend my 10% of total income to the society especially in education for deprived children. I am still carrying out this programme but very low in volume compared to my previous.

In the past I ruled over AL, now it is ruling me up.consequently,
I lost many things.
Loosing prestige and faith in the society.
Lost old pattern of earning.
Lost faith from relatives and friends.
Separated from joint family.
Time to time becoming ineffectiveness in jobs.
Gaining weight.
Growing depression.
Deteriorating health.
75% lost in memory power.
Sometime becoming street drunkard.
Wasting money in gambling.
When I get AL my ego goes up and turned into violence.

Finally,
I abused my kids yesterday and had a deadly clash with my wife!
I became nothings for all and turned to burden for my family. Kids who are in school at tender age I am ruining their future.
I feel myself lower than animal because they at least don't harm others.

I am healthy and young too just past my 37.I donot want to be exposed to the society.
I am not very familiar with Christianity but want to be in touch with a enlightened Guru.I really want to wash my brain up to the sprituality.An enlightened Guru could be of any religion or non of any religion but must be really talented and inspirable,knowledge in depth in the life cycle of humanity.We can say art of living and some enlightened say art of dying...
I need a master, godfather or mother who can transfer me into the simple living and more natural living.
That could be a free of cost or a small charge.
Thank you for your time. Could anyone guide me on this regard.
Tired of modern life....
If possible, Master could be OSHO lover.
Many thanks,
Kota posted by mobile