The Journey is here...So Get your ass in gear for December to Remember

[Ringing Cedars]

The Journey is here...So Get your ass in gear for December to Remember

Not a worry Mama....I'd say about 8 so far. It's eased up now but went back to -15C. The first lot was light to shovel but the last 5 were HEAVY! Between that and cleaning/organizing at home, I'm sore today like you.

[mama bear]

The Journey is here...So Get your ass in gear for December to Remember

they say sore is good, but I'm not sure!!

[Ringing Cedars]

The Journey is here...So Get your ass in gear for December to Remember

only one good kind of sore I can think of - well maybe 2 - childbirth being the second - funny both involve the same parts

[mama bear]

The Journey is here...So Get your ass in gear for December to Remember

LMAO.....I have almost forgotten about that feeling!!!!!!!
GOOD one RC!!!

[Ringing Cedars]

The Journey is here...So Get your ass in gear for December to Remember

Well in my case it's best not to remember--that's just teasing myself. Anyhoo, I better scram. Have a great day Mama!

[tlrgs]

The Journey is here...So Get your ass in gear for December to Remember

Ringing Cedars;1022080 wrote: only one good kind of sore I can think of - well maybe 2 - childbirth being the second - funny both involve the same parts

all in one handyman at your service .... hehehehehe
oh sunshine i dont get any cookies

[bird]

The Journey is here...So Get your ass in gear for December to Remember

Well I went out walking and was all buncled up could barely see anyway kept hearing a whistling noise and there were 5 puppies around my feet and they were crying and they follwed me a very long way and back then a guy was whistling in his yard and they went there, hope they were his and not dropped off...picked up a bunch of pecans that blew off the trees into the road I can send to my friend for xmas she doesnt like me to spend money on her so...gotta get this stuff ready to be mailed and have a big mess all over geez...

[sunshinedaisies]

The Journey is here...So Get your ass in gear for December to Remember

Hey there all - LOL Jan re starting a rumour!! I nearly started one the other week re Grateful and joining her in bed! Anyway people I have to get to work - you will all be long in bed when I get home. Hope the rest of your day is good. Love and hugs to all,

Sun xx

[Topsy-Turvy-Tracy]

The Journey is here...So Get your ass in gear for December to Remember

Hi all. I'm hopelessly behind having been very busy at work and at home and with medical issues - but it's all letting up a bit. We're doing okay for the moment.

I hope everyone is doing well too. Miss you all but my MWO time is about up now. Have a good week everyone. I have promised myself not to shop this week. I'm getting my kids gift cards from Amazon. I'm even getting one for my one-year-old grandson! He visited last week and a lot was going on. My dog was everywhere looking for attention, we were playing with a remote control helicopter, etc. My grandson cared nothing for all that and wanted to play with the mouse for my computer, my cell phone (he even has a favorite app!) and my keyboard. He really is his father's son! I figure that it's okay because I suspect he will start school with some sort of e-reader and something like an i-pad, rather than a Big Chief tablet and big, fat pencils. We got to talking that night that cursive writing is probably close to pointless in this day and age. Weird world, but I'm going with the flow.

Hugs all around.

[rubywillow]

The Journey is here...So Get your ass in gear for December to Remember

I'm back for a second, guys. Ridiculously cold here, son is staying with us a few nights, and very real danger of frozen water pipes in all our houses. Supposed to be 12F here tonight (that's -11.1C), so the dogs just give me a dirty look when I open the door for them. I have to keep son and Berit separated b/c he never attempted to get to know her, and she knows he's terrified of her.
So good to hear from everyone, but especially Swanny and Grace, who we've all missed. Stay here, please. No judgements.
MB, I DO understand what you're saying, and I know it's not a racial thing, it's about the relationship with your adoptive parents. I'm sorry you never felt accepted, and that it has come to this. But we do what we have to.
Cookies were fantastic, if odd! :H Have more to make. One was supposed to be Jingle Balls, but I mistakenly said Reindeer Balls, and that's all Gracie will call them now. Oh ME!!

[mama bear]

The Journey is here...So Get your ass in gear for December to Remember

Hey all..been cleaning and doing laundry all day.....catching up from being gone all weekend......
Roger...one of will take you up on your teasing all day.....!!!!!

