For months I had been desperate to quit drinking and somehow just couldn't find it in myself to do it. I know this medical emergency was in that way truly a godsend. I was in the hospital for five days and when I got out certainly had no urge to drink.
But now, a month later, still sober, still no urge to drink ... but I overall feel absolute blahness ... that's the best way to describe it. I would say almost lack of affect. I love, intellectually, bieng sober, but I don't feel much energy or joy at life. Just kind of existing.
I have heard that surgery can result in depression, but I don't know if that's what's going on. I don't feel sadness or despair, just the blahs. I've been treated for depression for years and am still on an antidepressant, which finally should be getting a chance to work!
Am I feeling blah from quitting alcohol ... or a combination of that and the surgery ? ... sorry for rambling on ... any insights appreciated
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