Just Two Glasses
Thanks for the insightful and supportive responses everyone. I do think it's important to see how drinking effects us, regardless of how much we drink.
As for Hubby's kisses...Sometimes I turn my head and hug him. Sometimes I nestle my face into his neck. Sometimes I let him kiss me, and just hope he doesn't notice or care. He is a two drink a day guy, and doesn't object to my drinking two drinks. But he does think it's unhealthy for me to have the first one before he gets home, and to do so makes me feel ashamed.
Peacenik, it's always nice to be told "lighten up on yourself", but in this case I disagree. If I don't look closely and seriously at my behavior, I won't change it. And to be clear, two glasses is a limit I used to exceed fairly often. I did six months AF, from Feb. to August. Then I started testing the waters of occasional drinking. But that was supposed to be "at social events" or "out to dinner with Hubby"...not on a school night, cooking dinner and helping the kids with homework. This is what we all call the "slippery slope" and I see it in front of me.
So yes, it will be an AF Tuesday for me! I will be interested to see how bad the cravings are at 5:00 tonight. How many AF days or weeks or months or years do most people find it takes to stop having cravings?
Thanks for the insightful and supportive responses everyone. I do think it's important to see how drinking effects us, regardless of how much we drink.
As for Hubby's kisses...Sometimes I turn my head and hug him. Sometimes I nestle my face into his neck. Sometimes I let him kiss me, and just hope he doesn't notice or care. He is a two drink a day guy, and doesn't object to my drinking two drinks. But he does think it's unhealthy for me to have the first one before he gets home, and to do so makes me feel ashamed.
Peacenik, it's always nice to be told "lighten up on yourself", but in this case I disagree. If I don't look closely and seriously at my behavior, I won't change it. And to be clear, two glasses is a limit I used to exceed fairly often. I did six months AF, from Feb. to August. Then I started testing the waters of occasional drinking. But that was supposed to be "at social events" or "out to dinner with Hubby"...not on a school night, cooking dinner and helping the kids with homework. This is what we all call the "slippery slope" and I see it in front of me.
So yes, it will be an AF Tuesday for me! I will be interested to see how bad the cravings are at 5:00 tonight. How many AF days or weeks or months or years do most people find it takes to stop having cravings?
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