my whole concept of religion god prayer
and faith did not exist, I denied all
these things on the premise that they're
all bullshit. I had to break that barrier
and give it a try. I had to at all cost
forget what I think I knew and adopt
a new way of thinking and try and comprehend
what prayer is and how it can help me in my
and hopefully your sobriety. There must be
a reason why these so called people pray
and why they do it in the first place.
For me the concept of prayer at a certain
time of day/time is completely useless
I use it when I need it and as many times
as I need it.
Here is what I do, when I am troubled by
a thought I do not choose I recognize that
thought (ie: i want to get drunk) I know
I have no way of making my brain not choose
that thought. So then in my head I say the
serenity prayer, while doing this once twice
or as long as I have to even for an hour or more.
The thought of wanting to drink will eventually
be gone because I have chosen instead to say
the serenity prayer in my head and occupy my mind
with something else. The more I exercise this
simple concept the easier it becomes.
Here's a perfect scenario for any alcoholic in
recovery, you walk by a bar an advertisement
or anything else that may trigger you in wanting
to drink. When this happens to me I simply just
say the serenity prayer in my head and exercise
it over and over again until a new thought comes
to mind that is not about alcohol.
The more I practice it the easier it becomes, at
times I don't even say the entire serenity prayer
at all I'll just use half, or I could create one
off the top of my head. For example "mickey mouse
wears a blouse" it's stupid it makes no sense it
makes me laugh and in the end it removes that
original thought I did not choose ie: I want to
drink or I want to gamble etc.
I don't have to say it out loud, I just say it in my
head I don't have to kneel or pray to a god it
has nothing to do with that whatsoever.
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