The Journey begins here...So Get your ass in gear for 2011

[Saving Grace]

The Journey begins here...So Get your ass in gear for 2011

I've been lurking, getting to know all the newbies on here and following everyone I feel i know, although most don't have a clue who I am. At times, that is best!

You can all be so proud, and I am of you. Love watching the progress everyone is making in their lives! :goodjob:

I've been battling depression and working my way out of it repeatedly. I've become a recluse to the point I don't even want to buy groceries anymore.

I have procrastinated my orders for my home business to the point they are now mounting up and going to take an amazing amount of effort on my part to accomplish. Difficult jobs, I do over and over in my mind trying to figure out the best way to make them, good to a point, then a one day several orders come in and now, wow?.so behind! I know I will get them done, I always do. Just hate it when my life and emotions take over my better judgement!

I became so positive a few weeks ago! I had my plan together!
We can only change ourselves, our happiness first of all comes from within, love thy self, etc. Then my husband, a miracle it seemed, came around, professed love for me, then few days later, went back to his old ways and I am having to get out of that horrible pit again! Hate that I let my guard down. It has just been the last month or so I did finally realize, some things are never going to change and I need to take care of myself, that is what I mean by letting my guard down.

Lately I've read some of you posting about age. It is so true, the years fly by! I am 60 now, how can that be possible! I forget and just kind of feel as if I am still in my 40's.
I'm starting to see I'd better be enjoying life now, time doesn't loom forever in the future anymore!

Ok, I need to get to my work room! I know I'll feel better when start on these orders and can ship a few.

I just wonder why I am my worst enemy? Why do I make my life so hard to live? I can't seem to separate my emotions, my pain, etc. from just living in a healthy way. I almost feel if I take the blame, I don't have to face facts and make desperate changes. Does that make any sense?

Sorry for the self centered, complaining post. I am working on this! Just feel so isolated, maybe just do this every month or so, OK?

I know the answers, I tell myself over and over again. I'll keep at it! Will post when I am out of this slump and shipping orders!
:thanks: for letting me vent?

[NoraC]

The Journey begins here...So Get your ass in gear for 2011

Casey's is just his restricted license but at least he can drive back & forth to college.

[Grateful]

The Journey begins here...So Get your ass in gear for 2011

Saving..it's nice to see you here again and this is the place to vent or cry or whatever you want. It seems like quite a few of us are in the same boat as far as depression and being emotional or feeling alone. Ruby reminded us earlier how the winter months can be the cause of some of these feelings...I know I am definitely a sunshine, warm weather person. I'm not sure where you are, but it is definitely gloomy outside here today!!

Nora...that's good that Casey can drive to college...saves you from driving him!!
I better get back to work....only 45 minutes to go.

[NoraC]

The Journey begins here...So Get your ass in gear for 2011

Grace - I'm so glad that you posted. I understand completely what you are talking about. I have certainly been where you are. I could manage to drive to work and home....the grocery store was overwhelming. Hang in there. Please stick here & post. It really does help.:h:h

[rubywillow]

The Journey begins here...So Get your ass in gear for 2011

Crazy day, won't bore you with it. Nora, that restricted license is a good thing. He's got to learn accountability for himself. It's so hard for us mommas to watch them in pain, but how else do they grow up? Let him clean up his messes, and you take care of you, sweet girl.
Grate, hope you're feeling better, love. You TOO need to be a little selfish, think about you instead of everyone else a bit. Let them wipe their own nose for a while. Come stay with me and let them all fend on their own!! You too Nora.I promise, NO one can easily find us at my place!!And it's even harder to get in the door!!:H
Grace, darlin', I've been worried about you not posting recently. Read above advice. You beautiful women need to realize HOW special, How important, How wonderful you all are. Most martyrs are dead, you know, and I prefer to enjoy my time now, not being a saint in pictures. Besides, when we enable our loved ones in their bad behaviour, we cripple them emotionally. It's not doing them a favor!! I've fought that battle with my over-indulgent in-laws for our son's lifetime, since they try to pay for every mistake he's made. It's my fault I haven't fought harder against it, and the problems it's caused. Anyway, my foot is solidly down now, and he's doing remarkably better.
Sun, WHAT??? Not coming to Dixie to take me on yet?? I'd end up hugging you to pieces, love.
I cheated and bought BBQ dinners from a good friend's restaurant for tonight. It's wonderful! Hubs should be home between now and whenever.

[Saving Grace]

The Journey begins here...So Get your ass in gear for 2011

I deleted the huge post I made again! Reading is what I need to do.
Thanks!

