Apology to Those on Chat Last Night

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A big apology to those on chat last night. I was insane. I took some olmifon (adrafinil) the French alert drug and I drank some wine. I am not making an excuse really and not blaming it on the drugs. I think sometimes I actually enjoy being an asshole in cyberspace. It is freeing.

But I was agressive & even a bully especially to Fan, trying to get him to communicate when he did not want to. I had no right to do so.

I think I am going to take Lucky's advice and remind myself that I came to these boards for information and knowledge and not relationships. Things seem to go better that way.

Thank you for your toleration.

Chrysa

[TheKanga]

Apology to Those on Chat Last Night

Chrysa............

the beauty of cyberspace is exactly that...........speak your mind..........

"But I was agressive & even a bully especially to Fan, trying to get him to communicate when he did not want to. I had no right to do so"

You said and did what you thought was appropriate at the time......................don't get yer knickers in a twist.

"I think I am going to take Lucky's advice and remind myself that I came to these boards for information and knowledge and not relationships. Things seem to go better that way"

Not always the case love.

[C]

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Thank you Kanga .. you really are precious and may be the funniest guy I know...and a lot wise too

[lucky 2.0]

Apology to Those on Chat Last Night

Lucky is getting a new name.

[C]

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L

lucky wrote: Lucky is getting a new name.

why?

[C]

Apology to Those on Chat Last Night

Oh -- OK Fan-- thank you. That is hard for me I guess. Guess it is the guilt thing. I don't know.

[happycamper68]

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Chrys,
You should look at your previous posts and myabe see how many times you've apologized the next day for a prior night on chat. Just a thought.

[C]

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Very good point. And the point is???

[C]

Apology to Those on Chat Last Night

OK. I looked. In total there are 2, this one & another. The others must have been to you personally in private message. OK, I get it. Well I just can't apologize for those apologies because I thought I may have genuinely hurt you. Those 2 on the board were more to all, wondering if I offended anyone. But all in all, it really doesn't matter at all now.

[happycamper68]

Apology to Those on Chat Last Night

Well as long as it doesn't matter to you I guess that's all that matters...

Apologizing in public is pretty manipulative for something you did in private. Didn't give Fan much of a choice...
Batter, apologize, batter, apologize, I see a pattern here. I've only said anything because I've been on the other end of it myself and I think you really do need to take a look at it and not get mad at me.

[abby1]

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Chrysalis,
I don't believe ONE person here has woken up a the next day and wished they could take things back they had done they night before. Probably more than once!!! Even to apologize if good enough for me. You have a good heart and the right intentions.
Abby

[C]

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Camper, I am not mad at you at all. I will take a look at it though. Thanks. Ok ..just did. The thing with Fan is quite different than with you.

I definitely have a co-dependent streak and want to fix everything--that is my problem with you.

Fan is a mystery to me for some reason. I wonder what is really going on his head & I tried to pull it out of him & it failed. Because I am no match for the game.

Anyway, gotta go home. I don't want to play anymore anyway.

[TracyA]

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Chrys, if I had a nickel for every time I acted in nasty fashion (I'll bet in much worse fashion than you ever did) and hurt someone feelings online, then woke up feeling like a mean-spirited fool ...

Haven't done it in a long time though. Feeling like crap and apologizing gets old.

Go easy on yourself, and go easy on Fan too. I hear the muffs are kinda wearing him out anyway.

Hugs,

Tracy

[Helensback]

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darn

I can't get into chat for the life of me and I'm missing all the good stuff.

Pooh and damnation.

Helen

[C]

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Fan,
Very good point. Really. I need to remember that. I will try to remember that.

Thank you.
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