Well, I've come clean and told my MWO nearest and dearest that I used to be Spam. I know people here don't turn their backs on anyone but I am moved by the beautiful PM's offering support and welcoming me back.
The kindness and compassion shown has really brought a tear to my eye. When I was here at the beginning of this year, it always astounded me that people who don't "know" each other can be so supportive and genuinely caring.
And that's why I am back. Because I did so well between January and June with the help offered here. As soon as I quit MWO, I was back on the grog. The last few months have been pretty bad as I have suffered the worst depression I have ever had. With the help of my doctor and a psycologist, I can look to a better future. They both said that AL causes depression and that's the first thing that has to go from my life.
Maybe I was here for the wrong reasons in January. I really wanted to lose weight and had the belief that being thin would end all of my problems. And drinking 1000 calories a day in wine would not make me thin.
I always said that 2010 was going to be my year of learning and it has been. I now know that I need to get my mind better before tackling body issues.
So it's off the grog, ODAT, and back to the gym next week with my lovely personal trainer.
Although it's not in good circumstances, it's great to be back among friends.
The kindness and compassion shown has really brought a tear to my eye. When I was here at the beginning of this year, it always astounded me that people who don't "know" each other can be so supportive and genuinely caring.
And that's why I am back. Because I did so well between January and June with the help offered here. As soon as I quit MWO, I was back on the grog. The last few months have been pretty bad as I have suffered the worst depression I have ever had. With the help of my doctor and a psycologist, I can look to a better future. They both said that AL causes depression and that's the first thing that has to go from my life.
Maybe I was here for the wrong reasons in January. I really wanted to lose weight and had the belief that being thin would end all of my problems. And drinking 1000 calories a day in wine would not make me thin.
I always said that 2010 was going to be my year of learning and it has been. I now know that I need to get my mind better before tackling body issues.
So it's off the grog, ODAT, and back to the gym next week with my lovely personal trainer.
Although it's not in good circumstances, it's great to be back among friends.
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