The Journey is here...So Get your ass in gear for December to Remember

[tlrgs]

The Journey is here...So Get your ass in gear for December to Remember

NoraC;1022257 wrote: Tracy - I am so sorry that things seem so bleak, dark, awful for you. I do want to tell you one thing. My best friend just tried to commit suicide and it was awful. But, I do want to tell you.....that she had just given up......she said that she is finally able to wake up and not think about if today is the day. She has so many issues - health wise also. But, please try to remember that it can change.
A week ago, she was so angry that her attempt didn't work. Today, she is grateful that it didn't.
It's hard to see past the thick wall before you...but you have to remember that there is light on the other side. We do care....
:h:h

i was trying to think of something to say to you topsy and nora said it all
and yes we are here for you ... so when you come back we'll be right here to surport you in every way .. love and hugs

[rubywillow]

The Journey is here...So Get your ass in gear for December to Remember

Tracy, sometimes everything out there looks like SH*T. I don't have words of advice. Sometimes it all looks worthless, and you're there right now. All I can say, if we somehow make ourselves 'disappear', in any way, there are so many others left to deal with it. I've seen that WAY too much this year, TOO up close and personal, and I am haunted. Can't imagine what their mates and children feel. I once said it was 'cursed.'
You never said you wanted to end yourself. I'm glad. And I can't give you advice to get past this barrier in life's road. I've been lucky in much, unlucky in more. And some days I want to crawl UNDER the bed. But I stick with the thing an old man told me (I'm 59), 'Any day above ground is a good day. It means we lived through the night.' That has a lot of connotations. And I'm sure you're SO tired, SO discouraged, SO desperate. But SOMEONE cares. SOMEONE wants you to be here.
I don't know your story. I've been at the 'Dark Gate' myself. What came to me then, is no help to you. It was my personal struggle. Someone once told me, 'It doesn't matter how much money you make, that's what you spend.' I'm just realizing that. I began researching, especially when I started the web, websites that taught us how to live, on what we had or didn't, how to find ways to dig ourselves out. I completely realize this probably doesn't speak to you. You need specifics, and if you will contact me, I will give them to you. It's not my belief,.........it's a FACT!! - every soul born into this life is important, fantastic, cruicial. And you are, my friend. Not right now, the way you feel, but when you learn how, it can be. Have you ever thought maybe no one ever took the time to teach you how to be a grown up and cope??
I'm praying (yes, I believe) you will read this, and it will mean something. Otherwise, you could end up one of the heartaches I suffer every night before sleep. Everyone who has had an impact on my life, and you, Top, have, effects me when you are gone. And I don't know where you are.
PM, e-mail me please. I'm sorry I was public about these thoughts, but I'm concerned. But I can say the same words to all those who have crossed, walked beside, tried my path. I, and so many more here, care, and will do what we can to show you how, find out how, you can finally smile one day. It brings sunshine in.
Ruby/Connie

[Grateful]

The Journey is here...So Get your ass in gear for December to Remember

Tracy-Just want you to know that I am here and I care about you. I was listening to an audio tape today on the way to work...and the person was telling how at a conference she asked how many people would like the new $50 bill she was holding...of course everyone raised their hand...then she dropped it on the floor and crushed it with her foot and picked it up...it was dirty & crumpled and again she asked how many people would like it? They all still wanted it...it still had value, just like us. No matter what has happened to us or what we have done - or not done, we still have value....we are important - maybe for reasons we don't realize yet.

:h:h

[tlrgs]

The Journey is here...So Get your ass in gear for December to Remember

oh some good news on the home front just had an appt for some small work just come in at 630 and well got the job just waiting on the lady to come up with a good time for her .. for me to do the work and i have to thank my ex for this one a friend of a friend well co-worker ... so things are looking good well getting better and i just might have that one job i bidded on yesterday ... the guy has been sending back and forth email asking questions

[Grateful]

The Journey is here...So Get your ass in gear for December to Remember

Rog-I'm so happy for you - it's great to see some jobs coming in for you!!!!

[tlrgs]

The Journey is here...So Get your ass in gear for December to Remember

thank you grateful sorry i didnt post any word of the day today .. been trying to stay busy and positive posting adds here there and everywhere on line

[rubywillow]

The Journey is here...So Get your ass in gear for December to Remember

Congratulations, Rog!! Merry Christmas!!!

