Startingover's fall from grace.....

[horizonsnew]

Startingover's fall from grace.....

Starty

I cannot begin to imagine how hard that was for you to post, my heart broke reading it.
Thank you for sharing. You are an amazing woman with so many special qualities. God Bless you.


:l :l :l

[startingover]

Startingover's fall from grace.....

Gawd, i wish I could just squeeze you all to bits.
Honestly your replies and your support have done more for me than you can possibly realise
While I was writing it, and cringing and beating myself up I was wondering what sort of responses I would get and how I would feel. So when I posted it, I just hit "post quick reply" and then legged it :H
I must admit I was nervous to log back in
Well, that was madness, just another episode of distorted thinking on mt part.
Thanks everyone, this has given me a huge boost and an added impetus to keep moving on up

[Guest]

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ah Starty, your very brave posting this. I love you girlie but if you ever do that again im going to go over and kick the crap out of you......x

[beautifulred]

Startingover's fall from grace.....

You are one HELL of a strong woman my friend. My God (and I mean that in respect to him).....to be able to confront your demons by sharing this with us.........I don't even know what to say. You WILL survive. You WILL win this battle.
Love,
BR

[Chillgirl]

Startingover's fall from grace.....

limers;1002632 wrote: ah Starty, your very brave posting this. I love you girlie but if you ever do that again im going to go over and kick the crap out of you......x

Yeah and me and Limers can be pretty damn scary!!! :boxer::bat:b&d:

[startingover]

Startingover's fall from grace.....

Lovely to see you here again Horizons and Reddy Brek!!

I know you can be Chilly! I have seen both you and Limers in action!!!!

[mama bear]

Startingover's fall from grace.....

Starty -
I was speechless after I read your brave posts. WOW. I was there for a bit when your Mom died, but I had no idea about the rest. I am so sorry for your loss, well losses, a father you loved, and your Mom.
I have so much much respect for your bravery and strength. You are blessed to have your Army friends and so many others here that love you.
I am glad you are finding your way back.
Love and strength

[peacenik]

Startingover's fall from grace.....

thanks starty...very brave and honest post.
i went throught he same thing with my mom, but i drank my way through it. i was hungover the morning she died.

hugs

[techie]

Startingover's fall from grace.....

It is with tears I write this. I was more than moved when I read your posts Starty. I was frightened. I know in my heart that presented with a serious enough crisis I probably would have done the same thing. In fact, it is active thinking on my part. In a sense, I seem to be waiting for an excuse to use/drink. I have toyed with different scenarios that would give me permission to do so. Something profoundly life changing like the death of a loved one, my impending divorce, or loss of job. Your story set off that tripwire of awareness that tells me I still have so far to go. I can never ever stop learning, and working toward a life of sobriety. It also made me aware that the fight against this disease is a battle worth fighting. I applaud your courage and honesty.

John :h

[LVT25]

Startingover's fall from grace.....

You are a very special person that has been through some very difficult times. Your strength, courage and honesty are admirable. Hugs to you.:l:h

[Chillgirl]

Startingover's fall from grace.....

Techie - your post hit me like a sledgehammer. I bet there are hundreds of us here on this site with the exact same thoughts... "oh if this happened, I couldnt be expected not to..."
I have thought many times about situations which would be so devastating I would not be able to help but drink. This is of course complete unadulterated bullshit and thats why Starty post is SO important, we need to be aware of this danger.

[startingover]

Startingover's fall from grace.....

techie;1002673 wrote: It is with tears I write this. I was more than moved when I read your posts Starty. I was frightened. I know in my heart that presented with a serious enough crisis I probably would have done the same thing. In fact, it is active thinking on my part. In a sense, I seem to be waiting for an excuse to use/drink. I have toyed with different scenarios that would give me permission to do so. Something profoundly life changing like the death of a loved one, my impending divorce, or loss of job. Your story set off that tripwire of awareness that tells me I still have so far to go. I can never ever stop learning, and working toward a life of sobriety. It also made me aware that the fight against this disease is a battle worth fighting. I applaud your courage and honesty.

John :h

This is EXACTLY what happened. As soon as mum was diagnosed, that was my excuse....
I really hope that this awareness now helps you through your difficulties John :l

[Panno]

Startingover's fall from grace.....

Spine chilling shares Starty and Techie - thank you :l

[mama bear]

Startingover's fall from grace.....

techie...jeepers...you are so right.
We must always keep our guard up.

[Choochie]

Startingover's fall from grace.....

Techie, thank you.

Now, can you go back to being our belligerent Sarge cuz you and Starty have both made me cry today. Sarge makes me belly laugh.