Starts - I know I should seek some counselling as I am not getting through this a smoothly as I thought I could. I guess I just don't want to go through it full on, all again as it's so painful. It's easier to push it all down and let little bits of pain out when I'm alone and then just the door again tightly when it gets to hard. Uggghhhhh.
I do have many many happy days and moments of the day. I am not depressed all the time. Great kids, husband, friends..... It's when the night comes or I get hit out of the blue with a blast of reality saddness you know? I will think about the counselling. I do believe in it, I will consider it.
No Al for me today. I don't want to feed the depression (which booze will certainly do) and give tomorrow a fighting chance at a great happy day.
Thanks,
Meech
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