Today is day 18 AF, and I have almost zero cravings. A friend popped by on Friday night, but didn't come in. He had a beer in his hand, and more out of habit than craving, I had a 'flashback' of how nice it would be to also have one in my hand, I would pop round to his place for one...then a millisecond later I remembered I'm AF and that was that.
This reinforces my assessment that my habitual drinking was more 'survival' than psychological addiction. I only need alcohol after a binge, to mitigate withdrawals to where I'm functional again. Of course, after a heavy one, by the time I'm functional again, my inhibitions have been taken care of and the party goes on. If I had a smooth supply of Valium, I could have a proper binge and stop drinking on Sunday, taking a Valium to restore functionality. Of course that doesn't really address the whole problem, and I have been compulsive with the Valiums as well.
This reinforces my assessment that my habitual drinking was more 'survival' than psychological addiction. I only need alcohol after a binge, to mitigate withdrawals to where I'm functional again. Of course, after a heavy one, by the time I'm functional again, my inhibitions have been taken care of and the party goes on. If I had a smooth supply of Valium, I could have a proper binge and stop drinking on Sunday, taking a Valium to restore functionality. Of course that doesn't really address the whole problem, and I have been compulsive with the Valiums as well.
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