I feel like I chickened out

[magnum]

I'm on day 8 of being AF and I belong to one of largest fraternal organizations in the world. Today we had our winter meeting and the first part went by so fast and we were given a 4 hour break.....4 hours to socialize. Socialize with free booze....I lasted 15 minutes and I was thinking of having a drink. I couldn't take it, so I made up a lie that I felt like I was getting a migraine and left. Now, I know I did the right thing by leaving and not drinking but it feels like I'm running away from my problem and not facing it.

[Ringing Cedars]

I feel like I chickened out

Fire burns--should you jump in one? Maybe that's poor analogy. It just jumped into my head. I think you were brilliant!:goodjob::goodjob::goodjob:

[Ringing Cedars]

I feel like I chickened out

I'm on day 8 too. New Years was a fire for me.:upset:

[fennel]

I feel like I chickened out

I think you did the right thing. We have the same sobriety date - at this early stage, there's no way I'd stay in that situation. It's way too much, too soon. Cut yourself some slack. :l

[mama bear]

I feel like I chickened out

I think that was an excellent decision Magnum.

[fighting back]

I feel like I chickened out

magnum;1037982 wrote: I'm on day 8 of being AF and I belong to one of largest fraternal organizations in the world. Today we had our winter meeting and the first part went by so fast and we were given a 4 hour break.....4 hours to socialize. Socialize with free booze....I lasted 15 minutes and I was thinking of having a drink. I couldn't take it, so I made up a lie that I felt like I was getting a migraine and left. Now, I know I did the right thing by leaving and not drinking but it feels like I'm running away from my problem and not facing it.

Give yourself a break magnum, you did the right thing. You can't achieve everything all at once and you put your sobriety first which is absolutely what should be your priority. Well done to you!

[mylife]

I feel like I chickened out

Hi Magnum, in my book you did the strong thing. Chickening out would have been having a drink. I say kudos to you for being so strong to leave!! :goodjob:

[BzzBee62]

I feel like I chickened out

Indeed Magnum, you ran and didn't face it.

Is there any harm in that?

Bzz.

[Laurel74]

I feel like I chickened out

Good job! I will be facing a similar situation tonight. I am going to arrive late and leave early!! What you did was definitely not chickening out. I agree that chickening out would be having that drink. Way to go!!! You inspire me. ODAT

[NoraC]

I feel like I chickened out

Congratulations! Wise choice.

[Bean]

I feel like I chickened out

SMART decision to leave Magnum. When I read "I lasted 15 minutes..." I thought for sure you had caved in, but no, you got yourself out of a hard situation without making a big fuss of it and didn't give into your cravings. Sobriety and self respect still intact. Way to go!

No way that's chickening out!

[madmans]

I feel like I chickened out

Right choice , you walked away that takes balls to do you should feel happy not beating yourself up

[Chillgirl]

I feel like I chickened out

Magnum you are a star! This is not running away, this is listening to your authentic self and removing yourself from a potentially dangerous situation. Fantastic job! Coping with social functions AF takes practice and many of us arrive late and leave early, some even keep the engine running

[clthorson75]

I feel like I chickened out

I am deeply proud of that. As a person still in his first months of sobriety you did something amazing. You found the strength to walk away. Remember how AL lied to us. If you have lie to it, oh well, better to protect your sobriety than the other alternative. HUGE STEP! :goodjob:

[chartreuse_lily]

I feel like I chickened out

You did the right thing by leaving-- you made your sobriety the top priority and did what you had to do to protect it. It's not cowardly, it's the smart thing to do.

Wait till you're good and ready and feeling strong and stable in your recovery, then you can work on coming to terms with situations where people are drinking around you.