Be careful what you wish for.........

[Doggygirl]

Be careful what you wish for.........

Starlight it is wonderful to see you. So glad that despite the challenging issues you face, you are facing them sober. I hope you keep searching for solutions, and that one day soon you find yours.

:l

DG

[KateH1]

Be careful what you wish for.........

Hello, Star! It is so very good to see you, my dear friend. As you well know, you were such a strong support and inspiration to me during my first year or so of going AF and most importantly, the journey of learning to LIVE Happily sober. I have really missed you!

I am sorry to hear that you have had new struggles to overcome. But, I have no doubt that you will overcome and you will continue to do it sober! Yes, many of of us drank to attempt to blott out past hurts and pain. We shared many chats regarding this during our first year or so. I cannot tell you how much meditation and yoga have helped me to learn to live in the present, without alcohol.

I hope that one day soon we can chat with each other. Until then, know that I am thinking of you and holding you in my heart, and sending you peace and healing energy.

xoxo Love, Kate

[lucky 2.0]

Be careful what you wish for.........

Star,

You most certainly have my prayers and well wishes for your continued recovery.

Be well and keep checking in with us so we know how you are doing please.

[Chief]

Be careful what you wish for.........

I'm so glad to hear from you.....I'm sending you a pm.


Don

[Popeye]

Be careful what you wish for.........

Hi Starlight.
Life's not always pretty, sober or not, and I'm really sorry to hear that you're having a bad time.
You have my deepest respect for enduring what you do and not resorting to the bottle.

[betty boop]

Be careful what you wish for.........

Hiya Star,

You WILL get through this sweetie, prayers for you from here too ......:l

[Starlight Impress Forever]

Be careful what you wish for.........

Sorry, not managed back on since post.......haven`t even managed to clear out full pm box or reply to your kindnesses.......am in a bad way and just so glad you are all still here for me.......I need you so badly right now.

Will post again in a minute as I think firefox will fail this post if I take too long.

Star x

[Starlight Impress Forever]

Be careful what you wish for.........

O.K., here is where I`m at.........

Have used 68 x 5 mg diazepam/ valium tablets over 73 days.......prescribed by G.P. to help me cope with vital trips out, despite currently suffering from agoraphobia.

I varied the dose, some days taking only 2.5 mg, some days I took 10 mg and some days I didn`t take any at all. I had not a living soul to help me even get any groceries and that is why this stupid cow started on a benzo.........I was a fool, but I have to try to deal with my situation as is.

So.........HELP!!!! I told my G.P. I wanted to take this drug out of the equation and she said just to quit cold turkey, that I am not already addicted, so..........I did quit........I`ll be 7 days off the pills a couple of hours from now......

Will post last of this in a mo

[Starlight Impress Forever]

Be careful what you wish for.........

But!!!!!, how can G.P. possibly know that I`m not addicted????

I haven`t any symptoms as yet that indicate I am suffering from withdrawal of the drug. Since stopping, my anxiety has gone through the roof, but I think this is partly because I am terrified that I will have fits or hallucinations due to stopping drug cold turkey.

Please help me.........does anyone have any idea how this is going to go? I am at the end of my rope here........I will have to have CBT to help me overcome the anxiety and agoraphobia, and I`ll have to be strong to overcome these disabilities, if only there is no horrific diazepam withdrawal waiting to pounce on me..........

Am terrified witless.

Thanks,

Star x

[Marshy]

Be careful what you wish for.........

Star,

If you haven't had any withdrawal symptoms and it's been seven days it doesn't sound as though you're going to get any. Can you either call your doctor (or weekend cover) or NHS Direct to get some reassurance? Maybe speaking to someone with medical knowledge would help put your mind at rest.

Have you arranged any CBT yet?

[Chillgirl]

Be careful what you wish for.........

Starlight - Im so sorry you are going through this, I dont have any experience of medication so I cant advise you but as Marshy says, you would have likely had symtoms immediately if you were going to have withdrawals so thats a positive.

Hopefully someone with knowledge of this will post soon, have you someone you can call just to talk to and take your mind of things? If you are still online Im happy to go into chat if you'd like.

[KateH1]

Be careful what you wish for.........

Hi Starlight, I am so, so sorry to hear of what you are going through right now. You are such a dear soul and you have been such a good friend to me. I want to reach out to you. I asked my husband (md) about withdrawls from this drug....he said that after 7 days, it is highly unlikely that you will experience any additional symptoms of withdrawl. But it is likely that the hightened anxiety that you are experiencing is a symptom of withdrawl. Frankly, he was stunned that you were told to go off this drug cold turkey rather than slowly cutting back. I don't know if this will help you or relieve some of your worry, but I hope that it does, at least a little xxx

Please pm me if I can do anything at all for you, if you need to chat, whatever I can do.

Love,
XXX Kate

[Starlight Impress Forever]

Be careful what you wish for.........

Thanks for all your support........you are the best.

Can`t think what to do for best.........am rat caught in a trap.

Will I be O.K. if I stick out the cold turkey from the drug, or should I do what I don`t want to, i.e. go back on the drug and wean myself off of it??

Before I quit drinking, I reckon I downed about 120 units a week..........I cut that down to around 60 units a week and went cold turkey with no medical intervention and I didn`t suffer physical withdrawal from alcohol.........you think this indicates that I should be safe with abruptly stopping diazepam the way I did the drink??

What to do.................

Star x

P.S.
Take it from this terrified woman..........benzodiazepines.........not worth the risk and the subsequent terror of coming off!!!

[lucky 2.0]

Be careful what you wish for.........

Hi Star,

Just wanted to add a post of support to you that this really is a caring community and I am so glad to see you here. I will hold good thoughts for you today and in the coming days. Life really does have a way of getting bettter.

xo

EDIT: Please consider one of the candles in my avatar as lit for you and your health and happiness.

[rubywillow]

Be careful what you wish for.........

Star, you can BE a lucky star. I have too many thoughts in my head to post them right here, but you and I can do this, OK?
Rubes