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**Ringing Cedars** · November 14, 2010, 06:21 PM

The Journey is here...So Get your ass in gear November to Remember

Anyone else checkin in???

**tlrgs** · November 14, 2010, 06:29 PM

The Journey is here...So Get your ass in gear November to Remember

Ringing Cedars;1003647 wrote: I wanna know too Nora...is crying allowed??

are you ok ringing and yes crying alot

**NoraC** · November 14, 2010, 06:32 PM

The Journey is here...So Get your ass in gear November to Remember

CRYING???? WHO'S CRYING????? Here's a great big hug!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:l:l:l:l:l:l

**Topsy-Turvy-Tracy** · November 14, 2010, 06:58 PM

The Journey is here...So Get your ass in gear November to Remember

Hi all, and hugs, and tears. I feel very emotional lately too. I'm starting to dread Thursday nights because that's when I have to oversee the parenting class. I love the class itself. They guy who teaches is awesome, but it just makes me want to bawl! I think of what it would have been like if I had been raised like that instead of with a lot of yelling and screaming and name calling and hitting and threats and fear that someone was really going to get hurt, or worse. My daughter (who is 30 now) helped out with childcare during the class and afterwards I told her that I wish I would have known all this before.

It kinda freaks me out because I'm supposed to (in my role at that class) have it together, and sometimes that class makes me feel like falling apart. I fell apart just writing this paragraph (still crying as I type). We did much better with our kids, and I believe that they will do better still, but I still want to rewind the clock and go back and experience it all differently so that I could do it all differently. I guess I'm having a "Back to the Future" fantasy where I just wish I could go back with my 50-year-old brain and fix everything for everyone, including my own parents, but mostly for me so I wouldn't feel so fearful and vulnerable all the time.

So, that's my big emotional barf for this week! I really appreciate this place, this thread, and you people. I don't have any other place to talk about this stuff.

**sunshinedaisies** · November 14, 2010, 07:02 PM

The Journey is here...So Get your ass in gear November to Remember

I read somewhere that if we all threw all our problems into a big pile into the middle of the room and had to pick one out, we would all want our own back! Not sure how true it is but I thought it was a good thing to think about......

And now I AM going to go and attack my pile of ironing. Yes, the same one that I was going to attack hours ago!! I really am this time!!! LOL Maggie is limping very badly today and I am not sure if I might have to take her to the vet tomorrow. I will see how she is tomorrow. Love to all of you. I do love this family. You are all so special to me - all in your own way. When all the drama was going on, I almost decided to call it quits and not come here any more - I don't do drama well - it makes my tummy go funny - but I immediately felt a loss. You all all so important to me now. I love seeing you all here and being part of you. Thank you all for helping me. And that is enough of being soppy. IRONING HERE I COME.

Hugs, Sun XXXX

**NoraC** · November 14, 2010, 07:06 PM

The Journey is here...So Get your ass in gear November to Remember

Hugs Tracy.......:l I know there are a lot of things I wish to do over. But, I can do better now. :h

Sun- I am the same way. Can't take the drama - upsets me too. :l:l

**rubywillow** · November 14, 2010, 07:18 PM

The Journey is here...So Get your ass in gear November to Remember

O Top! Now u have me crying. My childhood was crazy, but n comparison, like the Waltons. Sending a big hug 2 the little Tracy. :hug:
Think I may have 2 c my ENT re my buggy ear. It hurts some now. So I'm on the road home tomorrow. Love, peeps.

**tlrgs** · November 14, 2010, 07:30 PM

The Journey is here...So Get your ass in gear November to Remember

yeah topsy i would love to change most of the past that i missed and screw up and go back ... but thank god for everything ..it work out the way it did just because .. i know it sounds weird ..but to look at it now i wouldnt have learned and be where i am today as a person and a better father,lover,to where i can see and think before i react ..well most time still learning how to control my anger ...but everything in time as they say
well sunshine iron away and everyone The Journey is here...So Get your ass in gear lets do it together

**tlrgs** · November 14, 2010, 07:39 PM

The Journey is here...So Get your ass in gear November to Remember

ruby you can try putting some peroxide in your ear to help clean it out ... hey trust me i have done this just because i have had wood dust built up in my ear and would get infected .. ill call you ruby

**sunshinedaisies** · November 14, 2010, 08:19 PM

The Journey is here...So Get your ass in gear November to Remember

Topsy - I so agree with Rog - if you had done it differently you wouldn't be the person you are now. My childhood was SO awful - not going into it - it is in the past - BUT it has made me who I am now. I hope that I am a compassionate person who forgives, who knows that people don't do things on purpose (or that is what I HAVE to believe) and that because of what happened to me, I treat my children now how I would have wanted to be treated. I broke the way that my family went. The abuse, and so have stopped what would have been the next generation. It wasn't easy and took a lot of soul searching, pain and tears. but I did it. It took many years but I came out this end of it, and am now at peace with myself, and most importantly, my mother. My children don't have bad memories of their childhood. You CANNOT wind back the clock - accept that - but know that you do what you can now to make things different. Please don't waste precious energy wishing things COULD have been - they can't and won't ever be different (I mean the past) - just accept the here and now and know that you are doing all that you can now. Change the way you are thinking - it will drain your energy. Live for today and the future. Many hugs and much love to you dear Tracy. God Bless too,

love, Sun xxx

**mama bear** · November 14, 2010, 10:20 PM

The Journey is here...So Get your ass in gear November to Remember

Awwwww Tracy, no tears honey. My crappy childhood has made me a great mom, I think. Read my story...it's called I am a Survivor...like all of us here.
Love you all...going to bed

**GoodAsGold** · November 14, 2010, 10:43 PM

The Journey is here...So Get your ass in gear November to Remember

sunshinedaisies;1003828 wrote: ...know that you do what you can now to make things different...

you got it sunny
bless you
i needed 2 hear this
xxx

**rubywillow** · November 14, 2010, 10:52 PM

The Journey is here...So Get your ass in gear November to Remember

Goldie! Been missing u love. Let's all make happy memories from now on. U all make me happy, & I wish u knew how wonderful u all r.

**mama bear** · November 15, 2010, 07:14 AM

The Journey is here...So Get your ass in gear November to Remember

GOLDIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Good Morning Sweetie!!
just having some coffee and looking at want ads

**bird** · November 15, 2010, 08:19 AM

The Journey is here...So Get your ass in gear November to Remember

Hi all,
HI GOLD!! Missed you.....yeah Topsy, our past made us who we are. Bad as it was I wouldn't change a thing....My cell phone contract is up today. Swithching over to a pre-pay since I rarely talk on the phone. Been waiting forever it seems. Yay...busy day will get back later...have a good day all

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