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[Ringing Cedars]

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A rough patch Zach but lookin good! You're doing great considering all.

[fennel]

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Fantastic news! You must be so relieved...

[techie]

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hang in there pal. good news on the vital organ!

[Mish]

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Great news all round, Zack. Glad to hear it. :h

[TrappedDad]

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Learning To Live

Hello all.

I know it has been awhile since I have posted. Basically, I have been dealing with alot. Work has been killing me, and I have decided that TopoMax is NOT the drug it is hyped to be. I don't know if depression is a side effect or not, but I have decided to get off the drug to see if my mood improves. I have had a few days AL free. I have not drank alot on the days I did drink, but my mood is horrible, and my sleep patterns are off the charts awful. If I sleep 2 hours a night, I call it a win!

I have actively starting pursuing new employment, but the search is hard and costly, as maintaining my current compensation in this market would probably mean more hours away from home. Something I don't want. This has also caused unwanted stress and anxiety. This coupled with the fact that the holidays are looming in front of me and I am trying to do all of this AL free is becoming a battle that is getting old and hard.

I am not giving up. I am getting tired though. The positives are getting thin. I know to keep looking at my children and my wife, I know to keep counting that I have a job as a blessing, I know to keep taking it one damn day at a time, but sometimes all I want to do is run. Ya know?

Ok, I have vented enough...

[SassyLassy]

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By any chance are you taking GABA? I started taking that after the rest of the supplements and Topa, and even thought I kicked up my anti-depressant, I was A MESS!! So I stopped taking it, and I seem better. Could be the Thanksgiving holiday, don't know, but I think I know my body to know when I feel "weepy" for no reason, and I did on GABA. Weird.
Hang in there

[Doggygirl]

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TD, not sure if this feedback is worth anything. When I first came to MWO I ordered the starter kit from here, and ordered topa from an off shore pharmacy. While I was waiting for the topa to arrive, I read and read and read all the LOOOONG threads that were active at the time about topa and the positives and negatives. By the time the topa arrived, I decided I didn't really want to take it due to the SE's that I read about.

That is an individual choice of course. I guess the only way to find out if some of your discomfort is related to SEs of topa is to titrate down and see what happens?

I can feel your pain. I've lived the high stress professional life - especially through job changes. I always find holiday time stressful. One thing I DO know is that any relief I thought I got from drinking was more than negated by the hangovers and other consequences. And when the "high" was over, the job search was still in front of me. The holidays were still in front of me. I just had more AL related shit to wade through in order to get through the days.

Keep fighting.

DG

[K9Lover]

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Glad to hear from you Zach! Sorry you're having troubles...my thoughts are with you.
Keep us posted :l

[tlrgs]

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TrappedDad;1014584 wrote: Hello all.

I know it has been awhile since I have posted. Basically, I have been dealing with alot. Work has been killing me, and I have decided that TopoMax is NOT the drug it is hyped to be. I don't know if depression is a side effect or not, but I have decided to get off the drug to see if my mood improves. I have had a few days AL free. I have not drank alot on the days I did drink, but my mood is horrible, and my sleep patterns are off the charts awful. If I sleep 2 hours a night, I call it a win!

I have actively starting pursuing new employment, but the search is hard and costly, as maintaining my current compensation in this market would probably mean more hours away from home. Something I don't want. This has also caused unwanted stress and anxiety. This coupled with the fact that the holidays are looming in front of me and I am trying to do all of this AL free is becoming a battle that is getting old and hard.

I am not giving up. I am getting tired though. The positives are getting thin. I know to keep looking at my children and my wife, I know to keep counting that I have a job as a blessing, I know to keep taking it one damn day at a time, but sometimes all I want to do is run. Ya know?

Ok, I have vented enough...

like in life there is nothing a sure thing ,a mercle drug in anyway shape or form..
but there one thing that is always a sure thing is that you have the power to do anything you set your mind to... for every positive there is a native and you can look at the native as just that a native but you can also turn that native into a positive and make it work for you in a good way ... but there also alot to be thankful for what you have ,your family and friends and it could be worst ,no work ,no family and no life ... so remember look around see what you have in front of you ... there might be things that you havent seen in a while ...and use 20 to 30 mg of melatonin to help you sleep what ever it takes .. and love ya buddy i believe in ya and always here if you ever need to just vent and talk

[K9Lover]

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tlrgs;1014639 wrote: ...and use 20 to 30 mg of melatonin to help you sleep what ever it takes ..

Is that the right amount? Seems like A LOT...I take 1 mg....just wondering ???

[techie]

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Welcome back Trap. I hope you can get some things resolved and get back on track. K9 is asking an important question. I take 3mg of melatonin and that pretty much knocks me out. I would google the safety ceiling on melatonin before taking anymore than that. Glad your back...John

[Ringing Cedars]

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I've questioned T on the amount before too. He seems to know what he's doing. The highest I've known people take who are dealing with chemo/radiation is 10mgs.

[BlowSomeBubbles]

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i am wondering if the non alcoholic beers might help some? my husband tried to "fool" me tonight with it. after 2 i didnt feel any calmer and was like, NO THIS IS NOT AL! dirty lil tricker. he claims its the idea of drinking thats calming, and just the act of drinking a beer would calm me....but alas...it is the alcohol.

[Mish]

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BSB you are such a sweetie...I just love you already. I really want to support you in any way I can. Please feel free to PM me any time. Big hugs and kisses.

[rubywillow]

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Doesn't matter to me, the numbers. It's you, sweet boy. Come on back home, and let us help. Even though you have been INCREDIBILY insightful, and understand which way you need to go. :huggy, my buddy.