To my dear friends and fellow suffers/achievers

[Doggygirl]

To my dear friends and fellow suffers/achievers

Do you have a friend you could call? You mentioned "going back" to AA. Do you still have some phone numbers? Calling each other is so encouraged in AA - I'm sure somebody would be willing to talk to you - maybe even arrange to go to a meeting tomorrow or something like that.

Sorry that the best I can do is an internet hug...

:l

DG

[Theme2be]

To my dear friends and fellow suffers/achievers

Thank you so for taking the time to care by sharing.

I am going to rest my head on pillow and dream of your support.

You are original . You are unique. You are perfect.
and I am blessed to have you in my life.

[rubywillow]

To my dear friends and fellow suffers/achievers

You have tons of encouragement here. Hope it helps you, aside from me sharing probably too much personal info! Of course, halloween season is a very good time I guess to share these things! :H I don't have any problem telling about my real life experiences, but don't want people to think I'm any crazier than I am. My point was to say we all have things that happen to us, that don't happen everyday to everyone. You have a very deep soul, you want to experience more than the mundane. And sometimes that's painful. We have to find our own way. You write beautifully. So use your knowledge, your intelligence, and make yourself a better life, even if it's different from those around you. AL will only kill your gift.

[Theme2be]

To my dear friends and fellow suffers/achievers

Sheri

I read your response many times because I felt honored that you as well as the rest took time to help.
I spend too much time in alone with my own thoughts, you are so right and what you said made sense.
I have a deeply shy side. I come home exhausted at the end of the day because I have to be "on" at work. I love being still and bringing my energies to a different level, like slow motioning a humming bird.

I began my plan by not purchasing champagne. It is what sets it off.
I then taper with beer because if not I will be very sick. After doing so I am getting ready to work today. Yeah, no calling in like a month ago where I put new job in jeopardy.

I want you to know with arms wide open that I am so grateful that you listen and care .
I have no place to go at times. I can come here safely and trust you and you never dissapoint.

My plan is to do what it takes to eliminate the moment that brings me to my knees.
I sing at Kareokee sometimes and the song I love is "angel" by Sarah Maclaughlin.
That is how I feel right now. You are the angels in whom's arms I am. Far away from "here" where alcohol hell is a cold hotell room.
I WANT to be pulled from the reckage of my silent misery.

I am in the arms of the angels and I pray to find some comfort here.

[Theme2be]

To my dear friends and fellow suffers/achievers

A brother died last week that I was very close with. The last time I spoke with him I was plasterd. He called the next day because he said I was all over the place out of concern.
We missed in our conversation because he is a manic depressive and he was in manic mode. I could not keep up with him and told him so and we hung up, but we ended with saying "bye".
I would not talk to my beautiful brother Steve again.

I am so sad and can't believe my dear brother whom was one of a few I trusted because I knew he loved me for being me is gone.
I miss my brother Steve.

It goes this way. I have a history with the ones I love the most are taken. My fiance at a young age, my dad, my fiance's mom who was like Ellanor Rosevelt, so ahead of her time. People I believe would have been so essential to my life and maybe I would not have this difficulty because it is not just chemical, it is emotional and spiritual.

I have to be careful, for I want to pack it up and hit the road and end up somewhere in Alaska.
I have to find a way to get closer to nature for it is my family.

I have to be carefull also for I have a very sick mother that longs for me to fail for her own ego's sake and if I cave into that story I am vaporized.

Thanks, this feels healthy .
I have hours before work and am not sick nor drunk and this is as Guitarista said putting one foot in front of the other.

I love you all so much~