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[mama bear]

The Journey is here...Get your ass in gear !

YOU GO GIRL....EAT DEM BEANS!!!!

[TrappedDad]

The Journey is here...Get your ass in gear !

so...day two...not so well. i have have had 6 glasses of wine and that is all. i am out of AL. the drive home got me. damn it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i just want to make it past two. oh well back to square one.

[TrappedDad]

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i am going to watch house and the watch and hopefully fall asleep without running back out to the store. this really sucks ya know, and i am not just bitching....it really sucks. i didn't pick who i am. tomorrow i see my psychologist who is probably expecting some results of some kind and will push me towards AA which i do not have time for nor like. sorry for the negative post, see everyone in the AM.

[tlrgs]

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hey trap nothing ever happens over night buddy ...give it time if you make it one day that awesome and if you make it two of three that would be great ...just dont give up it takes alot to get really where you want to be in life .. so just keep going and working ... rememeber this is all mind games and you have to relearn kinda like a new born baby just going for its first step... one foot at a time and one day at a time ... so start thinking of ways to change your habits .. diffrent ways to pass the time ... look around and see what you have been missing or been putting off ... and come here and write it all down lets work on a plan together ... big hugs trap hang in there buddy

[mama bear]

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Trapped...
one second, one minute, one hour......please consider antabuse......you have got to stop this or you will be miserable......it just gets worse you know....
love you and we are here for you like roger said....put a plan in writing if you have to...craving pass and remember they dont kill you.....we will get there together...you are family now
mama

[bird]

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Yeah Trap you can get antabuse off the net and dont have to ask doc. Try everything else first though...hey Vick I gotta tape somewhere I used to quit smoking and maybe 6 of my friends used it too and quit. I'll look for it and send it to ya....hey MB the beach sounds better....kid playing drums I cant practice piano boo hoo

[rubywillow]

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Trap, don't pick up any more, OK? You've GOT to make to make a plan for your 'witching' hour, and you know when it is. We are not disappointed, but I know you are. Think it through. Use your brain. I know how it feels, like we're not in control, but we can be. and once we realize that we gain more confidence, OK? We've all been there, when we seem to be on automatic control, and just pick that shit up, and that's what it is, because it runs through our body like poison, and flows out even worse.So keep coming here, being honest. You're on the right track. This is hard. We didn't get to this place overnight.
Ruby

[bizman]

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Hay Trap I have a problem too. I would work all day come and 5 would drink untill 8 or later at first it was 2 the 3 then 4,5,6,7,8 and I have a big problem came here gots lots of support I still fight the battel but have cut my AH down to almost nothing I use Kunzu rescue whitch you can buy at any GNC for about 15 dollars It helped me. listen to rog he knows and as MB says keep at it if you can't beat it get the antabuse but do it you will be amazed how much your life will change. I am not saying it is easy and I am not there yet myself but I do see a big differance in my life, my kids and my wife. They all notice a new but not perfact me. Bird,rog,MB and all the rest have a great night see ya in the morning

[NoraC]

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Sun - did you talk to Swan today? Her surgery is tomorrow.

Vicki - great to have you back posting. It most be really hard for you with your hubby drinking. Thank goodness that my hubby isn't drinking. He never should anyway because of his meds.

RC - Thank you so much for all the information. You are absolutely right. Diet Coke will be the next thing I try to give up. I'm going to check out the supplements/vitamins you told me about too.

Mama - I don't much like them pushing you out of the office. But, the beach office sounds nice!

Trap - Hang in there! Getting one day was great. Now try again tomorrow. That's the way to do it. You have been drinking for years - you will do this! Listen to Ruby & Roger - they know what they are talking about. Be honest with your Doctor. They can't help you if you don't tell them the truth. I don't think antabuse is the right answer for you right now. You already have liver damage. Just keep on with what you're doing. Keep up on the Topamax. Are you taking L-Glutamine like we talked about?

Ok - all my friends. I'm going to try to get to bed. I am going to try to get my body & mind rested. RC is absolutely right that the Diet Coke is bad for me. So, tomorrow I will try to work on that.

[sunshinedaisies]

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Well everyone, I am in from work and checking in to say I am home. Jan - glad that your first day went well, and I don't think it matters where you are - you are out of the ghetto, your pay has gone up and I can think of far worse places to work than at the beach!!

Nora - we talked and I will try Swannie first thing in the morning.

Trap - as the others have said - don't expect a miracle - you didn't get to this place overnight - it isn't going to be an overnight fix. Just take it each day as it comes. you will get there in the end if you want to, but it will take time and commitment.

hi there Biz - hope life is going well for you - we will catch up eventually! LOL

Topsy - I LOVE baked beans - the veggie variety and am lucky they don't have any of the negative SE on me!!

RC - I have been taking the Vit C and the echinacea and am getting the oil of oregano tomorrow. I am practically gagging at the tabs though - I don't do big tabs well!! The sore throat is still there but so far has just stayed as a sore throat - I am keeping my fingers crossed!!

Hi and goodnight to everyone else - Ruby and Vicki, and Grateful and Panno and Rog and Tony and Time and Bird and I can't remember and I am SO Tired. I have to get me to bed. Hugs to all. God Bless.

Love, Sun xx

[Grateful]

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Good Morning, family. Hope everyone had a great night's sleep.

Jan-I'm glad that your 1st day went well..no matter where they place you, it has to be better than where you were before, right?

Sunny-How have you been? I hope your cold does not get worse...sounds like you are taking the right steps to stop it. Let me know how those orgeno tabs are....I can't imagine!

Swannie-I hope your surgery goes well today and that you are back with us shortly. We miss you and you are important in our family!!