[tlrgs]

The Journey is here...So Get your ass in gear for December to Remember

rubywillow;1022315 wrote: Congratulations, Rog!! Merry Christmas!!!

ok lets not get outa hand here with all the merry this and thats lets say baahummm buggy ...
JUST KIDDING SISTER RUBY MERRY XMAS TO YOU TOO AND ONE AND ALL ...
as tiny tim said hehehehehe

[rubywillow]

The Journey is here...So Get your ass in gear for December to Remember

I am NOT carrying you on my back, Rog!!!! Tiny Tim or not.

[tlrgs]

The Journey is here...So Get your ass in gear for December to Remember

yeah but im so light as a feather ... hehehehe ..no wories sis i usally carry my own

[Ringing Cedars]

The Journey is here...So Get your ass in gear for December to Remember

Evening Jammers! Soooo tired and I still have to post on my af journey. I think I stay warmer bringing the wood in than trying to keep the house warm with it! It's great if I could be home all day stoking it like on a Sunday. Oh well at least I have a stove with wood to stoke it. I pm'd Tracy. Hope she replies. Good news on the work Roger!! Check in later guys and dolls. xox

[sunshinedaisies]

The Journey is here...So Get your ass in gear for December to Remember

Topsy - I am so sorry for the way you are feeling. I wish I had been there for you. I have just got in from work. Need to get warmed up now, sort Maggie out and I think I am going to go to bed. i am really tired tonight. see you all in the morning.

love and hugs,

Sun XX

[tlrgs]

The Journey is here...So Get your ass in gear for December to Remember

i can really understand now ..how life is the way things have gone right,wrong and every way in-between ... and still today i don't have all the answers to everything...
like the holidays why some depression comes in the picture and yeah i wish there was none but still there is some ..
for me there alot of things i wish i could do so much more .. for my family and friends and i know not everyone see or understand everything about who i am ..
I'm a person that has found some meaning in life now ..
but hear me out at times i would love to just go to sleep and not wake up also ..
i get depress for many reason .. missing my sons feeling like I'm not doing enough for them .. feeling i could be doing more for myself and sue .. but many would not even do what i have to done .. many sacrifice's just to be here ... but i do alot for everyone in my life .. I'm just that way .. and i don't let a lot of people in my head to really get to know me ..

I'm afraid if i tell everyone everything ..
they just might do ..what i know they would.. is always walk away and judge me for who i was and not even look at what or who i am today as a person ..
a person that is sober,happy most of the time ..
but would welcome death at any moment and yes at times i wish for it..
i get tired of doing this ..working the way i have to .. to just make a buck ..
not many people would even begin to start to understand what it is to have a dream most of my life and make so many mistakes in life ..where i had It all and for me to just throw it away,drinking and drugs ..
having the chance to own a house ..but it was my fault where my ex left me and took the kids and left me there in jail ..and i lost my first business ..
being here for them and trying everything to make things better ..
but seem like everything i try.. everything just get even harder ..
so many road blocks and i get over one and one more comes along....

but today I'm able to look back and say I'm trying my best ..
yeah some people might say i could be doing things one way,a better way..
but like the saying goes ..
what works for one doesn't always work for another..
so ill keep doing what I'm doing to make the best of it and make the best of the time i have with my kids ..so that they can remember what i am today..
not yesterday and ill be living life on life's term ..but one day at a time ...

so to anyone out there that might be thinking of not waking up tomorrow take the good with the bad and know there is more good to life then you really think and you are worth so much more..
love and hugs stay strong anbd keep shifting forward and keep those asses in gear

[Grateful]

The Journey is here...So Get your ass in gear for December to Remember

Roger-you are a man so full of wisdom...thank you for the reminder to all of us that we are worth so much more than we may think..and for being honest that even you may sometimes have those feelings of not wanting to wake up...I, too, have those feelings...and I bet a lot of others have them too in these challenging times we are all facing. Just last night...facing another night of snide remarks and put downs from my "better" half.....I was feeling worthless, having no hope. All I can say is thank you...I will try again today...that's all I can do. :h:h

[bird]

The Journey is here...So Get your ass in gear for December to Remember

Hi all
That is good honest posts now and yeah I get those feelings too and more often as I get older. Probably alot more people or maybe all of us and hard to admit it. Life is tough and sometimes I wonder what I am doing here. Seems like I work and work and get nowhere with myself. My kids love me though and I could never bow out voluntarilly. Still think of it though. Hell if life weren't a struggle what fun would it be? We wouldn't know fun. So anyway there is my 2 cents......really cold now and my kid got pissed off at me this a.m. for calling her to come on out of the bathroom twice. I mean gawd she been in there 30 minutes and the bus was coming....well I gotta settle down and get my mailing stuff done and wrap the kids stuff.....later