Underoos and Friends Jan 2011

[_Pan]

Underoos and Friends Jan 2011

I don't mean it. Mish, if you don't have BPD, then you can't really say.

[startingover]

Underoos and Friends Jan 2011

_Pan;1050287 wrote: I don't mean it. Mish, if you don't have BPD, then you can't really say.

You are doing it again
Blaming your bad behaviour on something other than yourself

[_Pan]

Underoos and Friends Jan 2011

None of you can tell me what this is like. None of you know, unless you have gone through it. I don't know, for goodness sake. All I do know is that I am nasty to the people I love the most. Just ask my husband. I don't mean to do it. That's why I am getting a psychiatric evaluation, at my request.

[Mish]

Underoos and Friends Jan 2011

Point taken, but I was diagnosed with it and treated for it by a good psychiatrist for 7 years and he never twigged that I wasn't, so I must have some inkling what it feels like.
You don't mean what?

[_Pan]

Underoos and Friends Jan 2011

Yes, Starts, exactly!

[_Pan]

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I do blame, and I have spent many months evaluating that. I try very hard not to do that any more.

[_Pan]

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I realise I am mentally ill.

[_Pan]

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Mish, I won't comment on your reply, because I don't know you and I can just see myself getting into more trouble. Not to say anything against your post.

[Rags]

Underoos and Friends Jan 2011

Bridge, Tawn,
A little problem just arose with me but as there's another problem on the thread I'll PM you what I just sent Missy. i think I am in line for another JONESY up my bum.

[Mish]

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_Pan;1050295 wrote: Mish, I won't comment on your reply, because I don't know you and I can just see myself getting into more trouble. Not to say anything against your post.

How do you see yourself getting into more trouble? Are you anticipating it? Sounds a bit like victim-talk to me.
Not going to get drawn into the dance.

[_Pan]

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Mish, maybe.

[_Pan]

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Starts, I am not blaming my bad behaviour on anyone but myself. I need to stop it. I am not blaming at all. I am simply trying to explain and apologise. I do not want to be like this. Is there anyone out there that remembers me? I do.

[_Pan]

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ME. The person I used to be.

[Mish]

Underoos and Friends Jan 2011

_Pan;1050300 wrote: Mish, maybe.You can't change bad behaviour unless you acknowledge it first...this looks like a good start.
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_Pan;1050293 wrote: I do blame, and I have spent many months evaluating that. I try very hard not to do that any more.

_Pan;1050301 wrote: Starts, I am not blaming my bad behaviour on anyone but myself. I need to stop it. I am not blaming at all. I am simply trying to explain and apologise. I do not want to be like this. Is there anyone out there that remembers me? I do.

Which is it? You sound a bit ambivalent here, but please stop apologising for yourself all the time. We get it. Like many of us here, you have mental health issues. We don't use them as an excuse for unkindness. I read somewhere that you'd told Tawny you'd told her you wished she was dead...that has less to do with mental illness and more to do with character and maturity. Being ill doesn't make everyone mean spirited, but what's in our heart can come spilling out if we're that way inclined.
I know you can work toward getting better and succeed, but instead of getting defensive (very easy to do), try and take on board what's being said and applying it.
I really do wish you well, Pan, but 'poor me' posts are energy drainers and I, for one, need all my energy to work on myself, and get it from positive and funny posts from others, who, even though they may be suffering, try to put an amusing spin on things. They're the ones we're more inclined to reach out to and offer love and support.
Think about it.

[_Pan]

Underoos and Friends Jan 2011

Mish, thankyou. I don't want to get into an argument.