Gday all,
Sober as here and reflecting back on what went terribly wrong. I think I have a button inside my head that says "dont have too good a time" because I had a wonderful time and I didnt drink the whole time, even though others did. I now have something else to put in my arsenal. Its like an altered reality.....for so long I have had no urges to drink...then out of the blue...my thinking changes and its all or nothing thinking....I think that for so long I have felt not good enough that my mind wants to take me back to that place that feels familiar. I have to find a way to close thedoor on the past...it is not my present and not my future.
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