[mama bear]

The Journey is here...So Get your ass in gear for December to Remember

Topsy...I will miss you and I hope you are ok....
Hugs....
Mama

[rubywillow]

The Journey is here...So Get your ass in gear for December to Remember

Yes Top, you will be missed. Hope you at least visit. Just don't let him get hung up sitting in from of a screen instead of out living and playing!
Grace has already called wanting to make more cookies, but I told her today is just TOO bloomin' cold to get out, so she says she'll wait till tomorrow! She also said she has a surprise - Friday she's getting a baby pygmy goat, which her mother will let her keep inside till it gets warmer. LMFAO I can just see that OCD-ridden B trying to clean up behind a GOAT!!!

[Topsy-Turvy-Tracy]

The Journey is here...So Get your ass in gear for December to Remember

Thanks MB. I miss you too. I'm watching your "ratings" and getting a kick out of it. I haven't been able to follow what you like though.

We're okay. Hubby has a doc appt because he got sick and isn't getting better. He had a bad fever but, thankfully, it's mostly gone. Now, he's left with a terrible headache and a really nasty cough. He turns plum colored when he's coughing crap up (those episodes are disturbing and have the violence of vomiting), and the head pain is kicking his butt. He has more energy today though and has a doc appt today. I have an appt on Weds. to discuss my experiment with baclofen and antabuse and all that. I haven't gotten what he has yet, but I feel it may be coming on today. The nerve pain and back pain and on and on, and that's the stuff that is kicking my butt - and it never goes away.

My big mistake was turning 50. My body was fairly okay before that, but my brain never has been and the combo may be more than I can handle.

Sometimes I think that if a doc told me tomorrow that I had incurable cancer, I would be okay with that. I think it might be a relief. Life has never been a joy to me.

My husband and I were talking last night, and he kind of feels the same way. We made each other a promise that we would prop each other up and not do the whole dual suicide thing, because we couldn't do that to our kids. But we aren't not doing it because we see a lot of hope and joy in our future. I do not. It's because we don't want to hurt our kids. That's how dark life is right now.

If someone told me that I had an out, that I wouldn't be in pain all the time - mentally and physically - and that I wouldn't have any responsibility about someone else being hurt by my getting out of all that - I think I would be relieved. I have my kids and my grandson and their future - but, I don't think it's going to be a good future, and I don't think that I can change that fact, and . . . I don't want to watch them go through it. I can't help. I can't do anything.

Maybe life might get better. I hope so, but really I doubt it. I hang in there because I feel responsible for others - not because I really want to be breathing. I guess that's a bad space. I think it's my space now though. I don't see a way out of this space. Well, I do see one way out! Mama, I don't want to do this anymore. I resent that I'm only here because my conscience plagues me - that's a nasty joke and a hell in itself! Can't I just make this one choice - just for me? I'm probably going to take a nap soon. I wish the nap could last forever. I wish I would never wake up to face how badly my life has gone, how I've failed everyone who ever mattered, and how screwed they would be not matter what I did, and how pain from all that has is overcoming my feelings for the very people who matter.

I don't know what to do with all that. It's hopeless, and I don't even want suggestions on anything to do with all that. I just want out. That's how I really feel.

Anyway, I'm going to take a nap, and I'll wake up (crap, I dread that part), and I'll make dinner and go to bed proper and go to work tomorrow and go through that grind and won't get back here for days and I won't particularly care that I don't get back. It wouldn't matter if I did. So, please do not feel inclined to post lots of hopeful things or suggestions or anything. It is what it is. Should I feel guilty now about posting such negative stuff that someone who needs hope may read - and on and on it goes? I have enough guilt going. I'm just going to hit "quick reply" and everyone else will have to fend for themselves.

I don't need to know what to do. I need to even want something to do. I don't have that.

Edited to add: My husband just called. He gave me "words of wisdom" from a friend. He said that the whole suicide thing is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. I guess if I thought of it all as "temporary," it wouldn't be a problem anyway - in my mind anyway.

[NoraC]

The Journey is here...So Get your ass in gear for December to Remember

Tracy - I am so sorry that things seem so bleak, dark, awful for you. I do want to tell you one thing. My best friend just tried to commit suicide and it was awful. But, I do want to tell you.....that she had just given up......she said that she is finally able to wake up and not think about if today is the day. She has so many issues - health wise also. But, please try to remember that it can change.
A week ago, she was so angry that her attempt didn't work. Today, she is grateful that it didn't.
It's hard to see past the thick wall before you...but you have to remember that there is light on the other side. We do care....
:h:h