Today is Day ONE!????

[fennel]

Today is Day ONE!????

TrappedDad;999599 wrote: I just had a brilliant idea that could solve all of my problems all at once!

I seem to do ok if I am locked up inside my house with no access to alcohol. With that in mind, stay with me, I was thinking of ways that I could get to and from work without me being the responsible person responsible for toting my irresponsible untrustworthy arse to and from work. These are the possible solutions I have come up with.

1. Fund a drill company to install a very large air transfer unit (you know, like the ones used at banks at the teller drive thrus, except big enough for me to climb in) between my closet at home and my office.


Zach

A huge pneumatic tube! Just like at the hospital where I used to work. I think that's a great idea...plus, subscribing to Netflix as techie suggested, and wearing an old "DARE" tee-shirt. You could change into it immediately after work, before you leave the building.

[NoraC]

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Misty - I think that some of the liquor stores around here are going out of busy now. :H

Trap - love your plan. I often needed one of those tubes to get me from work to home. :H

[tlrgs]

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TrappedDad;999599 wrote: I just had a brilliant idea that could solve all of my problems all at once!

I seem to do ok if I am locked up inside my house with no access to alcohol. With that in mind, stay with me, I was thinking of ways that I could get to and from work without me being the responsible person responsible for toting my irresponsible untrustworthy arse to and from work. These are the possible solutions I have come up with.

1. Fund a drill company to install a very large air transfer unit (you know, like the ones used at banks at the teller drive thrus, except big enough for me to climb in) between my closet at home and my office.

2. Somehow raise enough money to turn local politicians and voters to make my county into a "dry" county where alcohol sales would be illegal AND gas sales would be illegal too. That way, when I run out of gas, I couldn't just drive to another county.

3. Personally hire very large men to stand in the parking lot of every grocery store, gas station, or convenience store in town with written permission slips to litterally kick me in the face if they see me at the store after work. (I can run pretty fast, so I don't know if this one would work, but it would be cheaper than 1 or 2)

4. My personal favorite, and the most economical. I would change out of my business attire before I left for work, and put on a black t-shirt that, in BIG white letters, read: "I Drink And Drive, Please Don't Sell Me Alcohol!" This way, I would be way to embarrased to even get out of the car at all!

Let me know what you guys think :thanks:

Zach

now that was funny buddy
and let me know im for hire im not a large man but i bet i can scare you striat
lmao buddy .. keep it going

[NoraC]

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Wagoneer!!! LOVE your avatar. Miss Yvonne!! I just love Pee Wee's Playhouse. What's todays secret word?? :H:H

[TrappedDad]

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Back To The Beginning

I have been awake since 4am this morning thinking of what I was going to do today because yesterday evening I drank. I did not get drunk, but I did let myself down. It was not a "slip" either, it was a premeditated, intentional, on purpose drinking event. I didn't enjoy it either. Now today I just feel like a total failure.

I feel like I cheated on my wife. I feel that bad. I thought about not posting at all today, or maybe just posting something humorous and witty. You see, as you might have guessed by now, I hide behind my humor. So for me to post something as honest as this is hard. It is easier for me to find other ways to express myself than to honestly post how I am feeling.

But today, all I can seem to do is to tell all of you that I don't know if I will ever be able to be completely 100% AL free. I can't see it. I thought I could. The weekend was easy for me, but the work week is a different animal. I don't know how to handle that one. Work is what drove me to drink in the first place!

For those of you who don't know my story, you can read it here...
https://www.mywayout.org/community/f8...out-45907.html

Today is Tuesday. I am going to try again today. I am sorry I let you guys down!

[Choochie]

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Trapped - I see so many people who slip and then come back to be successful. Maybe you could try some baby steps first?? I'm new so I'm not chock full of advice but I do see others accumulate days, slip, and then accumulate days again. I know there will be veterans who come along and give you more solid advice. Just wanted to let you know that I'm here and thinking of you.

Choochie

[Topsy-Turvy-Tracy]

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Zach, I wish I knew what to say. Very sorry to hear that you drank again. I do know that it's not outside situations that "drive" us to drink. It's something inside. Maybe it would be helpful to have someone in r/l to be accountable too also. I'm teaming up with my daughter, who is not much a drinker, and she's going to stay AF with me through the holiday season - as a cheerleader and sober company in what feels like an AL-ridden world. Is there someone in your life who could do the same kind of thing for you? Also, the sobriety toolbox thread really is full of some good stuff.

*edited because I realized that I was not on the Journey thread. Sorry.

Hope everyone is well.