RC-thank you, again, for all the advice you gave out yesterday. You are a very wise woman and we are lucky to have you.

Topsy-glad that you could eat! I love baked beans too-but they don't love me!!!

Trap-How did you make out last night? Please just keep coming back here...like the others have said, it doesn't happen overnight and it is hard and that is why it is important that you have support....that's why we are all here.

Bird-How are you feeling these days since having your gall bladder out? If you find that tape for Vicki, can you let me know the name of it? That is another bad habit I need to stop.......along with the diet coke...sigh.....

Vicki-I hope you have a good, relaxing day today. I need to hear you beautiful southern voice soon!! You always lift me up.

Nora-I'm going to try to wean off the diet coke along with you.....please pass along any tips you have. Hope you and your hubby and Casey have a great day!!!

Ruby-Hope you rested last night and are able to get out for a walk with your babies today. You live in such a beautiful area.

Roger-I love your optimism no matter what!! I always look forward to your posts.

Tony-How is your back? Have you started school yet-or when will you? Are you enjoying this nice weather we are having-I hope it means we will have a mild winter!

Well, I must get ready for work.....hope we all have a Terrific Tuesday....Panno-almost forgot you....I hope I didn't forget anyone else-well, Biz, I could never forget you (even if I tried :H).

Love to all.

[mama bear]

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Good Morning Precious Family...
WILL SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME WHY SWANNY IS HAVING SURGERY?????????????????????????????????? it may be none of my business though...
Ruby...did you survive the storms? The news says they were really bad.
Waiting for the hot water heater to start working. It seems to have a brain of its own and I'll be damned if I am taking a cold shower.....though I probably need one (right Vicki)
Sunni Bunni I need a new book. What's good that is out in paperback?
Trapped I will be thinking of you all day and send ing you strength and love. Some of us still stuggle every day, so brush yourself off and make this a new day.
I am attending a compay dinner at The Cheesecake factory tonight. How's that for a change??? I'll save you all a piece of cheesecake...what kind do you want??
TonyPannoGratefulTopsyBizSwannyNoraRoger...hope you all have great day

oh yeah...a young mother died yesterday after being struck in the head by a stray bullet. SHe was on her way to pick up her kids ONE BLOCK FROM MY OLD JOB.....what a shame.
ok...off to get ready and will try to check in..I dont like it that there is a camera on my computer...Big Brother is watching....I am in the REAL corporate world now

[sunshinedaisies]

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Good Morning everyone!!

JAN - DO NOT try and check in when you are at work! They can track where you have been!! Not worth it - really. Re Swannie - I just talked with her about 20 mins before she was going down to theatre - will PM you. She is fine though everyone and will be in hospital about a week - in UK there is no rush to get you out like over here!! I will keep you all updated!! She doesn't have a computer there either.

Grateful - good morning to you too - I didn't know you smoked! I started again when I broke my foot (along with the drinking) so also need to stop again. I refuse to stand outside this winter so WILL stop before it gets cold!! I too am planning on quitting the diet soda. Oh I am getting Oil of Oregano, not tabs, and I have tried it before and it really is YUCK but I will persevere with it. the tabs though I am not sure I can do - the mere thought of taking them this morning has me gagging. I never have been good at taking big tabs and vits just seem to sort of sit in my tummy and slightly nauseate me. I am not going to mention my cold again anyway - this is getting to be silly - it is a cold!!!!!!

Umm Jan - a new book. Let me think. There is one that is on the tip of my tongue - will have to play on Amazon and then Pm it to you. Bloomin' getting older stinks!

anyway, everyone else - you all know who you are - hallo to you and have a wonderful day - I have a lot of errands to run but will be popping in and out. Love and hugs to all,

Love, Sun xxx

We had storms all through the night although it has stopped for now, but we surely needed the rain.

[TrappedDad]

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So yesterday at 3pm i take my topo. I feel fine. At five I leave work and make the trek home where I pass the same stupid store I have for 2 weeks now. They sell a pretty good wine in a 500ml box (3 glasses), that is easy to hide, store and drink fast. I purposely buy the Chard b/c of the fruit qualities and breath mints really mask the scent so my wife doesn't know. Anyway, i buy 2...

By the end of the night, I had returned to the store to buy another 2, and now I am feeling like a total waste of space. Why can't I beat this? I feel depression setting in hard today...

You guys told me to post no matter what so here i am, posting.....In terms of the amount I am drinking, I have improved DRASTICALLY. On a weekly basis before I went "dark" (hiding my drinking), I would go through a Gallon of vodka a week, plus 12 bottles of wine, plus beers on the weekends.

But that's not the point is it? One of my biggest fears is that I will not be able to perform at work. I work in a VERY fast paced, high stress job that requires me to be well rested and quick witted. I am afraid if I quit drinking entirely, i will not sleep and then not perform at work and I will loose my job, house, everything. My mind plays tricks on me...

Maybe I should wrap myself up in a white jacket and lock myself up in a padded room...Couldn't buy AL then could I?

[sunshinedaisies]

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Good Morning Trap - don't worry about the not sleeping yet - worry about that when and if it happens - there are ways to deal with that then! for now, just concentrate on cutting down the drinking. the Topa takes time to work - hate to tell you, but with me it takes at least 6 weeks, although it did start to kick in and made me drink a lot less by week 4 or so. I used to drink 4-6 Guinness a night, and I am now down to maybe 1 or 2. So I consider that a lot better. I am hoping within a week - two at the most I will be AF again. Just stick with us - post and keep trying. Don't despair - just keep plodding along one day at a time.

hugs to you, Sun xx