Hello fellow abstainers
I was wondering if anyone else suffered from the kind of nightmares that are so real that you are actually there and can smell, taste, feel and interact with everyting around you, I get them nearly every night (that is when I eventually get to sleep), unless I take a sleeping tablet, then I don't dream at all. My doctor has told me that I should only be taking one every other night which I have started doing, but on my night free from pills (which are only zopiclone anyway), when the insomnia eventually gives way to exhaustion I'm asleep for around four hours then wake up from very nasty dreams, most times too scared to go back to sleep.
I's my 12th day AF today and my head is starting to clear, and for as way back as I can remember I have always had these dreams, often they come with night terrors and strange demon like beings that do naughty things to me & other times they are so vivid and frightening that I feel I am loosing my mind in my dream state, which I almost did on Wednesday 10th.
An example from a few nights ago (I'm not going into Wednesdays dream it was even worse than this one), was that my liver was working its way out of my body, getting harder & harder & trying to force it's way through my skin I was running around holding onto the outline of it through my right side and trying to keep it in place, as it was getting harder and harder and protruding even more, I was pleading for help from people around me (I seemed to be in a train station of some kind, but not on the platform on the area leading into the station which were like marble steps), but it was as if no one could see me, eventually my liver pushed it's way out through my skin (kind of like in alien), and I was still desperately trying to hold onto it, although now there is a big hole in my right side and my liver is in my hands, I could feel the warm blood trickling through my hands and smell the coppery stench of blood, and now all my liver is being held on by is a few stringy bits of gut and stuff (I could feel all of this happening and it was very painfull, and the sight and smell of holding a part of my insides was making me wretch), eventually even the stringy bits gave way and I collapsed on the steps with my liver in hand then woke up holding onto my side sweating like a pig.
I asked my doctor if she'd ever heard of someone having dreams like this every night and she said no, so please people tell me I'm not the only one, I'm starting to think that this was the reason I started drinking in the first place (although I have no intention of taking a drink again), it is very unplesant and I'm not sure how much more I can take.
Strangley, aftter I wake up from these dreams it feels like someone has bored a 3cm diameter whole in the underneath right side of my brain where there is emptyness & numbness, there is no pain there just nothing, this normally takes a few hours to subside from the 3cm size although I can feel it there most of the time it just get's less obvious, it's as if there's some flaps that open up fully when it's at it's worst and almost close when it's at it's best, but never fully close, it always seems to be a little bit open.
Any insight or similar experience would be greatly appreciated.
Thanks in anticipation
Missing_link
I was wondering if anyone else suffered from the kind of nightmares that are so real that you are actually there and can smell, taste, feel and interact with everyting around you, I get them nearly every night (that is when I eventually get to sleep), unless I take a sleeping tablet, then I don't dream at all. My doctor has told me that I should only be taking one every other night which I have started doing, but on my night free from pills (which are only zopiclone anyway), when the insomnia eventually gives way to exhaustion I'm asleep for around four hours then wake up from very nasty dreams, most times too scared to go back to sleep.
I's my 12th day AF today and my head is starting to clear, and for as way back as I can remember I have always had these dreams, often they come with night terrors and strange demon like beings that do naughty things to me & other times they are so vivid and frightening that I feel I am loosing my mind in my dream state, which I almost did on Wednesday 10th.
An example from a few nights ago (I'm not going into Wednesdays dream it was even worse than this one), was that my liver was working its way out of my body, getting harder & harder & trying to force it's way through my skin I was running around holding onto the outline of it through my right side and trying to keep it in place, as it was getting harder and harder and protruding even more, I was pleading for help from people around me (I seemed to be in a train station of some kind, but not on the platform on the area leading into the station which were like marble steps), but it was as if no one could see me, eventually my liver pushed it's way out through my skin (kind of like in alien), and I was still desperately trying to hold onto it, although now there is a big hole in my right side and my liver is in my hands, I could feel the warm blood trickling through my hands and smell the coppery stench of blood, and now all my liver is being held on by is a few stringy bits of gut and stuff (I could feel all of this happening and it was very painfull, and the sight and smell of holding a part of my insides was making me wretch), eventually even the stringy bits gave way and I collapsed on the steps with my liver in hand then woke up holding onto my side sweating like a pig.
I asked my doctor if she'd ever heard of someone having dreams like this every night and she said no, so please people tell me I'm not the only one, I'm starting to think that this was the reason I started drinking in the first place (although I have no intention of taking a drink again), it is very unplesant and I'm not sure how much more I can take.
Strangley, aftter I wake up from these dreams it feels like someone has bored a 3cm diameter whole in the underneath right side of my brain where there is emptyness & numbness, there is no pain there just nothing, this normally takes a few hours to subside from the 3cm size although I can feel it there most of the time it just get's less obvious, it's as if there's some flaps that open up fully when it's at it's worst and almost close when it's at it's best, but never fully close, it always seems to be a little bit open.
Any insight or similar experience would be greatly appreciated.
Thanks in anticipation
Missing_link
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