[fennel]

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You're not a failure. Addiction sucks, plain and simple.

Can you have a talk with your doctor about this? Would you be willing/able to maybe participate in an outpatient program? :h

[Pride before Fall]

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Today is Day 1, TD. What are you going to do differently? Addiction will tell you you don't have a choice, but you do.

kids
wife
friends
job
self-image
ethanol

Which of the above do you care about most? Which care about you?

You're stronger than you think, and it's a new day. Back on the pony, turning again in the right direction. :l

Maybe it's time to add something here (one of my favorite motivating threads):
https://www.mywayout.org/community/f1...ing-22609.html

[Brigitte Bardot]

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Hi Zach, I always found the first 3-5 days of being completely AF were the hardest. I caved so many times during those days, and normally is was just a glass of wine at night and I could make the normal size bottle stretch all week..but sometimes that was not the case either. Either way, the feeling of guilt ranged depending how much I drank.

This is going to be hard. Why did you decide to drink? What changed your mind? Did you feel you missed the taste of a glass of wine or beer? Did you feel that since it was Monday that you needed it to cope to get you through the work week?

[Grateful]

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Zach-just want to say that you are NOT a failure!! Failing would be to not even try. Have you received the Carr book yet? I'm glad you came back here and posted and didn't "hide".....like Fennel said, Addiction sucks - no matter what kind of addiction it is!!

[TrappedDad]

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Brigitte Bardot;1000064 wrote: Hi Zach, I always found the first 3-5 days of being completely AF were the hardest. I caved so many times during those days, and normally is was just a glass of wine at night and I could make the normal size bottle stretch all week..but sometimes that was not the case either. Either way, the feeling of guilt ranged depending how much I drank.

This is going to be hard. Why did you decide to drink? What changed your mind? Did you feel you missed the taste of a glass of wine or beer? Did you feel that since it was Monday that you needed it to cope to get you through the work week?

I have NEVER had an AL free work night. The stress of leaving the office and going home drives me to the store everytime. It is like I walk from one phone never stops ringing setting to kids shouting crying house craziness setting. I bought the small (2-3 glass) bottle of chard. Not enough to get drunk, just enough to take the edge off. I used to drink a 1/2 liter of vodka before dinner when I got home, so I have tappered off quite a bit, but I want to be free of this so bad!

[TrappedDad]

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Grateful;1000070 wrote: Zach-just want to say that you are NOT a failure!! Failing would be to not even try. Have you received the Carr book yet? I'm glad you came back here and posted and didn't "hide".....like Fennel said, Addiction sucks - no matter what kind of addiction it is!!

Grateful, I have the book, thank you, haven't had the time to read it yet. Maybe I should start there.

[tlrgs]

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TrappedDad;1000037 wrote: I have been awake since 4am this morning thinking of what I was going to do today because yesterday evening I drank. I did not get drunk, but I did let myself down. It was not a "slip" either, it was a premeditated, intentional, on purpose drinking event. I didn't enjoy it either. Now today I just feel like a total failure.

I feel like I cheated on my wife. I feel that bad. I thought about not posting at all today, or maybe just posting something humorous and witty. You see, as you might have guessed by now, I hide behind my humor. So for me to post something as honest as this is hard. It is easier for me to find other ways to express myself than to honestly post how I am feeling.

But today, all I can seem to do is to tell all of you that I don't know if I will ever be able to be completely 100% AL free. I can't see it. I thought I could. The weekend was easy for me, but the work week is a different animal. I don't know how to handle that one. Work is what drove me to drink in the first place!

For those of you who don't know my story, you can read it here...
https://www.mywayout.org/community/f8...out-45907.html

Today is Tuesday. I am going to try again today. I am sorry I let you guys down!

HEY TRAP shit happens buddy so what you had a drink but the thing is ..YOU realise it you are see it,learning and may not understand iot... but you will ...you said it the week bull just another day and start treating it just as that ..weekend father husband bussnessman .. not much changes during the week you are still bussnessman, father, husband ... keep working on ... get the contracts out and sign on the bottom line ... you know what this might be something here .. think about that ...
well anyway buddy keep going and never let your guard down

[Samantha T.]

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Hi Zach,
I wanted to respond to you because I, too, am trapped. In all areas of my life, it seems, not the least of which is by alcohol, and I am also starting another Day 1. So you are not alone.
I also have a hard time seeing the possibiliities of a life that is AF, but I am trusting that the fact that the other people that are doing it here means that it is indeed possible for us as well.

Hang in there today. And tomorrow and the next. I know the first three are the most difficult.

Sam