[tlrgs]

The Journey begins here...So Get your ass in gear for 2011

roger is down for the count ... i had one hell of a fall .. and one crazy FUCKING DAYAND A START OF ONE well had a leak .. not on anything i did .. one on the frid ice maker line .. which i never had to move go behide or anything and not even unhook it from from, under the sink... well like just say their house is on a concete slab and their house is maybe 25 years old and they .. had the same looking wood tiles .. WHICH JUST STARTED TO POP UP AFTER A NIGHT OF WATER ... I WAS fucking freaking out checking everything i put together the night before and .. and nothing was leaking so i look behide the frid and there it was just hanging there a plastic water line that was conected to the check value and also conected to a rubber nibble thats only had this tiwan bull shit clamp...
i love my job but today was A TEST FROM HELL.. TO ME ALSO WANTING TO STAY SOBER and the fucking fall was after that ..there goes my hip .. need to take some pain pill and just relax meybe for tonight and tomorrow and pray im good by thursday
so how was all yal's day hoping better

[fennel]

The Journey begins here...So Get your ass in gear for 2011

Geez, What a day you had, Roger ...take your pill, have some supper and have a much deserved rest. I hope tomorrow is better.

[mama bear]

The Journey begins here...So Get your ass in gear for 2011

Shit Rog are you ok??? I brought home work so cant talk, but I am here for all of you.
Does L-glut cause headaches?? My head has been pounding all day. Saving...please hang in there. We love you.
Off to work
Kisses

[rubywillow]

The Journey begins here...So Get your ass in gear for 2011

Baby brother, I'm SO sorry. S*%t happens, and we have to go on and answer to the ones who want the job done. I know you too well to imagine this was your fault, but still you have to deal with the bumps and bruises. Rest well, my sweet friend. And tomorrow, take your time, don't get too upset, and keep everything recorded that you do and happens. Some people are really awful at looking for something to accuse their problems on, and keep from paying. Don't let it sway your resolve, hon.
Nora, Grate, you too seem like partners in problems. The same things happening in ways. Hope that doesn't offend, because you know I hope how much I love you both. Wish I could wrap you both up in front of the TV in front of the windows and fireplace at the cabin, and supply you with a non-ending cup of my bean soup!! Take care of yourselves, my loves.
Fen, I wish you could post more here each day. You are a breath of fresh air, and you are always so funny and point on.
Grace, I'm SO happy you're here again. And I hope you don't get discouraged, think you have to earn a place here, because I have REALLY missed you, and those who've come in since you will come to get involved with you too. I certainly don't want to lose you again, sweetie. So keep jumping in, and stay here this time. And DON'T underestimate yourself anymore, or continue your hermit style. It doesn't help us. I know how bright and beautiful you are, so get your butt in gear and get out there, build your own life. Big :hug: to you, hon.
OK, wake up, check in, everyone else. I can't be here much during the day now, but I love you all, and am so busy now. But I'm looking for our MIA's!!! :H

[sunshinedaisies]

The Journey begins here...So Get your ass in gear for 2011

Having trouble with computer/internet - keep losing posts - hopefully fixed tomorrow. - Oh NOW it is staying on - this is the first time is has stayed on for longer than a few

love to all

Sun xx

[allswell]

The Journey begins here...So Get your ass in gear for 2011

Wow Roger,

Hope all is ok. I've been in those same shoes where the fingers get pointed in my direction and somehow I have to wave a magic wand when it was the customer/client f-up or someone else trying to weasel out of it. Rest up and take care.

[sunshinedaisies]

The Journey begins here...So Get your ass in gear for 2011

I am back - I think is is my monitor 'cos it started to get smaller so I hit save them it went black - it is back! Rog - I am so sorry about your fall! Do hope that you feel better and you haven't hurt yourself - I am sure that the problem wasn't your fault and it was just an unhappy coincidence that you were there!! Saving Grace - glad that you are here - I can't post much 'cos I am scared I am going to lose my internet but everyone - I want you all to know that I am with you in spirit and my loving thoughts go out to you all. Hopefully my computer will be sorted when i get up - the internet fairy will come in the night??? Anyway - I am tired and disgruntled so am going to get my hot water bottle and go to bed. Hugs to all - and a special healing hug for Rog. Love, Sun XX

[Grateful]

The Journey begins here...So Get your ass in gear for 2011

Roger...I am so sorry for your rotten day and very concerned about your hip, even though I know you are a young buck:H. Hopefully you do have some pain medicine...if not, let me know and I will send some thru the computer. Our Momma Ruby is right about recording everything and trying not to get too upset.....tomorrow will be better.

Sunny....you still believe in the internet fairy? We need to have a talk. Did you check to make sure all the cables are plugged in tight?

Ruby...unfortunately, I have been thru with my older son what Nora is going thru with her son....only 10x worse (it seems!). But, once again because of this wonderful site, we can understand how each one of us is feeling. Thank you for the warm, cozy thought of being in front of your fireplace with your bean soup.....oh I haven't had homemade bean soup in years.....I used to make it southern style with cornbread.....but now nobody but me likes it so I'll wait to have some of yours.

Good to see you, Allswell. Fennel-were you in PA tonight? I thought I saw you cross in front of my car when I was leaving work.......Mama - I am supposed to be working tonight too...I have a ton of bank statements to do for work...so, I better get.

Sleep tight everyone.....

[tlrgs]

The Journey begins here...So Get your ass in gear for 2011

actally they are being kool about everything .. and i usally hate when people watch me work but i like it this time she knows everthing i did and they know its not my fault ..so they just said to measure out for tile and she going to look and order .. thankx love and hugs